My Life After Now

7

Something Wonderful




A week after the Lee encounter, Andre finally dedicated an entire rehearsal to act 1, scene 4. Up until now, the schedule had been geared around Romeo and Juliet’s scenes, with the supporting characters only getting partial rehearsal time. But Mercutio was undoubtedly the star of this scene, and I was eager to sink my teeth into it. I got to take center stage and give a long, crazy speech about Queen Mab, the fairy who puts dreams in our sleeping heads.

The scene also features Romeo, and it was oddly therapeutic to drop my inhibitions and dance around shouting nonsense right in Ty’s face.

True, I talk of dreams;

Which are the children of an idle brain,

Begot of nothing but vain fantasy;

Which is as thin of substance as the air,

And more inconstant than the wind, who woos

Even now the frozen bosom of the North,

And, being angered, puffs away from thence,

Turning his face to the dew-dropping South.

It was the end of a rather exhausting, exhilarating rehearsal, and I finished the speech for the final time that day, surprised when applause came from the dark house. I hadn’t even realized people were watching. Shouldn’t they have been getting measured for costumes or helping the tech crew paint flats or rehearsing their own scenes in the practice rooms? The house lights came up, and it turned out that the majority of the cast was there. I had no idea how long they’d been watching.

Andre came up onto the stage. “Excellent work today, everyone. Truly great job, Lucy.” He squeezed my shoulder.

I couldn’t help glancing at Elyse out in the audience. Did I detect a hint of jealousy in her gloomy expression?

Andre kept me a few minutes after to give me some notes, so most of my castmates were already gone by the time I packed up my things and left the auditorium.

I was surprised to find Evan waiting for me in the deserted hallway.

“Hey,” I said.

He grinned and gave me a fist bump. “You killed it up there today,” he said as we walked to the parking lot.

“Thanks. I had no idea everyone was watching.”

“We weren’t at first, but how could we not be lured in by a beautiful girl shouting about giant cups of liquor and an old hag giving sex dreams to virgins? It was rad.”

Beautiful girl? A deep blush warmed my cheeks.

“So, Lucy, you’re single now, right?” Evan asked casually.

“Um, yeah.”

He nodded. “Would you go out with me this weekend?”

“Go out?” I’d never been asked out on an actual date before. Ty and I had just sort of fallen together, growing closer as we spent time together at rehearsals and cast parties. There hadn’t been much of an official courtship period.

“Yeah, you know, like I pick you up at your house and we go eat food together and maybe see a movie or something?”

I’d never really thought about Evan that way, but maybe this could be good. “Sure,” I said. “Why not?”

• • •

Saturday night, he showed up at my doorstep at exactly seven o’clock. He looked different somehow. Maybe it was the absence of his baseball cap or the fact that he was wearing a gray button-down shirt that I’d never seen before. Or maybe it was that I was looking at him differently now. He was no longer just Evan, the new guy who had an encyclopedic knowledge about sword fighting. Now he was Evan, the guy who liked me, with whom I was about to spend the evening alone.

“You look really nice,” he said.

“Thank you,” I said, glad Max had convinced me to wear a dress. “Want to meet my parents?” He didn’t have much of a choice, since my dads were standing right behind me, dorky grins on their faces. Luckily, Lisa seemed to be lying low tonight—I wondered if my dads had asked her to stay in her room or if she did it on her own.

Evan’s smile melted to surprise for the smallest fragment of a second as he added up the me + father + father equation, but he pulled it together a lot quicker than most people did, and the friendly smile returned to his face.

I introduced him to Dad and Papa, they all shook hands, my dads made the generic “treat our daughter well” remarks, and we were on our way.

“You have two dads,” Evan said as we drove down the street.

“Indeed I do,” I agreed.

“What’s that like?” he asked.

I had to admire his brazenness. My town was pretty liberal as suburbs go, and my family had always been welcomed and accepted in Eleanor Falls, but people rarely asked direct gay-parent-related questions. They either overcompensated and acted like two men raising a teenage daughter was as commonplace as blue jeans and whitening toothpaste, though we always knew it was all they were thinking about, or they waited until they got to know us well before building up the courage to ask about it. But Evan had learned of my unconventional family all of two minutes ago and already he was asking questions. It was refreshing.

“It’s all I’ve ever known,” I said, shrugging. “It’s normal to me.”

“Are you adopted?” he asked.

I shook my head. “Not totally. I was half-adopted.”

By the time I finished explaining the whole bio-dad/adopted-dad thing, we were at the restaurant.

After we ordered, Evan picked the conversation right back up and asked the question that no one had ever asked me outright before. “Have you ever met your biological mother?” It caught me off guard.

I took a sip of my soda, to give myself an extra moment to think. Could I justify telling Evan about Lisa being back, when I hadn’t even told Courtney and Max? Maybe not, but I knew I was going to tell him anyway. There was something open about him.

“I have,” I said. “Actually, she’s staying with us right now.”

“Oh, so you have a relationship with her then.”

“Not exactly,” I said, and dove into the whole sordid Lisa history. “She’s been back a week now, and I still don’t know why she’s here. We’ve been doing a pretty good job of steering clear of each other.”

He looked confused. “Why don’t you just ask her?”

I let out a little laugh. “You make it sound so simple.”

“Well, isn’t it? You talk to her for two minutes, get her side of the story, and then decide whether she’s worth your time or not. But by spending all your energy avoiding her and wondering why she’s here, you’re not being fair to yourself.” He shrugged and took a bite of his mashed potatoes.

I stared at him in awe. “Who are you?”

“You mean, ‘who is this random guy who thinks he knows anything about my life?’”

“I mean, ‘who is this person who sees things so clearly?’ I wish I could do that. I’m always overanalyzing everything—it’s why I can’t ever sleep. My mind won’t shut up.”

“Yeah, I’m the total opposite. I’ve never been a worrier. But that’s not necessarily a good thing—things appear so cut-and-dried to me that I always think I’m right, which of course isn’t true, and I end up putting my foot in my mouth.” He paused. “You know, if we ever had kids, I bet they’d end up with a perfect mix of our two personality extremes.”

I laughed. “Oh, so now we’re having kids together, huh?”

He grinned. “Well, I think we kind of have to. Far be it from us to deny the world perfectly tempered, Shakespeare-quoting, Elizabethan fencing experts with your smile.”

After dinner, we were having such a good time that we decided to forgo the movie and instead just drive around and talk. Evan told me all about his life back in San Francisco and how after his parents’ divorce they didn’t give him a choice of whether he wanted to stay in California with his dad or move here with his mom for her new job. He told me how he joined the drama club with a few guy friends freshman year because they’d heard it was a good place to meet girls and how, by the end of the first semester, his friends had all bailed but he had unexpectedly fallen in love with theater. We talked about Ty, and we talked about Sarah, Evan’s ex-girlfriend.

“What happened with the two of you?”

“She left for college in Seattle, I came here, and that was the end of that.” He gave a quick, unaffected shrug. I couldn’t help feeling there was more to the story.

“Did you love her?”

He stared straight ahead. “I thought I did.”

I sighed. I knew what that was like.

We sat there quietly for a while, parked on a side street a few blocks away from my house, listening to the radio. It wasn’t an awkward lapse in conversation, though; it was comfortable. And after a few songs, Evan leaned over out of the blue and kissed me. It was soft and hesitant at first, but slowly grew deep and intense.

It was strange kissing someone other than Ty. Lee didn’t count, because I didn’t remember it. But Ty…I still remembered every kiss with him, from the very first to the very last. I remembered the softness of his lips and the way our teeth sometimes scraped against each other’s and how we would laugh and go right on kissing. I remembered kissing him and thinking I never wanted to kiss anyone else for the rest of my life.

Kissing Evan was different. Not bad different, just…new. I liked the way he threaded his hands through my hair and I liked the way he seemed to be exploring my kiss rather than forcing his own on me. Reacting rather than acting.

We did a pretty good job of steaming up the car windows, but Evan didn’t try anything else. That was good—tonight made me excited for my future, but I still hadn’t fully recovered from my past.

• • •

When I floated home from my date, the house was quiet. My dads had already gone up to bed, though their bedroom light was still on—I knew they were expecting me to check in with them before I went to bed. They were probably waiting to hear all about my night. The only light downstairs was coming from the living room. I went in to turn it off before I headed upstairs, but Lisa was sitting on the couch, using Dad’s laptop.

“Oh. Sorry,” I said. “I didn’t know anyone was in here.”

“It’s okay,” she said, closing the computer.

I gave a stiff nod and started to leave the room. But Evan’s advice echoed in my ears. Lisa didn’t deserve the effort it took to constantly avoid her. Papa did say he would kick her out if I asked him to. Maybe by this time tomorrow, she would be out of my life.

I slowly turned back around and sat in the chair opposite her.

“All right,” I said. “You have two minutes to say whatever you want to say. Make it count.”