The Shining Girls A Novel

Harper

1 MAY 1993

He is surprised to see how close they stay, despite cars and trains and the buzzing fury of O’Hare Airport. They are easy to track down, he’s found. Mostly they’re drawn to the city, which keeps expanding its reaches further and further into the countryside, like mould laying claim to a piece of bread.

The phone book is usually his starting point, but Catherine Galloway-Peck doesn’t appear in the lists of names. So he phones her parents instead.

‘Hello,’ her father’s voice comes through the instrument clear as if he were standing right beside him.

‘I’m looking for Catherine. Can you tell me where to find her?’

‘I’ve told you lot before, she doesn’t live here and we have absolutely nothing, do you hear me, nothing to do with her debts.’ There is a hard click, followed by a sweet monotone hum. He realizes the man is no longer on the other end of the line, so he inserts another quarter into the little slot and goes through the whole process again, jabbing deliberately at the silver keys, the numbers grubby and weathered by other fingers. The handset trills for a long time.

‘Yes?’ Mr Peck’s voice is careful.

‘Do you know where she is? I need to find her.’

‘For Pete’s sake,’ the man says. ‘You need to get the message. Just leave us alone.’ He waits in vain for him to answer; long enough for the fear to manifest. ‘Hello?’

‘Hello.’

‘Oh. I wasn’t sure if you were still there.’ He is uncertain. ‘Is she all right? Has something happened? Oh God. Did she do something?’

‘Why would Catherine do something?’

‘I don’t know. I don’t know why she does anything. We paid for her to go to that place. We tried to understand. They said it’s not her fault, but—’

‘Which place?’

‘New Hope Recovery Center.’

Harper gently replaces the instrument.

He doesn’t find her there, but he goes to one of the meetings affiliated with New Hope’s halfway house, where he sits quietly and (as the name suggests) anonymously, listening to sniveling sob stories until he is able to get her new address from a very helpful old-lady ex-junkie called Abigail, who is delighted that Catherine’s ‘uncle’ is reaching out to her.





Catherine

9 JUNE 1993

Catherine Galloway-Peck paces in front of the blank canvas. Tomorrow she will take it down to Huxley and sell it for twenty bucks, even though that’s what the stretching cost alone. But he’ll feel sorry for her, and give her a hit too. She might have to throw in a blowjob. But she’s not a whore. It’s a favor. Friends help each other out. You can help a friend feel good.

Besides, art is supposed to be fuelled by depression and substance abuse. Look at Kerouac. Or Mapplethorpe. Haring! Bacon! Basquiat! So how come when she looks at the blank canvas, the weave of it plinks in her brain like an out-of-tune piano stuck on one note?

It’s not even a matter of starting. She has started a dozen times. Boldly, brilliantly, with a clear idea of where this will go. She can see the whole thing unfolding in her head. How the colors will layer over each other like bridges that will take her all the way to the end. But then it all becomes slippery. It skids away and she can’t keep hold of it and the colors become muddy. She ends up doing half-baked collages of pages torn out of old trashy novels she got for a dollar a box, painting over them again and again, obliterating the words. The idea was to make a lightbox out of them with pinpricks spelling out new sentences that only she would know.

It’s a relief to open the door and find him standing there. She’d thought it was Huxley, perhaps, pre-empting her need. Or Joanna, who sometimes drops off coffee and a sandwich, although she has been coming less often, and her eyes grow harder every time.

‘Can I come in?’ he asks.

‘Yes,’ she says, and pulls open the door, even though he is holding a knife and a pink bunny hairclip from what, eight years ago, if she does the math, but which looks like he bought it from the store yesterday. She realizes she has been anticipating him. Ever since she was twelve years old and he sat down next to her on the grass during the fireworks. She was waiting for her dad to come back from the portapotties because chili dogs never did agree with him. She said she wasn’t allowed to talk to strangers and she would call the police, but actually she was flattered that he was interested in her.

He explained that she was brighter than the explosions that boomed in the sky above the buildings, reflected in the glass. He could see her shine from all the way over there. Which meant he would have to kill her. Not now, but later. When she was all grown-up. But she should watch out for him. He’d reached up and she’d flinched away. He didn’t touch her, or only to take the clip from her hair. And it was that, more than the terrible inexplicable thing he’d said to her, that left her weeping inconsolably, to her father’s consternation, when he finally returned, pale and sweaty and clutching his stomach.

And isn’t that what set her on this course, this downward spiral? The man in the park who told her he was going to kill her.

That’s a terrible thing to say to a child, she thinks, but what she says is, ‘Would you like a drink?’ playing the polite hostess, as if she has anything to offer other than water in a paint-smeared glass.

She sold her bed two weeks ago, but she found a broken sofa on the sidewalk and inveigled Huxley to help her heft it up the stairs and then baptize it, because, c’mon, Cat, he wasn’t going to do that shit for free.

‘You told me I shone. Like fireworks. At the Taste of Chicago. Do you remember?’ She does a pirouette in the middle of the room and almost falls over. When was the last time she had something to eat? Tuesday?

‘But it’s not true.’

‘No,’ she says. She sits down heavily on the sofa. The cushions are on the floor. She had started tearing the seams up, looking for crumbs. A scrap of rock she’d missed. She used to have a Dustbuster so she could vacuum the cracks between the floorboards and pick through the bag when she got really desperate. But she can’t think what happened to it. She stares numbly at the discarded paperbacks with half the stories ripped out, scattered around the floor. It’s been cathartic, tearing the pages out, even if she’s not painting them. Destruction is a natural instinct.

‘You don’t shine any more.’ He holds out the hair clip for her to take.

‘I’m still going to have to go back,’ he says, angry with her. ‘To close the loop.’

She takes the clip, numbly. The pink bunny has her eyes closed, two little Xs and another for her mouth. Catherine thinks about eating it. A communion wafer for consumer society. That would be a good idea for a piece, actually. ‘I know. I’m sorry, I think it’s the drugs.’ But she knows that’s not true. It’s the reason she takes the drugs. Like her vision for her artwork that skids away, she can’t get a grip on the world. It’s too much for her. ‘Are you still going to kill me?’

‘Why would I waste my time.’ It’s not even a question.

‘You came. Didn’t you? I mean, you’re here. I’m not imagining this.’ She wraps her hand around the blade and he pulls it away. The burn in her palm makes her feel alive in a way she hasn’t in a long time. It’s clean and fierce. Not like the needle biting into the skin between her fingers, the crack mixed with white vinegar to make it injectable. ‘You promised.’

She grabs his hand and he sneers, but momentary panic glances across his features mingled with distaste. She knows that look, she’s seen it in people’s faces when she spins them her story about needing bus fare because she was mugged and she has to get home. Isn’t this what she’s been waiting for? Killing time. Because she needs to get to the place where the pictures in her head make sense. She needs him to take her there. Blood spattered on the canvas. Take that, Jackson Pollock.





Jin-Sook

23 MARCH 1993

CHICAGO SUN-TIMES

BRUTAL MURDER OF PASSIONATE HOUSING WORKER ROCKS CITY

by Richard Gane

CABRINI GREEN: A young social worker was found stabbed to death yesterday morning at 5 a.m. underneath the El line on the corner of West Schiller and North Orleans.

Jin-Sook Au (24) was a case worker for the Chicago Housing Authority (CHA) in one of the city’s most notorious housing projects. But the police refuse to speculate if the murder was gang-related.

‘We’re not releasing details at this time, in the interest of investigating all possibilities,’ Detective Larry Amato said. ‘We’d like to encourage anyone who may have any information to come talk to us urgently.’

Her body was discovered two blocks away from the trendy restaurant and comedy club district of Old Town. No witnesses have yet come forward.

CHAstaff and residents of Cabrini Green have reacted with shock. CHA spokesperson Andrea Bishop said, ‘Jin-Sook was a bright young woman whose passion and insight made a real impact. We’re deeply saddened and horrified by her loss.’

Tonya Gardener, a Cabrini resident, said that Ms Au would be sorely missed in the community. ‘She was real decent at explaining. You felt like you knew what was going on, even if she couldn’t do nothing about it. She was good with the kids. Always bringing them little presents. Books and such, even though they asked for sweets. Inspirational things, you know. Martin Luther King’s biography or Aretha Franklin CDs. Strong black role models the kids could look up to, you know?’

Ms Au’s parents were unavailable for comment. The Korean community has been rallying to support the family and will be holding a candlelit memorial at the Bethany Presbyterian Church on Thursday. All are welcome to attend.

The photograph accompanying the news story shows a body covered up by a blanket in the no-man’s-land between a parking lot and a ramshackle house under the El support struts. The area is fenced off, but that hasn’t stopped people using it as an impromptu dumping ground; a bag of rubbish that didn’t make it to the corner for collection is cosied up next to a dead washing machine laid on its side.

An upset young beat cop is waving his hand towards the lens, hoping to obscure the shot or dissuade the photographer.

If the reporter’s camera had panned left by an inch, the camera would have caught a pair of burlesque butterfly wings pinned against the fence by the wind, unrecognizably ripped, half-concealed by a plastic Walgreen’s bag tangled up in the elastic, but still with a sheen of radium paint.

But then the red line El goes rattling overhead and the backdraft whips it away to join the rest of the city’s jetsam.

It does not appear to have been a robbery. Her book bag has been tipped out next to her, but her wallet is untouched, still zipped up and with $63 and change inside. There is also a hair brush with several long black hairs that will be identified as hers, a pack of tissues, cocoa-butter lip balm, CHA case files on the families she was working with, a library book (Parable of the Sower by Octavia Butler), and a video tape ‘Live from All Jokes Aside’, a local all-black comedy club. The kind of aspirational items she was known for. The cops do not realize that there is a baseball card missing – of a famous African-American player.





Kirby

23 MARCH 1993

‘Give me everything you’ve got.’ Kirby goes straight to Chet.

‘Chill, dude, this isn’t even your story,’ Chet says.

‘C’mon, Chet. Someone must have done a human interest story on her. Korean-American girl working in one of the city’s toughest neighborhoods? That’s too good to resist.’

‘No.’

‘Why?’

‘’Cos Dan phoned this morning and said he’d hang me with my own balls after he’d cut them off with a pair of kiddy’s safety scissors. He doesn’t want you getting involved.’

‘That’s very sweet of him, and also absolutely none of his beeswax.’

‘You’re his intern.’

‘Chet. You know I’m scarier than Dan.’

‘Fine!’ He throws up his hands, a movement hampered by the weight of his jewelry. ‘Wait here. And don’t tell Velasquez.’ She knew he wouldn’t be able to resist the temptation to practice his arcane arts in the stacks.

He comes back ten minutes later with various clippings about Cabrini and CHA’s general blundering.

‘I got you stuff on Robert Taylor Homes too. Did you know Cabrini’s original residents were mainly Italian?’

‘I did not.’

‘You do now. I got you an article on that, and white flight to the suburbs in general.’

‘You don’t mess around.’

He also produces a manila envelope with a flourish. ‘Ta-da. Korean Day 1986. Your girl came second in the essay competition.’

‘How did you do that?’

‘If I told you, I’d have to kill you,’ he says, dipping his mussed-upon-purpose head back behind Swamp Thing. Adding, without looking up: ‘No, really.’

She starts with Detective Amato.

‘Yes?’ he says.

‘I’m phoning about the murder of Jin-Sook Au.’

‘Yes?’

‘I wanted to get some more information about how she was killed—’

‘Get your sick kicks somewhere else, lady.’ He hangs up on her.

She phones back and explains to the duty officer that her call was cut off accidentally. She gets transferred back to his desk. He picks up immediately.

‘Amato.’

‘Please don’t hang up.’

‘You have twenty seconds to convince me.’

‘I think you’re dealing with a serial killer. If you speak to Detective Diggs in Oak Park, he’ll confirm my case.’

‘And you are?’

‘Kirby Mazrachi. I was attacked in 1989. And I’m sure it’s the same guy. Was there something left on the body?’

‘No offense, miss, but we have procedures. I can’t disclose that kind of information. But I will talk to Detective Diggs. You got a number I can reach you on?’

She gives him her number and the number at the Sun-Times for good measure. She hopes this will force them to take her seriously.

‘Thanks. I’ll get back to you.’

Kirby goes through the articles Chet dug up for her. They don’t give her anything about Jin-Sook Au, although she finds out more about unethical real-estate practices and the CHA’s checkered history than she ever wanted to know. You’d have to be unreasonably stubborn and idealistic to try to work within the organization.

She fidgets. She’s tempted to visit the scene, but she goes for the phonebook instead. There are four Aus in the directory. It’s easy to track down the right one. It’s the number that is permanently engaged because it’s been left off the hook.

Finally, she catches a cab to Lakeview, to the home of Don and Julie Au. They do not answer the phone or the doorbell. She sits outside and waits, round the back of the house, never mind that it’s freezing and her fingertips are going numb, even buried in her armpits. And ninety-eight minutes later, when Mrs Au slips out the back door in a housecoat and a cream crocheted hat with a rose on the front, she is waiting for her. It takes the woman ages to walk down to the mini-market, like every step is a duty she has to remind herself of again. It’s all Kirby can do to hang back out of sight.

In the store, she finds Mrs Au standing in the tea and coffee aisle. Holding a box of jasmine tea and staring at it blankly, like it might have answers.

‘Excuse me,’ she says, touching her arm.

The woman turns towards her, barely seeing. Her face is a mask of grief, all deep furrows. Kirby can’t help herself, she’s appalled.

‘No reporters!’ The woman comes to life, shakes her head frantically. ‘No reporters!’

‘Please, I’m not, not technically. Someone tried to kill me.’

The older woman looks terrified. ‘He’s here? We must call the police.’

‘No, wait.’ This is spiraling out of control. ‘I think your daughter was killed by a serial killer who attacked me, years ago. But I need to know how she was stabbed. Did the killer try to disembowel her? Did he leave something behind on the body? Something that was out of place? That you know wasn’t hers?’

‘Are you all right, ma’am?’ A cashier has come round from behind the counter to put a protective arm around Mrs Au, because the old lady is flushed and shaking and crying. Kirby becomes aware that she’s been shouting.

‘You’re sick!’ Mrs Au screams at Kirby. ‘Did the man who did this leave something on the body? Yes! My heart. Ripped right out of my chest. My only child! You understand?’

‘I’m sorry, really sorry.’ Shitshitshit. How could she have got this so wrong?

‘You get out of here, now,’ the cashier warns. ‘What is the matter with you?’

If she still had an answering machine, she might have been able to deflect it. As it is, she gets to the Sun-Times the next morning to find Dan waiting for her in the lobby. He grabs her by the elbow and sweeps her outside.

‘Smoke break.’

‘You don’t smoke.’

‘For once in your life, don’t argue. We’re going for a walk. Cigarettes optional.’

‘Okay, okay.’ She jerks her arm away from him as he walks her out the building and down to the riverbank. The buildings reflect in each other, an infinite city caught in the glass.

‘Hey, did you know about blockbusting? Skanky real-estate agents moving a black family into an all-white neighborhood and then putting the fear into the other residents that it was all going to hell and getting them to sell out at a loss, and taking a fat commission?’

‘Not now, Kirby.’

The air off the water has a bite to it, the kind that sinks itself through your bones into your marrow. A cargo boat trundles along, churning the water in its wake, neatly sliding under the bridge.

Kirby gives in to his silent accusation. ‘Did Chetty rat me out?’

‘For what? Accessing old clippings? That’s not illegal. Harassing a murder victim’s mother, however…’

‘Crap.’

‘The cops called. They’re unhappy. Harrison is apocalyptic. What were you thinking?’

‘Don’t you mean apoplectic?’

‘I know exactly what I mean. As in, rain of fire on your ass.’

‘It’s not exactly anything new. I’ve been doing this all year, Dan. I even tracked down Julia Madrigal’s ex-boyfriend. Who was awful in a really sad way.’

‘Bendito sea Dios, dame paciencia. You do not make this easy.’ Dan rubs at the back of his head.

‘Don’t do that, you’re going to make yourself bald.’ Kirby snipes.

‘You need to calm down.’

‘Really? That’s really what you’re telling me?’

‘Or at the very least be reasonable. Can’t you see how crazy your behavior looks?’

‘No.’

‘Fine. Do it your way. Harrison’s waiting in the boardroom for you.’

A detective, a city editor and a sports reporter walk into a room. There is no punchline. Just an epic shitstorm coming on her head.

Detective Amato is wearing full uniform, complete with bullet-proof vest, to let her know how serious this is. He has old acne scarring on his cheeks, like he’s been sandpapering his face. It makes him look weathered, like a cowboy. A hint of gritty history gives you class, Kirby thinks. But the puffiness in his cheeks and the pouches under his eyes say he’s not getting a whole lot of sleep. She can relate. She spends most of the lecture staring at his hands. It keeps her head down, which makes her seem more contrite.

His wedding ring is gold and scratched and pinches into his finger, which tells her he’s been wearing it a long time. There’s a trace of black ink on the back of his hand, the remnants of a phone number or a license plate he had to jot down in a hurry. She likes him more for that. The speech – she’s not required to respond other than occasionally nod tightly – is all stuff she’s heard before from Andy Diggs, back when he still took her calls and didn’t fob her off to some junior officer to take a message.

It’s not appropriate, Detective Amato says. He’s spoken to Detective Diggs, who is working her case. Yes, still. He filled him in. No one appreciates what she’s going through more than they do. They have to deal with this all the time. Wanting to nail the bad guys to the wall. Doing anything they can to find them. But there is a process.

She’s distorting the evidence with all this speculation and getting witnesses mixed up. Yes, the victim was stabbed and slashed multiple times in the stomach and pelvic area. The cases do have that in common. But there was no object left on the body. The MO was completely different to the attack on her. No restraints. No indication that it was planned ahead. And he’s sorry to speak so frankly, but the attack was amateur compared to what happened to her. Sloppy even. A killer just starting out. It was a horrible, opportunistic crime. They’re not ruling out a copycat murder. Which is exactly why the police have been so tightlipped on all this, because they don’t want to set off any more, and please appreciate that he’s here in an informal capacity and this is all off the record.

It is a stabbing. But there are a lot of stabbings. She has to trust the police to do their job. And they will do their job. Please trust him.

Then Harrison apologizes for ten minutes while the detective fidgets, clearly wanting to get out of there now he’s said his bit, about how she’s not an official employee, and of course the Sun-Times has always been supportive of the efforts by the Chicago PD, and if there’s anything they can do, here’s his card, give him a call anytime.

The cop leaves, squeezing Kirby’s shoulder as he goes. ‘We’ll get him.’ But she doesn’t see how that’s supposed to comfort her when they haven’t so far.

Harrison looks at her expectantly, waiting for her to say something.

And then he lets rip.

‘What the f*ck were you thinking?’

‘You’re right, I should have prepared better. I wanted to get to her while it was still fresh. I didn’t expect it to be so raw—’ Her gut clenches. She wonders if Rachel looked the same way.

‘This is not the time for you to answer me,’ Harrison rages. ‘You have brought this paper into disrepute. You have compromised our relationship with the police. You have possibly damaged a murder case. You have upset a grief-stricken old lady who did not need your shit. And you have breached your mandate.’

‘I wasn’t writing about it.’

‘I don’t care. You cover sports. You do not run around interviewing murder victims’ families. That is why we have experienced, sensitive, actual crime reporters. You do not stick your nose one inch outside your beat. You get me?’

‘You ran the article I did on Naked Raygun.’

‘What?’

‘The punk band.’

‘Are you trying to make me insane?’ Harrison is incredulous. Dan closes his eyes, his expression pained.

‘It would be a good story,’ she says, unrepentant.

‘What would?’

‘Unsolved murders and the aftermath. With a tragic personal spin. Pulitzer material.’

‘Is she always this impossible?’ Harrison asks Dan, but she can tell he’s rolling the idea around, considering it.

But Dan isn’t playing. ‘Forget it. No chance.’

‘It is interesting,’ Harrison says. ‘She’d have to do it together with an experienced reporter. Emma maybe, or Richie.’

‘She’s not doing it,’ Dan says, his voice hard.

‘Hey. You don’t speak for me.’

‘You’re my intern.’

‘What the f*ck, Dan?’ Kirby is nearly shouting.

‘This is what I’m talking about, Matt. She’s a train-wreck. You want a proper scandal? Tribune headline: Cub Reporter Loses Her Shit. City editor held responsible for emotional breakdown. Murder victim’s mother hospitalized for shock. Korean-American community outraged. Homicide cases in the city set back twenty years.’

‘Okay, okay, I got it.’ Harrison waves his hand like he’s shooing a fly.

‘Don’t listen to him! Why are you listening to him? Are you hearing this crap? That’s not even plausible. C’mon, Dan.’ She’s willing him to look at her. If he’ll just meet her eyes, she’ll be able to call him on this damn bluff. But Dan stares straight at Harrison and delivers the killing blow.

‘She’s emotionally unstable. She’s not even going to classes anymore. I spoke to her professor.’

‘You did what?’

He meets her eyes. ‘I wanted her to write you a referral. To try and get you a real job here. Turns out you haven’t been to class or turned in an assignment all semester.’

‘F*ck you, Dan.’

‘Enough. Kirby,’ Harrison says, with the same tone he uses for deadlines, ‘you’ve got a good sense for a story, but Velasquez is right. You’re too wrapped up in this one. I’m not going to fire your ass.’

‘You can’t fire me! I work for free.’

‘But you are going to take a break. Time out. Go back to school. I mean it. Get some thinking done. Go see a shrink, if that’s what it takes. What you do not do is try to write a story about murders or go sniffing around the families, or set foot in this building again until I say so.’

‘I could go across the road. Or take it to The Reader.’

‘Good point. I’ll phone them and let them know not to deal with you.’

‘You are being so unfair.’

‘Yeah, sure. Welcome to having a boss. I don’t want to see you here ’til you’ve pulled yourself together, you get me?’

‘Sir, yes, sir,’ Kirby says, not even trying to hold back the bitterness. She stands up to go.

‘Hey, kiddo,’ Dan tries. ‘You want to get a coffee? Talk about it? I’m on your side.’

He should feel bad, she thinks with a jagged spike of fury. He should feel like shit warmed up and slathered on a cheating ex’s car windscreen.

‘Not with you.’ She stalks out.