The Heiress of Winterwood

Graham sank down into the office chair in the library and rested his forearms on the leather inlay of the desk. He studied the gold embossment adorning the edge. He hadn’t noticed the detail before. The desktop, which only hours ago stood littered with papers and books, was now clear.

He leaned back to open the desk drawer. No ledger either. What else was William hiding?

He reached forward for the writing box on the corner. He needed to write Carrington a note about his intention to anonymously buy the land back from Littleton, whatever the cost, then respond to Lieutenant Foster’s letter regarding the additional ship repairs.

The note to Carrington took minutes. He dried the ink, folded the parchment and sealed it, and set it aside for a courier, then pulled Foster’s letter from his satchel. As he reread the assessment of damages, Graham cupped his hand behind his neck and rubbed the tight muscles, willing the memories of smoke and screams to retreat from his mind. Would he ever be free of them?

With the wedding scheduled for Friday, he’d make the long trip to Plymouth the following week to oversee the repairs personally. The success of his missions was entirely on his shoulders. It was his ship, his responsibility.

Plymouth. Another rush of memories bore down upon him. He’d said good-bye to Katherine in Plymouth, but the place stood out in his mind for another reason.

Graham rubbed his hand against the rough stubble on his chin. Stephen Sulter. How long had it been since he’d seen the man? Four years? Five? As a lad he’d learned from Sulter everything he knew about running a ship and being a fair leader. And more. He stared at the blank paper, but his quill refused to scratch across the smooth surface. Why had he avoided contacting his former captain for so long?

Graham knew the answer to that question. Pride. He didn’t want Stephen Sulter to know he had failed.

Sulter no longer lived in Plymouth, of course. The man had left the navy for the church and now served as vicar for a parish in Liverpool. Graham knew he should go see Sulter. But if he did, what would he say to the man? That he’d relapsed into old habits? That as a result, nine men died and almost a dozen had been wounded? The thought of admitting that failure to anyone made him cringe. But to tell Sulter, the man who had helped him turn his life around and become a man of God? How could he face that?

He rubbed his face with his hand as memories of that time in his life overtook the others. Such peace had covered him then. Was it too late to get it back? Would God even forgive him after so much time?

Perhaps he would visit Sulter before returning to sea. Or perhaps it was still too soon.

Graham decided to save his letter to Foster for the morning. He retired to his bedchamber. But try as he might, sleep eluded him. He tossed one way, then the other, unaccustomed to such a struggle.

Graham folded the pillow in half and tucked it under his head. If only he were on his ship. The gentle roll of the sea usually rocked him to sleep, lapping waves serving as a soothing lullaby. This incessant ticking of the mantel clock was enough to drive anyone mad.

He yanked the pillow from beneath his head and hurled it to the ground. During the day he possessed greater control of his thoughts, but at night, in complete silence and darkness, his worries magnified.

After pushing himself up from the bed, he snatched the candle from the nightstand and carried it to the fireplace to light the wick. The flame danced in the drafty room. He moved to the window and lifted the curtain to peer into the night. The outlines of the main stable and the groundskeeper’s shed could barely be seen under the cloak of darkness. A few more hours needed to pass before Eastmore’s grounds would awaken.

He dropped the curtain. Reading would distract him for an hour or two.

He knelt before his wood-and-leather traveling trunk, which had arrived at Eastmore Hall a few days after he had, unlatched the brass lock, and propped open the lid. Inside, his belongings were packed into tight, neat rows. On top lay his uniform jacket and buff breeches, tucked away until he returned to his ship. He smoothed the jacket’s lapel and placed it on the ground, along with his breeches, then grabbed a stack of books. As he did, his gaze fell upon a small tortoiseshell trinket box with ivory inlay.

Katherine’s box.

Gingerly he set the books aside. He picked up the box and turned the key in the delicate lock. Inside, every memento told the story of their romance, and just looking at them transformed his frustration into sorrow. He had not looked inside it since placing Katherine’s letter there two weeks ago. But for some reason, tonight, he felt the need to look at them all, to hold them in his hands. To be reminded. As he anticipated another marriage, even a marriage of convenience, he must find a way to say farewell.

The tiny box was packed as tidily as his traveling trunk. Graham lifted out the pocket watch Katherine had given him on their wedding day. It had belonged to her father. The candle’s light caught the metal surface and flashed into the chamber’s darkness. One day he would give the watch to Lucy, perhaps on her wedding day. He laid it down carefully atop the other items in the trunk. He needed to give it to Amelia for safekeeping. If he never returned, he didn’t want it to find a final resting place on the ocean’s bed.

His heart raced as his rough fingers brushed a tiny parcel secured with brown paper. He loosened the twine and carefully unfolded the stiff wrapping to reveal a long lock of Katherine’s hair, tied with gray ribbon. He flexed his fingers, so awkward and unworthy of touching something so beautiful. If he allowed himself, he could recall the feel of the silky locks sliding through his fingers. Ever so carefully, he held the lock of hair up to the light. The candle’s glow caught the still-vibrant color.

The last trinket in the box was the most precious. Graham lifted out a small portrait in a gilt frame. The passing of time had made it difficult to recall the nuances of Katherine’s likeness, but looking at the miniature brought the memories rushing forth.

He pinched the bridge of his nose, willing his breathing to stay slow. Steady. How he wished the hands of time could be reversed. But no amount of wishing could undo the past. He must care for Lucy now and provide for her welfare once he returned to sea. Would Katherine approve of his marriage to Amelia?

Words from her letter echoed in his mind. “Do not let your heart grow cold.”

Eighteen months had passed since last he held her. Since he whispered farewell. He had not imagined that time would be the last.

With an impatient jerk of his hand, he swept the moisture from his eyes. With great care he rewrapped the lock of hair, pausing to whisper as he lowered it back to its resting place.

“Farewell, darling Katherine.”




Amelia smoothed her emerald velvet cape as she stood in the darkened hallway outside Helena’s bedchamber. She mustered her courage and rapped her knuckles across the closed door. No response. She knocked again. “Helena, are you in there?”

She waited a few moments before knocking again. Helena had to be inside. Hadn’t she just seen Elizabeth exit this very door? Amelia turned the handle and stepped into Helena’s chamber for the first time in several days.

Helena turned from her dressing table. “What do you need?”

“I came to see if you have changed your mind about the dinner at the Hammonds’. Jane says everyone will be there, and I—”

“I have other plans.”

“What other plans?”

Helena stood. Her amethyst satin gown hugged her figure, and only a gathering of lace at the bodice prevented it from being scandalous.

Amelia gawked at the dress. “That’s a new gown, is it not?”

“I was just about to ask the same of yours.”

Amelia looked down at her deep rose satin and ran a hand down the front.

Helena reached for her shawl. “I remember handpicking that very fabric for your trousseau. What was it you said? Something about how you thought Edward would like the hue? That Edward always complimented you when you wore that color?”

The insinuation brought a flush to Amelia’s cheeks. “Helena, what’s done is done. Please say you will not make me go to the Hammonds’ alone.”

“You made your decision alone, Amelia—with no consideration of anyone else.” Helena reached down to the dressing table, removed the stopper from an etched perfume bottle, and dabbed it behind her ear. “It seems fitting that you should deal with the consequences alone, does it not?”

Amelia blinked. “Am I to lose you too, Helena?”

Helena moved from the dressing table. The lilac fabric swirled around her legs as she took a few steps toward the window. “I asked you not to make me choose between you and my family.”

A wave of nausea seized Amelia, and her lungs refused to expand. She understood Helena perfectly. “Well, if you change your mind, you know where we will be.”

Helena glanced out the window. “Your carriage is here. You’d best be on your way. You wouldn’t want to keep your betrothed waiting.”

Amelia forced herself from Helena’s room. Tears burned her eyes, and she struggled for control. The captain had already done so much for her. How would it appear for her to be a blubbering fool on the way to their engagement dinner?

She should have brought a candle. The sun had long since set, and the hallway grew darker with each passing moment. A sliver of moonlight through the window afforded barely enough light to illuminate the staircase’s curve. Desire to be away from this dark, cold mansion and into the warmth of the Hammond house fueled her descent. If she was honest, though, it wasn’t the Hammonds’ company she longed for so much as another’s.

Captain Sterling.

They would marry in just two days. How strange to realize they hadn’t even known each other three weeks. At first, she’d regarded the captain as merely a means to an end. But in those few weeks, how many times had he defended her? Protected her? His qualities were noble. She could do worse than to combine her destiny with such a man. Perhaps after—

Lost in boundless thought, she didn’t notice the person waiting at the foot of the stairs until it was too late. Unable to slow her momentum, she ran right into him. She gasped. Steadying hands grabbed her upper arms.

Edward.

She tried to shrug out of his grasp. “Why are you here?”

“Are those tears I see?”

“Let go of me.”

“Not until you tell me why you’ve been crying.”

A knock sounded on the heavy front door, and James walked to open it. Edward looked over his shoulder, his hot hand remaining on her arm. She stared at the door and wriggled again to free herself.

“Expecting someone?” Edward’s words strained through his teeth. “Oh yes, now I recall. I did hear something about a dinner at the Hammonds’ tonight. I never did receive my invitation, though.”

She put her hand on his chest and pushed. “Why are you here?”

“Your uncle invited me.” He chuckled. “Oh, I see. You think the only reason I would visit here is you. I am here to dine with my business partner and his family.”

She attempted to wrench herself from his grasp just as the captain entered with Mr. Carrington, who had recently returned from Sheffield. Graham’s cool gray eyes immediately locked on Edward’s. His nostrils flared in irritation.

Edward released Amelia. Breathless, she clutched her cape at the neck and stepped backward. A gust of wind whipped through the open door. No one spoke.

“Please, let’s go.” Amelia walked over and clutched Graham’s sleeve with her hand, noting the twitch of hard muscle beneath the fabric.

It was as if he didn’t even hear her. Her hands slipped from his sleeve as Graham took two steps into the hall. “I thought I told you that you were no longer welcome here.”

Edward chuckled. “You can relax, Sterling. I am not here for Amelia. Barrett, as you well know, is my business partner. We have matters to discuss.”

“Then discuss your matters with George Barrett and keep your distance from Miss Barrett.”

“The master of Winterwood Manor has spoken. Or should I say the master-to-be?” A shrug lifted Edward’s shoulder, and he shifted his gaze. “I see you brought Carrington along. Nicely played, sir. It is always wise to engage those who know the most about the object you are trying to secure.”

Amelia had her eyes on Edward, so she jumped a little when Graham took her elbow. “If you have business with Barrett,” he said, “I suggest you be on about it.”

“Oh, I’ll not keep you from the festivities, Sterling. I know all too well the desire of a man to be alone with the woman he loves.”

He nodded toward Amelia, his false smile making her blood run cold. “Give the Hammonds my best.”





Candlelight illuminated every corner of the Hammonds’ drawing room. Tiny flickers of light danced on every surface, from the oil paintings to the polished silver. And everywhere Graham looked, he encountered another stranger.

He knew Amelia, of course, as well as the Hammonds, Carrington, and his own brother. Beyond that, he was at a definite disadvantage. The cream of Darbury society—minus the Barretts—surrounded him, and he could not remember a single name. Yet they knew all about him. His occupation. His late parents and wife. His daughter. His betrothed. And all seemed to feel that the details of his life were their personal business.

With artful tact and quick words, Graham had escaped the clutches of two women, Mrs. Bell and Mrs. Trewell. Now, as he moved toward the door, their pointed questions rang in his memory. He would readily discuss the war or life at sea or whether he was enjoying his stay at Darbury. But he was not prepared—nor willing—to answer questions about Katherine or Lucy. And fifteen minutes of fending off such questions had left him wearier than a long watch in wartime.

If memory served him correctly, there was a nook with a window seat just down the hall, on the way to Mr. Hammond’s study. He would slip away there for a moment’s peace.

After inching along the wall and squeezing behind an oval-backed upholstered chair, Graham rounded the doorpost into the darkened corridor and quickly found the niche he remembered from when he and Amelia visited the vicarage a few days past. Cold air seeped in around the window’s cracked casing and cooled his agitation. He sank down on the window seat and stared out over the lawn, intent upon clearing his mind.

“Captain Sterling.” Graham started, then relaxed when he realized it was Amelia who’d found him—not Mrs. Bell or Mrs. Trewell. The faint moonlight falling through the window highlighted her features and glistened upon her hair.

“Whatever are you doing here?” she asked.

He stood slowly. “Hiding.”

“From what?”

He nodded in the parlor’s direction. “Don’t you mean from whom? You were right. These people are insatiable. I’ve never seen the like of it.”

A smile curved her lips. “Did I not warn you that it might be difficult?”

He straightened his waistcoat and nodded. “I have faced battle, cannon fire, and the sword, and believe me when I say that nothing has frightened me quite so much as Mrs. Bell.”

Even in the shadowed corridor, he could see amusement in her wide eyes. Her soft laugh was a soothing balm to his ruffled spirit. He stood a little taller when she was around him.

Blond curls danced about her face as she looked this way and that, then stepped into the nook where he stood. “I have a question I must ask you.”

The nearer she drew, the warmer his place of refuge seemed to grow. His pulse quickened. A darkened corridor. Hushed tones. The setting was almost . . . romantic.

His cravat seemed to tighten about his neck as he leaned in closer to listen. She spoke so softly he had to strain to hear. “Are you angry with me?”

“With you?” His voice was much louder than he intended. “Why would I be angry with you?”

“Shh!” She looked around to make sure no one was about. “It’s just that because of . . . that is to say, with Edward at Winterwood, and . . .”

He lowered his voice to match hers. “Of course I am not angry with you. Littleton’s desperate. I’ll not allow him to take advantage of this situation. Or you.”

Was she leaning in toward him? Her golden head came dangerously close to grazing the bottom of his chin. The slightest tremble shook her words. “I shudder to know what you think of me.”

Graham indulged himself and studied the long, black lashes that fanned her cheeks as she stared at the ground. What did he think of her? He thought a great many things . . . some of which would not be appropriate to verbalize.

She continued. “Please do not misunderstand me. I am grateful—thrilled—to have my Lucy. But everything else I find . . . I mean, I do not wish to—”

“There is no need for explanations. And as for what I think of you, I think you are brave. Loyal. Determined. Those are admirable qualities, Amelia. This will all pass. And you will be an excellent mother to Lucy. However, I am concerned for you.”

Her lips parted in surprise. “Me?”

Graham nodded. “When all this is passed, when your family departs and I return to sea, you will be alone at Winterwood. What then?”

Her voice sounded confident, but the expression in her eyes suggested otherwise. “I will not be alone. I will have Lucy. I will have the Hammonds . . . and my family. They may be angry, but they will come around, to be sure. And Carrington will be a help, of course.”

But you won’t have me.

Amelia stood so close that all he would have to do is take a half step closer and she would be in his arms. If he did that, would she pull away? His gaze drifted from the top of her golden head to her creamy shoulders.

She seemed so delicate, like a feather. And she was so close. How wrong would it be to touch her cheek or press her hand against his palm? Almost without thinking, he extended his arm to her. She stared at it, then flicked her eyes up to meet his gaze. His blood pounded in his ears as he waited to see if she would take it. She lifted her hand, hesitated, and then rested it on the sleeve of his jacket. At the touch, fire surged up his arm and through his body. Her lip quivered.

A nervous smile played on his lips. He could not control it. Like a puppet master, his emotions seemed in control of his every thought and action.

Amelia looked down at her hand and then away to the ground. With her other hand she brushed the curls from her face, something he’d noticed she did when uncomfortable.

He needed to say something. His words were far from brilliant. “Please, do not worry.”

She nodded and smiled, but he could not guess at what thoughts swirled in her pretty head.

She looked at his lips and then his eyes. “We’d best rejoin the party. We already know the danger that has befallen my reputation as of late. No need to give them any more fuel for that fire.”

“Must we go?”

Each smile she offered renewed his energy. “No doubt we’ve been given a certain leeway as we are soon to be wed, but still it would not do for us to be missing for dinner. I heard Mrs. Hammond and Mrs. Bell discussing our situation. It appears the masses are on our side, for now. No need to tempt fate.”

“Very well. But I give you notice, Amelia Barrett. You have the temptation part right, but my fate has nothing to do with it.”




Across the dinner table, plump Mrs. Mill whispered something to Mrs. Bell, who tittered in response. Jane sat next to Amelia at the end of the table. Mr. Hammond sat at the other, eating his venison soup. Even though nearly fifteen guests separated the long-married vicar and his wife, their expressions connected them. They seemed to communicate with a secret language.

Captain Sterling sat to Amelia’s right, patiently answering Mr. Mill’s questions about how long the war with America might last and whether Napoleon was really secure in his exile on Elba. His head had been turned from her for practically the whole dinner.

It was hard even to imagine that she and the captain would be married in two days’ time. Would she ever enjoy the kind of connection with him that the Hammonds shared? She shifted her eyes from the plate to her intended’s sleeve, not daring to look at his face when such a thought spun itself in her mind.

Her plan to persuade the captain to marry her so she could fulfill her promise to Katherine was successful, or at least it would be in mere days. What right did she have to expect—or even think about—anything more? Captain Sterling had married Katherine for love. He was marrying her out of obligation. But then again, there had been a certain attentiveness to their interchange in the hall that made her believe he could, at some point, develop feelings for her. Her heart gave a little lurch. She was prepared to live a life free of romance if it meant she could care for Lucy. Dare she even hope for more?

She knew she was not well schooled in the intricacies of a relationship between man and woman. Without a mother to guide her, her sole education in matters of love came from romantic novels and poetry. And from Aunt Augusta, who had told her, “Love comes later, sometimes not at all. But you are a wealthy woman, so with love or without it, you at least will always be secure . . .”

Still, it seemed to her that something had sparked between the captain and herself. And what she felt now was like nothing she’d experienced before. She felt comfortable yet nervous. Safe but vulnerable. Protected but exposed.

But even as the memory of her hand resting on his sleeve brought a flush to her cheeks, she couldn’t help remembering more of Aunt Augusta’s love advice. “Men will be after you for your money, so you should trust no one.”

Can I trust Captain Sterling?

Someone’s hand brushed her shoulder. “That’s Jonathan Riley, is it not?”

Amelia nearly jumped from her seat.

Captain Sterling leaned closer. “I didn’t mean to frighten you.” He put his spoon down and continued. “The man on the other side of William? Jonathan Riley, correct?”

Amelia followed his gaze to a tall, brown-haired man. “Yes, to be sure.” She noticed right away that both Mr. Riley and William Sterling had already indulged in too much wine. Their laughter interrupted the conversations around them. She looked over at Jane, whose irritated gaze was fixed on the captain’s brother. Amelia glanced back to the captain. If anything, he looked more agitated than Jane.

Amelia winced as Mr. Riley pounded his fist on the table and spilled the remainder of his wine. Silence fell over the room, and a servant hurried to blot up the wine. Graham’s stormy eyes narrowed on his brother. She could feel his frustration just as clearly as she could smell the mild scent of sandalwood that always seemed to accompany him. She glanced over at Jane, who was glaring at William Sterling.

It was going to be a long evening.




At the conclusion of dinner, the women retreated to the parlor for tea and coffee, and the men remained in the dining room for port and brandy. But Graham worked his way over to William, grabbed his brother by the arm, and pushed him from the dining room, out the front door, and into the night.

The night had grown markedly colder since they first arrived. Frigid air gusted down from the home’s pitched roof, and spattered flurries of snow played in the night wind. Graham tapped the door closed with the heel of his boot before speaking. “What are you doing? You’re making a mockery of yourself.”

“What?” William looked at him through glassy eyes. “I was just trying to amuse myself a bit. Deadly dull evening, I’m afraid.”

“Then you need not stay.”

Graham turned to rejoin the men, but William grabbed him by the arm. “Did you speak with her about the money?”

Graham jerked his arm free. “This is neither the time nor the place to speak of this. We’ll talk tomorrow.”

“This cannot wait.”

“Why?”

William licked his lips, glancing about as if to ensure nobody was within earshot. His clumsy words slid into one another, making him difficult to understand. “I’m in trouble, brother. Do not make me recount details. Let’s just say my creditors are growing impatient. If you don’t want to give me the money outright, so be it. A loan, then. I will pay you back.”

“Even if I had the money to give, I could hardly get it tonight.”

“You had Carrington purchase the west fields back from Littleton, did you not? How did you get that money?”

“I did ask Mr. Carrington to oversee the purchase—anonymously, of course—but I used my own funds, not Miss Barrett’s.”

A sneer distorted William’s face, and the effect of drinking wobbled him from side to side. “Convenient for you to be absent all these years, marry a wealthy woman, and return to whatever it is you do without a thought to the family you came from.”

Graham should ignore him. His brother’s words, if he were in another state, would take on a different meaning. Graham made no attempt to hide the contempt in his voice. “But you forget one important detail. The debt’s not mine. It’s yours.”

“But what if it had been yours?” A challenge weighed in William’s voice. “What if you’d been the one saddled here? You’ve been free to live your life; I have been bound to this. So I have made a few bad decisions. Am I to pay for them the rest of my life?”

“You make no sense, William. We’ll talk about this tomorrow.”

William grabbed his shoulder, preventing him from turning. “I owe a great deal of money. You have more than enough. Am I to understand that you will turn your back on your own flesh and blood?”

Flesh and blood indeed. That was where their relationship began, and that was where it ended. If anything, pity described his attitude toward William. His brother was so like his father. Same light eyes. Same light hair. And same bad habits.

Graham shook off his brother’s hand. “Go home, Will. You’re foxed. We’ll talk in the morning.”

William grabbed him again. “We’ll talk now.”

Graham whirled around to face William. “Even if I did have the money, and even if I were willing to give it to you, there is nothing I could do about it tonight. This is an engagement dinner. My engagement dinner. Believe it or not, I have concerns other than the mess you’ve made for yourself.”

William pointed an unsteady finger at him. “Talk down to me if you will. What kind of man—what sort of honorable man—uses a woman, his late wife’s friend, to further his own interests?”

“I’m not using Miss Barrett for her money.”

“You’re using her to ease your conscience, as a means to find suitable care for your Lucy. Explain it to me—how is that different? How—”

“And what if I am?” At the mention of Lucy’s name, something snapped in Graham. He had to force his fists to remain at his sides. “What if I am using her? What business is it of yours? I can hardly return to the sea without finding suitable care, and you have been no help whatsoever. But then again, I’ve managed to survive the past eighteen years without answering to anyone in this family, and I do not intend to start now.”

William threw his head back and laughed. “Oh, I forgot. You’re the mighty Captain Sterling, hero of the seas. But the fact is, you are no better than I. We’re cut from the same cloth, are we not? My offense regards money. Your offense regards taking advantage of women. Neither of us is quite as we seem.”

Graham hissed through clenched teeth. “You are making an idiot out of yourself. Go home.”

William stepped close. Heat radiated from his intoxicated body. Graham refused to waver or step away. He stared hard at his brother, and he could swear he was staring straight into his father’s eyes.

William finally spoke, his brandy-laced breath hot against Graham’s cheek. “I saw the way you looked at her. Don’t think I did not see it, that everyone in attendance did not notice. But you are a fool if you think she will ever return the regard, for it is your daughter she wants, not you. You see, we all have an angle, even the charming Miss Barrett.”

“I’m warning you, William. Step back.”

But his brother was not willing to let it go. “She is not what she seems either. You are not the only man to sample her charms.”

Now Graham leaned in at the odd statement. “Make yourself clear.”

“I’ve held her in my arms myself. Oh, does that surprise you, brother?”

“You’re a lying drunk.” Graham snatched his brother’s coat by the collar.

“No need to become so angry.” William’s eyes were now nothing more than slits over his sloppy grin. “It was one kiss. One little, passionate kiss. And she did not mind, I assure you, not one bit. Seems you’re not the only Sterling worth having.”

Graham released William’s collar with a bit of a shove. The older Sterling stumbled backward, fell to a knee, and struggled to stand. A slack laugh slid from William before he waved a finger in the air. “You will regret not helping me in my time of need, brother.”

They stared at one another, William swaying slightly, Graham frozen to the ground. Then William broke eye contact and stomped down the path in the darkness.

Graham watched him, doubting the foxed fool could find his way home in his current state. But then again, he didn’t really care.

He looked up at the black night. Only a few stars twinkled through the thickening clouds. Strange how the sky looked the same from the middle of the country as it did on the sea. Same sky. Same man. Different trials.

He turned to a trickle of light spilling onto the path. Strange, he thought he’d closed the door. He looked up and caught a glimpse of Amelia’s retreating form.