The Bourne Identity

6

Whenever you’re in a stress situation yourself—and there’s time, of course—do exactly as you would do when you project yourself into one you’re observing. Let your mind fall free, let whatever thoughts and images that surface come cleanly. Try not to exercise any mental discipline. Be a sponge, concentrate on everything and nothing. Specifics may come to you, certain repressed conduits electrically prodded into functioning.
Bourne thought of Washburn’s words as he adjusted his body into the corner of the seat, trying to restore some control. He massaged his chest, gently rubbing the bruised muscles around his previous wound; the pain was still there, but not as acute as it had been minutes ago.
“You can’t just tell me to drive!” cried the St. Jacques woman. “I don’t know where I’m going!”
“Neither do I,” said Jason. He had told her to stay on the lakeshore drive; it was dark and he had to have time to think. If only to be a sponge.
“People will be looking for me,” she exclaimed.
“They’re looking for me, too.”
“You’ve taken me against my will. You struck me. Repeatedly.” She spoke more softly now, imposing a control on herself. “That’s kidnapping, assault ... those are serious crimes. You’re out of the hotel; that’s what you said you wanted. Let me go and I won’t say anything. I promise you!”
“You mean you’ll give me your word?”
“Yes!”
“I gave you mine and took it back. So could you.”
“You’re different. I won’t. No one’s trying to kill met Oh God! Please!”
“Keep driving.”
One thing was clear to him. The killers had seen him drop his suitcase and leave it behind in his race for escape. That suitcase told them the obvious: he was getting out of Zurich, undoubtedly out of Switzerland. The airport and the train station would be watched. And the car he had taken from the man he had killed—who had tried to kill him—would be the object of a search.
He could not go to the airport or to the train station; he had to get rid of the car and find another. Yet he was not without resources. He was carrying 100,000 Swiss francs, and more than 16,000 French francs, the Swiss currency in his passport case, the French in the billfold he had stolen from the Marquis de Chamford. It was more than enough to buy him secretly to Paris.
Why Paris? It was as though the city were a magnet, pulling him to her without explanation.
You are not helpless. You will find your way. ... Follow your instincts, reasonably, of course.
To Paris.
“Have you been to Zurich before?” he asked his hostage.
“Never.”
“You wouldn’t lie to me, would you?”
“I’ve no reason to! Please. Let me stop. Let me go!”
“How long have you been here?”
“A week. The conference was for a week.”
“Then you’ve had time to get around, do some sightseeing.”
“I barely left the hotel. There wasn’t time.”
“The schedule I saw on the board didn’t seem very crowded. Only two lectures for the entire day.”
“They were guest speakers; there were never more than two a day. The majority of our work was done in conference ... small conferences. Ten to fifteen people from different countries, different interests.”
“You’re from Canada?”
“I work for the Canadian government Treasury Board, Department of National Revenue.”
“The ‘doctor’s’ not medical then.”
“Economics. McGill University. Pembroke College, Oxford.”
“I’m impressed.”
Suddenly, with controlled stridency, she added, “My superiors expect me to be in contact with them. Tonight. If they don’t hear from me, they’ll be alarmed. They’ll make inquiries; they’ll call the Zurich police.”
“I see,” he said. “That’s something to think about, isn’t it?” It occurred to Bourne that throughout the shock and the violence of the last half hour, the St. Jacques woman had not let her purse out of her hand. He leaned forward, wincing as he did so, the pain in his chest suddenly acute again. “Give me your purse.”
“What?” She moved her hand quickly from the wheel, grabbing the purse in a futile attempt to keep it from him.
He thrust his right hand over the seat, his fingers grasping the leather. “Just drive, Doctor,” he said as he lifted the purse off the seat and leaned back again.
“You have no right …” She stopped, the foolishness of her remark apparent.
“I know that,” he replied, opening the purse, turning on the sedan’s reading lamp, moving the handbag into its spill. As befitted the owner, the purse was well organized. Passport, wallet, a change purse, keys, and assorted notes and messages in the rear pockets. He looked for a specific message; it was in a yellow envelope given her by the clerk at the Carillon du Lac’s front desk. He found it, lifted the flap, and took out the folded paper. It was a cablegram from Ottawa.
DAILY REPORTS FIRST RATE. LEAVE GRANTED. WILL MEET YOU AT AIRPORT WEDNESDAY 26. CALL OR CABLE FLIGHT. IN LYON DO NOT MISS BELLE MEUNIERE. CUISINE SUPERB. LOVE PETER
Jason put the cable back in the purse. He saw a small book of matches, the cover a glossy white, scroll writing on the front. He picked it out and read the name. Kronenhalle. A restaurant ... A restaurant. Something bothered him; he did not know what it was, but it, was there. Something about a restaurant. He kept the matches, closed the purse, and leaned forward, dropping it on the front seat. “That’s all I wanted to see,” he said, settling back into the corner, staring at the matches. “I seem to remember your saying something about ‘word from Ottawa.’ You got it; the twenty-sixth is over a week away.”
“Please ...”
The supplication was a cry for help; he heard it for what it was but could not respond. For the next hour or so he needed this woman, needed her as a lame man needed a crutch, or more aptly, as one who could not function behind a wheel needed a driver. But not in this car.
“Turn around,” he ordered. “Head back to the Carillon.”
“To the ... hotel?”
“Yes,” he said, his eyes on the matches, turning them over and over in his hand under the light of the reading lamp. “We need another car.”
“We? No, you can’t! I won’t go any—” Again she stopped before the statement was made, before the thought was completed. Another thought had obviously struck her, she was abruptly silent as she swung the wheel until the sedan was facing the opposite direction on the dark lakeshore road. She pressed the accelerator down with such force that the car bolted; the tires spun under the sudden burst of speed. She depressed the pedal instantly, gripping the wheel, trying to control herself.
Bourne looked up from the matches at the back of her head, at the long dark red hair that shone in the light. He took the gun from his pocket and once more leaned forward directly behind her. He raised the weapon, moving his hand over her shoulder, turning the barrel and pressing it against her cheek.
“Understand me clearly. You’re going to do exactly as I tell you. You’re going to be right at my side and this gun will be in my pocket. It will be aimed at your stomach, just as its aimed at your head right now. As you’ve seen, I’m running for my life, and I won’t hesitate to pull the trigger. I want you to understand.”
“I understand.” Her reply was a whisper. She breathed through her parted lips, her terror complete. Jason removed the barrel of the gun from her cheek; he was satisfied.
Satisfied and revolted.
Let your mind fall free. ... The matches. What was it about the matches? But it was not the matches, it was the restaurant—not the Kronenhalle, but a restaurant. Heavy beams, candlelight, black ... triangles on the outside. White stone and black triangles. Three? ... Three black triangles.
Someone was there ... at a restaurant with three triangles in front. The image was so clear, so vivid ... so disturbing. What was it? Did such a place even exist?
Specifics may come to you ... certain repressed conduits ... prodded into functioning.
Was it happening now? Oh, Christ, I can’t stand it!
He could see the lights of the Carillon du Lac several hundred yards down the road. He had not fully thought out his moves, but was operating on two assumptions. The first was that the killers had not remained on the premises. On the other hand, Bourne was not about to walk into a trap of his own making. He knew two of the killers; he would not recognize others if they had been left behind.
The main parking area was beyond the circular drive, on the left side of the hotel. “Slow down,” Jason ordered. “Turn into the first drive on the left.”
“It’s an exit,” protested the woman, her voice strained. “We’re going the wrong way.”
“No one’s coming out. Go on! Drive into the parking lot, past the lights.”
The scene at the hotel’s canopied entrance explained why no one paid attention to them. There were four police cars lined up in the circular drive, their roof lights revolving, conveying the aura of emergency. He could see uniformed police, tuxedoed hotel clerks at their sides, among the crowds of excited hotel guests; they were asking questions as well as answering them, checking off names of those leaving in automobiles.
Marie St. Jacques drove across the parking area beyond the floodlights and into an open space on the right. She turned off the engine and sat motionless, staring straight ahead.
“Be very careful,” said Bourne, rolling down his window. “And move slowly. Open your door and get out, then stand by mine and help me. Remember, the window’s open and the gun’s in my hand. You’re only two or three feet in front of me; there’s no way I could miss if I fired.”
She did as she was told, a terrified automaton. Jason supported himself on the frame of the window and pulled himself to the pavement. He shifted his weight from one foot to another; mobility was returning. He could walk. Not well, and with a limp, but he could walk.
“What are you going to do?” asked the St. Jacques woman, as if she were afraid to hear his answer.
“Wait. Sooner or later someone will drive a car back here and park it. No matter what happened in there, it’s still dinnertime. Reservations were made, parties arranged, a lot of it business; those people won’t change their plans.”
“And when a car does come, how will you take it?” She paused, then answered her own question. “Oh, my God, you’re going to kill whoever’s driving it.”
He gripped her arm, her frightened chalk-white face inches away. He had to control her by fear, but not to the point where she might slip into hysterics. “If I have to I will, but I don’t think it’ll be necessary. Parking attendants bring the cars back here. Keys are usually left on the dashboard or under the seats. It’s just easier.”
Headlight beams shot out from the fork in the circular drive; a small coupé entered the lot, accelerating once into it, the mark of an attendant driver. The car came directly toward them, alarming Bourne until he saw the empty space nearby. But they were in the path of the headlights; they had been seen.
Reservations for the dining room. … A restaurant. Jason made his decision; he would use the moment.
The attendant got out of the coupé and placed the keys under the seat. As he walked to the rear of the car, he nodded at them, not without curiosity. Bourne spoke in French.
“Hey, young fellow! Maybe you can help us.”
“Sir?” The attendant approached them haltingly, cautiously, the events in the hotel obviously on his mind.
“I’m not feeling so well, too much of your excellent Swiss wine.”
“It will happen, sir.” The young man smiled, relieved.
“My wife thought it would be a good idea to get some air before we left for town.”
“A good idea, sir.”
“Is everything still crazy inside? I didn’t think the police officer would let us out until he saw that I might be sick all over his uniform.”
“Crazy, sir. They’re everywhere. ... We’ve been told not to discuss it.”
“Of course. But we’ve got a problem. An associate flew in this afternoon and we agreed to meet at a restaurant, only I’ve forgotten the name. I’ve been there but I just can’t remember where it is or what it’s called. I do remember that on the front there were three odd shapes ... a design of some sort, I think. Triangles. I believe.”
“That’s the Drei Alpenh?user, sir. The ... Three Chalets. It’s in a sidestreet off the Falkenstrasse.”
“Yes, of course, that’s it! And to get there from here we ...” Bourne trailed off the words, a man with too much wine trying to concentrate.
“Just turn left out of the exit, sir. Stay on the Uto Quai for about one hundred meters, until you reach a large pier, then turn right. It will take you into the Falkenstrasse. Once you pass Seefeld, you can’t miss the street or the restaurant. There’s a sign on the corner.”
“Thank you. Will you be here a few hours from now, when we return?”
“I’m on duty until two this morning, sir.”
“Good. I’ll look for you and express my gratitude more concretely.”
“Thank you, sir. May I get your car for you?”
“You’ve done enough, thanks. A little more walking is required.” The attendant saluted and started for the front of the hotel. Jason led Marie St Jacques toward the coupé, limping beside her. “Hurry up. The keys are under the seat.”
“If they stop us, what will you do? That attendant will see the car go out; he’ll know you’ve stolen it.”
“I doubt it. Not if we leave right away, the minute he’s back in that crowd.”
“Suppose he does?”
“Then I hope you’re a fast driver,” said Bourne pushing her toward the door. “Get in.” The attendant had turned the corner and suddenly hurried his pace. Jason took out the gun and limped rapidly around the hood of the coupé, supporting himself on it while pointing the pistol at the windshield. He opened the passenger door and climbed in beside her. “Goddamn it—I said get the keys!”
“All right ... I can’t think.”
“Try harder!”
“Oh, God ...” She reached below the seat, stabbing her hand around the carpet until she found the small leather case.
“Start the motor, but wait until I tell you to back out.” He watched for headlight beams to shine into the area from the circular drive; it would be a reason for the attendant to have suddenly broken into a near run; a car to be parked. They did not come; the reason could be something else. Two unknown people in the parking lot. “Go ahead. Quickly. I want to get out of here.” She threw the gear into reverse; seconds later they approached the exit into the lakeshore drive. “Slow down,” he commanded. A taxi was swinging into the curve in front of them.
Bourne held his breath and looked through the opposite window at the Carillon du Lads entrance; the scene under the canopy explained the attendant’s sudden decision to hurry. An argument had broken out between the police and a group of hotel guests. A line had formed, names checked off for those leaving the hotel, the resulting delays angering the innocent.
“Let’s go,” said Jason, wincing again, the pain shooting through his chest. “We’re clear.”

It was a numbing sensation, eerie and uncanny. The three triangles were as he had pictured them: thick dark wood raised in bas-relief on white stone. Three equal triangles, abstract renditions of chalet roofs in a valley of snow so deep the lower stories were obscured. Above the three points was the restaurant’s name in Germanic letters: DREI ALPENHAUSER. Below the baseline of the center triangles was the entrance, double doors that together formed a cathedral arch, the hardware massive rings of iron common to an Alpine chateau.
The surrounding buildings on both sides of the narrow brick street were restored structures of a Zurich and a Europe long past. It was not a street for automobiles; instead one pictured elaborate coaches drawn by horses, drivers sitting high in mufflers and top hats, and gas lamps everywhere. It was a street filled with the sights and sounds of forgotten memories, thought the man who had no memory to forget.
Yet he had had one, vivid and disturbing. Three dark triangles, heavy beams and candlelight. He had been right; it was a memory of Zurich. But in another life.
“We’re here,” said the woman.
“I know.”
“Tell me what to do!” she cried. “We’re going past it.”
“Go to the next corner and turn left. Go around the block, then drive back through here.”
“Why?”
“I wish I knew.”
“What?”
“Because I said so.” Someone was there ... at that restaurant. Why didn’t other images come? Another image. A face.
They drove down the street past the restaurant twice more. Two separate couples and a foursome went inside; a single man came out, heading for the Falkenstrasse. To judge from the cars parked on the curb, there was a medium-sized crowd at the Drei Alpenh?user. It would grow in number as the next two hours passed, most of Zurich preferring its evening meal nearer ten-thirty than eight. There was no point in delaying any longer; nothing further came to Bourne. He could only sit and watch and hope something would come. Something. For something had; a book of matches had evoked an image of reality. Within that reality there was a truth he had to discover.
“Pull over to your right, in front of the last car. We’ll walk back.”
Silently, without comment or protest, the St. Jacques woman did as she was told. Jason looked at her, her reaction was too docile, inconsistent with her previous behavior. He understood. A lesson had to be taught. Regardless of what might happen inside the Drei Alpenh?user, he needed her for a final contribution. She had to drive him out of Zurich.
The car came to a stop, tires scraping the curb. She turned off the motor and began to remove the keys, her movement slow, too slow. He reached over and held her wrist; she stared at him in the shadows without breathing. He slid his fingers over her hand until he felt the key case.
“I’ll take those,” he said.
“Naturally,” she replied, her left hand unnaturally at her side, poised by the panel of the door.
“Now get out and stand by the hood,” he continued. “Don’t do anything foolish.”
“Why should I? You’d kill me.”
“Good.” He reached for the handle of the door, exaggerating the difficulty. The back of his head was to her; he snapped the handle down.
The rustle of fabric was sudden, the rush of air more sudden still; her door crashed open, the woman half out into the street. But Bourne was ready; a lesson had to be taught. He spun around, his left arm an uncoiling spring, his hand a claw, gripping the silk of her dress between her shoulder blades. He pulled her back into the seat, and, grabbing her by the hair, yanked her head toward him until her neck was stretched, her face against his.
“I won’t do it again!” she cried, tears welling at her eyes. “I swear to you I won’t!”
He reached across and pulled the door shut, then looked at her closely, trying to understand something in himself. Thirty minutes ago in another car he had experienced a degree of nausea when he had pressed the barrel of the gun into her cheek, threatening to take her life if she disobeyed him. There was no such revulsion now; with one overt action she had crossed over into another territory. She had become an enemy, a threat; he could kill her if he had to, kill her without emotion because it was the practical thing to do.
“Say something!” she whispered. Her body went into a brief spasm, her breasts pressing against the dark silk of her dress, rising and falling with the agitated movement. She gripped her own wrist in an attempt to control herself; she partially succeeded. She spoke again, the whisper replaced by a monotone. “I said I wouldn’t do it again and I won’t.”
“You’ll try,” he replied quietly. “There’ll come a moment when you think you can make it, and you’ll try. Believe me when I tell you you can’t, but if you try again I will have to kill you. I don’t want to do that, there’s no reason for it, no reason at all. Unless you become a threat to me, and in running away before I let you go you do just that. I can’t allow it.”
He had spoken the truth as he understood the truth. The simplicity of the decision was as astonishing to him as the decision itself. Killing was a practical matter, nothing else.
“You say you’ll let me go,” she said. “When?”
“When I’m safe,” he answered. “When it doesn’t make any difference what you say or do.”
“When will that be?”
“An hour or so from now. When we’re out of Zurich and I’m on my way to someplace else. You won’t know where or how.”
“Why should I believe you?”
“I don’t care whether you do or not.” He released her. “Pull yourself together. Dry your eyes and comb your hair. We’re going inside.”
“What’s in there?”
“I wish I knew,” he said, glancing through the rear window at the door of the Drei Alpenh?user.
“You said that before.”
He looked at her, at the wide brown eyes that were searching his. Searching in fear, in bewilderment. “I know. Hurry up.”

There were thick beams running across the high Alpine ceiling, tables and chairs of heavy wood, deep booths and candlelight everywhere. An accordion player moved through the crowd, muted strains of Bavarian music coming from his instrument.
He had seen the large room before, the beams and the candlelight printed somewhere in his mind, the sounds recorded also. He had come here in another life. They stood in the shallow foyer in front of the ma?tre d’s station; the tuxedoed man greeted them.
“Haben Sie einen Tisch schon reserviert, mein Herr?”
“If you mean reservations, I’m afraid not. But you were highly recommended. I hope you can fit us in. A booth, if possible.”
“Certainly, sir. It’s the early sitting; we’re not yet crowded. This way, please.”
They were taken to a booth in the nearest corner, a flickering candle in the center of the table. Bourne’s limp and the fact that he held on to the woman, dictated the closest available location. Jason nodded to Marie St Jacques; she sat down and he slid into the booth opposite her.
“Move against the wall,” he said, after the maitre d’ had left. “Remember, the gun’s in my pocket and all I have to do is raise my foot and you’re trapped.”
“I said I wouldn’t try”
“I hope you don’t. Order a drink; there’s no time to eat.”
“I couldn’t eat.” She gripped her wrist again, her hands visibly trembling. “Why isn’t there time? What are you waiting for?”
“I don’t know.”
“Why do you keep saying that? ‘I don’t know.’ ‘I wish I knew.’ Why did you come here?”
“Because I’ve been here before.”
“That’s no answer!”
“There’s no reason for me to give you one.”
A waiter approached. The St. Jacques woman asked for wine; Bourne ordered scotch, needing the stronger drink. He looked around the restaurant, trying to concentrate on everything and nothing. A sponge. But there was only nothing. No images filled his mind; no thoughts intruded on his absence of thought. Nothing.
And then he saw the face across the room. It was a large face set in a large head, above an obese body pressed against the wall of an end booth, next to a closed door. The fat man stayed in the shadows of his observation point as if they were his protection, the unlit section of the floor his sanctuary. His eyes were riveted on Jason, equal parts fear and disbelief in his stare. Bourne did not know the face, but the face knew him. The man brought his fingers to his lips and wiped the corners of his mouth, then shifted his eyes, taking in each diner at every table. Only then did he begin what was obviously a painful journey around the room toward their booth.
“A man’s coming over here,” Jason said over the flame of the candle. “A fat man, and he’s afraid. Don’t say anything. No matter what he says, keep your mouth shut. And don’t look at him; raise your hand, rest your head on your elbow casually. Look at the wall, not him”
The woman frowned, bringing her right hand to her face; her fingers trembled. Her lips formed a question, but no words came. Jason answered the unspoken.
“For your own good,” he said. “There’s no point in his being able to identify you.”
The fat man edged around the corner of the booth. Bourne blew out the candle, throwing the table into relative darkness. The man stared him down and spoke in a low, strained voice.
“Du lieber Gott! Why did you come here? What have I done that you should do this to me?”
“I enjoy the food, you know that.”
“Have you no feelings? I have a family, a wife and children. I did only as I was told. I gave you the envelope, I did not look inside, I know nothing!”
“But you were paid, weren’t you?” asked Jason instinctively.
“Yes, but I said nothing. We never met, I never described you. I spoke to no one!”
Then why are you afraid? I’m just an ordinary patron about to order dinner.”
“I beg you. Leave.”
“Now I’m angry. You’d better tell me why.”
The fat man brought his hand to his face, his fingers again wiping the moisture that had formed around his mouth. He angled his head, glancing at the door, then turned back to Bourne. “Others may have spoken, others may know who you are. I’ve had my share of trouble with the police, they would come directly to me.”
The St. Jacques woman lost control; she looked at Jason, the words escaping. “The police. ... They were the police.”
Bourne glared at her, then turned back to the nervous fat man. “Are you saying the police would harm your wife and children?”
“Not in themselves—as you well know. But their interest would lead others to me. To my family. How many are there that look for you, mein Herr? And what are they that do? You need no answer from me; they stop at nothing—the death of a wife or a child is nothing. Please. On my life. I’ve said nothing. Leave.”
“You’re exaggerating.” Jason brought the drink to his lips, a prelude to dismissal.
“In the name of Christ, don’t do this!” The man leaned over, gripping the edge of the table. “You wish proof of my silence, I give it to you. Word was spread throughout the Verbrecherwelt. Anyone with any information whatsoever should call a number set up by the Zurich police. Everything would be kept in the strictest confidence; they would not lie in the Verbrecherwelt about that. Rewards were ample, the police in several countries sending funds through Interpol. Past misunderstandings might be seen in new judicial lights.” The conspirator stood up, wiping his mouth again, his large bulk hovering above the wood. “A man like myself could profit from a kinder relationship with the police. Yet I did nothing. In spite of the guarantee of confidentiality, I did nothing at all!”
“Did anyone else? Tell me the truth; I’ll know if you’re lying.”
“I know only Chernak. He’s the only one I’ve ever spoken with who admits having even seen you. But you know that; the envelope was passed through him to me. He’d never say anything.”
“Where’s Chernak now?”
“Where he always is. In his flat on the L?wenstrasse.”
“I’ve never been there. What’s the number?”
“You’ve never been? ...” The fat man paused, his lips pressed together, alarm in his eyes. “Are you testing me?”
“Answer the question.”
“Number 37. You know it as well as I do.”
“Then I’m testing you. Who gave the envelope to Chernak?”
The man stood motionless, his dubious integrity challenged. “I have no way of knowing. Nor would I ever inquire.”
“You weren’t even curious?”
“Of course not. A goat does not willingly enter the wolfs cave.”
“Goats are surefooted; they’ve got an accurate sense of smell.”
“And they are cautious, mein Herr. Because the wolf is faster, infinitely more aggressive. There would be only one chase. The goat’s last.”
“What was in the envelope?”
“I told you, I did not open it.”
“But you know what was in it.”
“Money, I presume.”
“You presume?”
“Very well. Money. A great deal of money. If there was any discrepancy, it had nothing to do with me. Now please, I beg you. Get out of here!”
“One last question.”
“Anything. Just leave!”
“What was the money for?”
The obese man stared down at Bourne, his breathing audible, sweat glistening on his chin. “You put me on the rack, mein Herr, but I will not turn away from you. Call it the courage of an insignificant goat who has survived. Every day I read the newspapers. In three languages. Six months ago a man was killed. His death was reported on the front page of each of those papers.”