Dare Me

13



“Everybody give the chicken a warm welcome,” Coach says, giving a gentle shove to the latest recruit, a JV cheerleader getting her shot at the show. A hammer-headed girl with a body like a tuning fork. No one will mind her landing headfirst on the spring floor. She’ll just ting.

“She’s on me,” Mindy surmises, curling her neck side to side. “I turn her out.”

Mindy knows she can lift the shavetail rafters-high, a girl like that, not more than ninety pounds soaking wet, and she even looks wet, a dew on her that’s probably flop sweat.

“Not before she pays her dues,” RiRi says, arms folded. “We all fly her first.”

New girls get tossed hard first time out. Initiate-style. And we like to rock them side to side.

“Mat kill,” mutters Tacy, newly hard, suddenly a senior statesman of the squad.

No one asks about Beth. She’s barely been in school these past three days, and Coach seems very calm in her victory.


It’s after midnight when my phone hisses, rattling my bedside tabletop.

Can u pick me up? Cnr Hutch & 15.

Beth. The first text in five days. The longest stretch since she went to horse camp in the mountains after seventh grade, returning with a ringlet of hickeys from a counselor and fresh revelations about the world.

Creeping through the house, I unhitch the car keys from the kitchen door hook. Anyone could hear the car shaking to life in the garage, but if they do, they ignore it. My father nuzzled close to my stepmother, she muzzled by her nightly dose of sleep aids.


Beth is standing on the corner, and her face when the headlights hit is a surprise. It’s Beth bare-faced, which is scarier than her hooded eyes, her teengirl snarl.

Her face splayed open, like it almost never is, and mascara-spattered eyes blinking relentlessly, staring straight into the center of me.

With the headlights in her face, she can’t really see me, but it feels like she can. She knows I’m there.

It’s a thing to see, her face so bare. I almost want to turn away. I don’t want to feel for her.


By the time she’s in the car, her face is shuttered tight once more. She doesn’t give me much of anything, not even a hello, and sets about punching text messages.

“Where were you?” I ask.

“Guard duty,” she mutters, thumbs flying on her little keyboard.

“What?” I say.

Thump-thump-thump that thumb of hers, thumping.

“What?” I say again. “What did you say?”

“Sarge Stud…,” she says, and I hold my breath, “…ain’t the only stars and stripes in town.”

She sets her phone down and glances at me, sly smile playing there.

“Which one?” I ask. All those rawboned soldiers who stood at that table with Will, rawboned and callow, steel-wool scrubbed.

“Bullet head,” Beth says. “Prine. Corporal Gregory Prine. Gregorius, let’s call him. You know the one.”

I picture him, tongue waggling at me, fingers forked there, that acne-studded brow and sense of frat menace.

“Well,” I say, feeling sick. “Bad Girls’ Club for you, eh?”

“Hells-yeah,” she says, a rattle laugh.

But I look at her hands, which are shaking. She clasps her phone to try to stop them. When I see it, something in me turns.

“Beth.” I feel all the blood rushing from my face. I can’t quite name it, but it’s a sense of abandon. “Why?”

“Why not?” she replies, and her voice husky, her hair falling across her face. “Why not, Addy? Why not?”

I think she might cry. In her way, she is.