How to Repair a Mechanical Heart

CastieCon #2

Atlanta, Georgia





Chapter Eight


“Fellow Casties,” sighs Abel. “A solemn bonjour from the parking lot of the Atlanta Superion Inn. Also known as Hell’s fiery furnace.”

Abel’s at the RV desk with the camera on, eating cheese curls that smell like dirty socks and fanning himself with a CastieCon program. I’m folding boxers in the Sunseeker kitchenette and deciding which t-shirts need to be ironed. I refuse to look at him. He didn’t even ask if I wanted to do a post, which I guess makes sense because we’ve barely spoken to each other all week. Whatever. I’m used to showy silent treatments. I have an older sister.

“Since we’ve been deluged with three whole comments wondering why we haven’t posted a vlog entry from the road this week, I figured it was time to sit you down for a heart-to-heart and be honest with you.” Abel clears his throat. I turn my back and plug in my iron. “Okay, here’s the thing, kids: Daddy and Daddy had a fight. The particulars aren’t important; let’s just say that Daddy Two was being a raging bitch and Daddy One graciously stepped aside and gave him the space he so desperately needed this week.”

I slam down the tabletop ironing board. “You’re not posting this.”

“Did you guys hear something? Like a gnat, maybe?” Abel cups a hand to his ear. “Anyway, Daddy One has personally had an awesome week. Cadsim ladies, I so enjoyed that new hurt/comfort fic where Cadmus ‘whimpered like a proud wounded cat’ and ‘dissolved into the comforting clank of Sim’s arms.’ Also, the road between Cleveland and Atlanta? Let me tell you guys: Superbly creepy cemetery in Cincinnati. Amazing drag show in Lexington‌—‌Anita Bigwon, you complete me, I’m totally stalking you on Twitter now. Of course, Daddy Two over there spent the entire week sulking in the RV and rewatching Season 1‌—‌”

“I’m not listening to you.” I wipe sweat off my brow with my forearm. “Just so you know.”

Abel rolls his eyes and crunches another cheese curl. “Aaaanyway, kids, just because Daddy and Daddy are fighting doesn’t mean we don’t love you. We’re parked just paces away from the Superion, where we’ll be giving you complete coverage of the Tom Shandley Q&A in‌…‌t-minus forty-five minutes. Guys: Are you ready to kneel before Xaarg?”

“Your phone keeps ringing.” I grab it off the desk and hold it up.

“I busted out my black cashmere t-shirt specifically for this occasion, ‘cause it’s not every day you lift your question paddle before the biggest badass villain on television. Considering he only approves of ‘literary fanfic that probes the psychology of Xaarg,’ I’m preeeetttty sure he’ll be his super duper awesome self and give another fat NO to cave-scene sexitude. We might have to literally worship him then.”

I fling the phone at his chest. “Will you answer this already?”

“Jesus, Brandon!” He shuts off the camera, rubbing the spot where I hit him. “What’s your malfunction?”

“Nothing wrong with me.”

“Normal people don’t throw phones.”

“Bitter loveless losers do, though.”

He checks the screen. “I missed three calls from Kade.”

“Tragic.”

“You know‌—‌”

“Make sure you apologize a million times and ask if he’s mad at you until he is.”

“I don’t do that!”

“It’s pathetic.”

“At least I have someone.”

“Someone with a chicken tattoo.”

“It’s a phoenix.”

I give him a smug chuckle, so he thinks I’m stifling a great comeback.

“Screw you.” He shakes his head. “Seriously.”

Bec bangs in with her laundry bag slung across her shoulder. She looks at me, then at him. I turn back to my Steamium, scrub it across my Castaway Planet shirt.

“What’s going on?” she says.

Abel’s dialing Kade. I shoot a toxic glare at him. “Nothing.”

“How long are you two going to do this?”

“I’m not doing anything.”

“‌—‌Awwww, babe, don’t get pissy. I forgot‌…‌no, I did!” Abel’s saying. “I know, I’m tired too. I was out till two‌…‌No! God, not with him. Can you imagine?”

I slam down the Steamium. Bec shakes her head.

“I’m catching a Greyhound home,” she says, “if you guys don’t stop acting like infants.”

“Thought you had fun this week.”

She sighs a little, but she smiles. It’s been like old times with me and Bec this week‌—‌sort of, when she’s not texting Dave. A few times she’s hung out with Abel, but mostly it’s been the two of us chilling like an old married couple, eating cheese fries and chocolate cream pie in diners, fishing at crappy free campgrounds, doing weird touristy things Bec loves, like the Grave of Doctor Pepper in Virginia. I don’t really care what Abel’s been up to. He goes out at night in whatever town we’re in, and he comes back in at two in the morning with souvenirs: a thrift-store snakeskin bomber jacket, a shot glass with a skull and crossbones on it. Sometimes I’m still awake in the loft, fighting off swarms of dark thoughts or combing the Cadsim fanjournal for the next Hell Bells sighting (nothing else, so far). When the door creaks open, I always pretend I’m asleep.

“It was fun,” Bec says, “but the two of you are‌—‌”

“Talk to him. It’s not me.”

“It’s both of you! I can’t stand you guys like this.”

Abel lets out a hugely annoying look-how-much-fun-I’m-having laugh. “Nuh-uh! No you didn’t. You did not! Oh no, baby, that’s not crazy. You want crazy, let me read you something from this FJ‌…‌Um, fanjournal? I am not a nerd; you’re just culturally illiterate‌…‌”

“This shirt. For meeting Dave today. What do you think?” Bec waggles a narrow green t-shirt with a deep v-neck.

I swallow hard. “Nice.”

“It’s not too boob-intensive, is it?”

I’m just about to push out a “No” when Abel breaks in with a couple expletives that would’ve gotten me three days’ detention back in high school. He’s staring at his laptop, punching the scroll buttons up and down.

“Babe, I gotta call you back, all right?” he says to Kade. “Something’s going down here.”

***


I see her fanjournal icon in my head. It pops up in my dreams: the angel statue, the halo of knives.

“It’s bad, guys,” Abel says. “C’mere.”

You knew this would happen, says Father Mike.

hey_mamacita is back. This time she’s posted a picture I’ve never seen before. Abel in his Thundercats t-shirt, pulling a stern face beside a cinder-block wall.

Under the photo it says:


A MESSAGE OF GRAVE IMPORTANCE.



to miss maxima and the rest of you Cadsim girls: I am officially calling you out. STOP TROLLING US OR ELSE!!! it’s one thing not to agree with our manifesto, but CHRIST ON A BIKE it’s a whole other bag of crazy to come over and attack us and call us, I quote, “psychotic” and “mentally ill.” who are brandon & abel to you, anyway? as far as I recall, you were calling for their heads last year when they ripped apart your fic on Screw Your Sensors every week, so kindly cram it with the mark david chapman references and calling us batshit crazy, especially since you of all people know EXACTLY where we’re coming from.



for the record, YES, we will still have a spy (spies plural) at the Atlanta CastieCon today. they’re already there, and they are READY FOR ACTION as soon as brandon and abel walk in.



and BFC update = plots are thickening. as we speak. there’s still time to join us, IF you dare.



ta-ta.



:-)




We just stand there and blink.

“You guys.” Abel taps the screen fast. “That is a personal photo.”

“Did you post it anywhere before?” says Bec.

“Facebook, maybe. I don’t know.”

“Any enemies? Besides the Cadsim shippers?”

“No. I love everyone,” Abel shrugs. “Except if they suck. But most people don’t‌—‌What is he doing?”

I’m already in the back room, unzipping the canvas storage chest under the bed. I find them right away, under a couple flannel shirts and four awful Christmas sweaters from our last Vermont holiday with Aunt Meg. Dad ordered the SAFE-U vests five years ago when someone got shot half a mile from our house during deer season. When we took our Saturday walks in the woods with our binoculars and bag lunches, he wouldn’t let me leave without strapping one of these on. Always best not to take chances, he’d say.

Abel says to Bec, “What are those?”

“How would I know?”

“I thought you knew every inch of this place.”

I shrug. “Tell him it’s like the vests they wore in Episode 4-23,” I tell Bec. “When they’re rescuing Dutchie from the tentacle robots? Tell him he should wear one too.”

“Did you get that?” Bec asks Abel.

“Uh-huh.”

“It’s like a costume,” I say. “But not so obvious.”

“Tell Brandon,” says Abel, “that I think he’s full of shit, and that those are bulletproof vests, and if he thinks I’m wearing one of those he’s one hundred percent demented.”

“Tell Abel that they’re bulletblocker panels, and when your enemies are stalking you and other people are calling them psychotic, it’s actually a fairly intelligent idea.”

“Tell Paranoid Android he’s officially out of his skull, and that no one in the history of fandom has gotten shot over a ship war.”

“I bet that’s not true.”

“And plus there’s no way Cadmus would wear one of those.”

“Tell him we don’t have writers to save our asses.”

“Ask Brandon how come he’s such a puss all of a sudden.”

“Tell Abel to‌—‌”

“Shut it!” yells Bec.

I turn around. She’s standing in the kitchen nook in a pink bra with red circles, the one that’s always hanging damp from her shower rod when I use her bathroom at home.

“Listen, bozos.” She tosses her sleep shirt on the counter and starts yanking on her green v-neck. “Do it or don’t do it. Fight or don’t fight. Love each other or hate each other. Just leave me out of it. Understood?”

I sneak a look at Abel. He crosses his arms.

“Yeah,” we mutter.

“You have anything to say to each other?”

“Nope,” I shrug.

“Not really,” says Abel.

Bec sighs. She shoves Plastic Sim at me. Plastic Cadmus at Abel. Putting on her best Zara Lagarde sneer, she stalks to the door and wrenches it open, flooding the Sunseeker with heat and the sooty gray smell of exhaust. She quotes Lagarde in Episode 2-11, two seconds after I know she’s going to: “Get it together, men. Or die.”