Abdication A Novel

Chapter NINETEEN





May and Sarah were sitting in the Queen’s Arms, even though it was only eleven in the morning. The once negligible swelling of Sarah’s waist had billowed into a size that made it difficult for her to get in and out of the armchairs at home with ease and she had recently discovered the high stools in the pub to be more comfortable. Danny the publican brought the two women cups of tea and a plate of his wife’s ginger biscuits, reminding May of the Jewish way of associating food with welcome. Apart from the ever-present plateful of sugar cookies in Bertha’s plantation kitchen, there had been no such custom while May was growing up when meals were an ordeal to be endured rather than enjoyed.

May was glad to be back in London. She had wanted to see her brother, of course, and hear about his adventures in the Mediterranean, but it was Sarah to whom she felt the most pressing need to speak. May had made few friends in Barbados, largely because she told herself she was always so busy with her work. But even at school there had been no particular girl to whom she had felt close. In fact, there had been times when the teasing about the unusual colour of her skin, neither white nor dark, had made her feel quite alienated from the tiny community that lived and worked near Speightstown. She suspected that she was viewed as an oddity, and longed to be part of a group. Now, with Sarah she had at last found the nonjudgemental, mutual affection of a woman and the feeling was uplifting. Sarah had been the first person, other than the oblique references made by her own mother, to have spoken to her about what it felt like to fall in love. Now it was May’s turn to share her own response to that experience, with all the consequent joy and agony that seemed to be integral to it. She very much wanted Sarah’s advice about Julian but was curiously shy about how to ask for it.

Cuckmere had been a gloomy place during the past few weeks. Most of the staff was away on their holidays and Sir Philip continued to spend most of his time up in London, working on the confidential legal matters that consumed his professional attention. Both the birdlike Lady Emerald Cunard and the tall diaphanous Lady Sybil Colefax had been heard saying how grateful they were for the appearance of another decent single man on the dinner-party scene. Lady Joan remained unconsciousness in the hospital and Sir Philip had not been able to bring himself to agree to the course of electric-shock treatment some shellshocked war veterans in his club had spoken of as effective in such situations. The physical intrusion into the brain sounded too dreadful to contemplate. John Hunt understood Philip’s reservations but remained baffled by Joan’s case. He had been meticulous about visiting Lady Joan in hospital at least once a week, but was unable to give her husband much reason for hope. The photographs of Lady Joan had disappeared from Sir Philip’s desk and May knew the reason. The photograph of her own mother, brought with her from Barbados, was still secured facedown by an elastic band in the back of her diary. The visual reality of her mother’s gentle smile was still too painful to look at.

As well as Lady Joan’s unchanging condition and the effect it was having on her tense and overworked husband, several other things had seemed out of kilter to May during those few hot summer weeks. Florence’s puzzling behaviour and the photograph of the beach at Pagham continued to trouble her. Julian had confirmed for her that the sign on the belt was indeed the symbol of the British fascists but although Mrs. Cage’s secret sympathies were now clear, both May and Julian agreed that for Florence’s sake it would be unwise to say anything to Sir Philip. However much they might condemn Mrs. Cage’s allegiance to Mosley’s party, no harm seemed to have been done, beyond Florence’s evident discomfort about her holiday. For the moment Mrs. Cage’s secret was safe.

But Florence’s absence meant there had been no one to accompany May on bike rides and Sam was away in the Mediterranean guarding the Duke of Lancaster, or so Sam had believed when he set off. Miss Nettlefold had divulged to May the duke’s real identity but May did not expect Sam to have any direct contact with the Nahlin passengers. The special nature of the cruise had not remained entirely confidential. A new titivating weekly publication had been left in Oak Street by one of Sarah’s clients and Rachel had been agog at photographs of the king walking down the narrow streets of a town somewhere in the Mediterranean. He was accompanied by a smartly dressed but unnamed lady and they were both laughing.

“I am glad to see the king enjoying himself,” Rachel remarked approvingly, flicking through the pages of the magazine. “Why don’t those other papers that Nat brings home show such nice pictures, I wonder?”

During those summer weeks May missed Julian more than anyone. But she was also furious with him. They had parted in unfortunate circumstances. After she had shown him the photograph of Florence at Pagham he had admitted that he was still planning to spend August in Berlin. He argued that he had no choice. Arrangements had been made. Somehow May had convinced herself that the conversations, the bicycle rides and above all the magical, heady, daring, surprising, addictive hours they had spent secretly in the seaside hut together on probably half a dozen occasions meant that Julian’s relationship with Lottie must be at an end, even though they had never specifically discussed it. Whenever May felt brave enough to ask the question Julian had changed the subject. And yet an inadvertent remark made by Bettina had smashed her optimism. Perhaps men of that class and that upbringing just do things differently, she tried to reason, while all the time nearly broken with disappointment. But every time she vowed to think no more about him, the memory of his laugh and of the touch of his fingertips returned all the stronger.

On the morning before Rupert, Julian and Bettina’s departure by car for Berlin, Bettina had woken to find her stomach covered in red spots. By the time she had scratched them, covered them in thick calamine lotion to pretend they weren’t there and eaten her breakfast, the rash had spread to her arms. She could already feel her forehead and her back beginning to itch. In the practical absence of her mother, she went to find Mrs. Cage.

“Yes, my dear, those blasted chicken pox are the cause of the trouble, without any doubt. I heard from Mrs. Jenkins in the post office that there was an outbreak in the village. Shame you escaped it in childhood when Mr. Rupert came down with it. Grown-ups with chicken pox feel much sicker than children do. So I am afraid it is up to bed with you, my dear,” she instructed in her best no-nonsense tone as if Bettina was still the same age as her daughter.

Bettina was beginning to feel so sick that the thought of cool white sheets, a darkened room and the privacy and freedom in which to scratch seemed at that moment infinitely more enticing than a long journey in Rupert’s Talbot, accompanied by rations of dark beer and fatty German sausage.

“I didn’t want to play third wheel to Lottie and Julian anyway,” she muttered on her way up to bed as May sat at the kitchen table, listening to every word. “Tongue sandwiches in the backseat? Non, merci. I will leave that role to Julian avec grande plaisir!”

Rupert made it clear that he was damned if he was going to allow his roommate to learn to drive before Rupert himself had mastered the skill. After all, the car belonged to Rupert and it had been galling enough to discover back in March that his father had lent Julian the Talbot even if it had been a woman driver in charge of the wheel. Rupert’s pride in his recently acquired expertise had been dented by the news of his sister’s illness and the subsequent unwelcome role of chaperone. Rupert found Lottie rather attractive and did not understand what she saw in his decent but terribly serious friend. But the small blue car had left Cuckmere in the final week of July, Bettina remaining behind in bed wreathed in the antiseptic aroma of calamine lotion. With Rupert at the wheel and Lottie and Julian in the backseat, the car had made its way to the nearby Channel ferry at Newhaven. The launch of the Olympic Games was to take place on 1 August, and May—hurt, angry and confused at what she had heard—had tried her best not to dwell on what might be happening over there.


May had been catching up on Sarah’s news for over an hour without Rachel’s inhibiting running commentary. For the moment, May kept her own hopes and worries to herself as she deferred to Sarah’s infectious excitement about the baby, which was due in about six weeks’ time. Gladys was the first choice of name for a girl. Indeed, it was May’s own middle name, chosen by her mother in memory of Edith’s sister.

“But if you have a boy?” May had asked.

“We think Joshua,” Sarah replied, and for a moment the two young women were silent as the long-awaited arrival of the baby suddenly seemed very near.

And then Sarah made May laugh describing how Rachel and Simon had reluctantly given the parents-to-be some time alone together before the birth. Somewhat to their mutual surprise Sarah’s pregnant state had intensified Nat and Sarah’s insatiable physical desire for one another and the only drawback was finding time to be alone in the house to take full-voiced, uninhibited advantage of it. Rachel’s eyes and ears seemed to fill every corner of the house even when she wasn’t in it.

At first Rachel had been indignant when Nat had suggested his in-laws take a holiday on the south coast.

“I’ve heard about that Billy Butlin up in Skegness with his scheme for making everyone join in on games as if we were all part of a performing circus. I ask you? Whatever next?” Rachel asked him.

Holidays were unprecedented for the Greenfeld parents.

“Who is going to make sure the kitchen floor is swept, Nat? Sarah can’t see her feet anymore let alone bend over a broom. She even makes some of her clients stand all the way through their hair appointments. She says she can get at them more easily that way. And what is Simon going to do down there in the heat? Not much to eat at the coast either, I wouldn’t wonder. Simon says it’s a place for ships not chips. And how is number fifty-four going to manage without my leftovers? Did I say I was indispensible, Nat? Did you ever hear me say I was? But mark my words, Nat, this place would come to a standstill without me.”

Nat was undeterred and eventually found a bed and breakfast in Eastbourne with a view of the sea and round the corner from the gaiety of the pier. Even so, it had been Simon in the end who finally persuaded Rachel to go. One day he came back from Schein’s Gentleman’s Hairdressing Saloon on Bethnal Green Road having discovered that Mr. Schein had been to Eastbourne himself quite recently.

“I went with a ‘special friend,’ if you get my meaning, Mr. Greenfeld? Eastbourne’s a good place for what I like to call ‘discretionary assignations.’”

Simon assured Mr. Schein that all indiscretions were safe with him, and as Mr. Schein doused Simon’s thinning locks with Levy’s Patent Hair Restorer, he described for Simon a concoction of ice cream, whipped cream, syrup and nuts known as a “knickerbocker glory” that was sold in a café on the famous pier.

“Nothing like a bit of whipped cream to get the heart fluttering is what I say, Mr. Greenfeld.”

There was also an excellent pub and a most accommodating betting shop with generous credit that Mr. Schein had discovered tucked far down the maze of Eastbourne’s genteel side streets. Simon walked out of Schein’s with his newly razored cheeks and a shining pate, feeling quite converted to the idea of himself and Rachel spending a few days at the coast.

The holiday was such a success that on their return Rachel urged her neighbours to take a few days of sea air down on the south coast where you could get ice cream in a container that resembled a small vase and the added bonus of all the fish and chips you could eat just on the doorstep. There was no mention of the betting shop. Simon had kept that information to himself.

During their absence Sarah and Nat had been left alone for the first time in their marriage and she and Nat had fallen in love all over again. However, a tragedy had occurred next door at number 54 that had blighted those happy days. Mrs. Smith, the mother of ten, had recently discovered herself to be pregnant. One evening after their tea, Mr. Smith had taken two of the youngest children “out for some river air.” Neighbours had noticed how anxious he had been looking in recent days after the discovery that yet another mouth to feed was on the way. Times were already hard enough, with paid work still so scarce. Mr. Smith was at his wits’ end with worry. He must have concluded that the only solution to reducing the weekly food bill was by eliminating the need to fill hungry mouths. His actions had shocked the Oak Street neighbourhood.

According to a witness, the three members of the Smith family had been holding hands when they jumped from Blackfriars Bridge. In seeking to reassure Mrs. Smith the policemen said the little ones would probably have thought they were playing a game. They would have hit the water with such a smack, said the report in the Hackney Gazette, that death would have come very quickly. A black ribbon hung from the door knocker at number 54, indicating that visitors were not encouraged. Knots of shaken neighbours had stood outside talking in low voices about how anyone could reach such a level of despair as Mr. Smith must have done. The cloud of grief billowed out from behind their closed front door.

As Sarah told May this terrible story, her hand stroked her distended belly. What a lot of luck you need to be born into happiness, May thought. She wondered, not for the first time, whether she had already met someone who could sustain her as Nat did Sarah. She was still hesitant to confide to Sarah about what was happening between her and Julian and her persistent fear that his relationship with Lottie had been reignited in Berlin. So instead she talked about Florence. Sarah listened carefully as May described how much she had come to care for the child and how Florence had recently appeared so unsettled. The unusual belt Florence had reluctantly been wearing on the day she left for the beach gave the biggest clue to the nature of Florence’s strange mood.

“There was a mark on the belt that I discovered to be the symbol for Oswald Mosley’s Blackshirt party and I think her mother might be a Mosley follower,” May explained.

She was about to describe Mrs. Cage’s badly disguised excitement at the Blackshirt leader’s visit to Cuckmere but stopped herself. She was sworn to secrecy, of course, but she also knew that Sarah would have been horrified. The Greenfelds would not begin to understand the reason for Mosley’s visit to Cuckmere. Sir Philip would not have tolerated such a guest under his own roof were it not to discuss a matter of national importance: the king’s relationship with a married woman. May wondered what Sarah, a Jewish woman, would make of Mosley and felt dreadfully ashamed of the physical attraction she had felt for a man whose actions threatened the very London family with whom she spent her time. Racial and religious prejudice was not something of which May was ignorant. In Barbados, and outside their own plantation, there had been some notorious racists among the white community and the experience in Oxford’s town hall was still vivid in her mind. She remembered the angry wife of the Cowley motorcar worker, she remembered the noise of the clashing steel chairs and she remembered the blood that had oozed from the cuts on the face of Julian’s friend. And then she thought again of the tall dark figure that had crossed the stone floor at Cuckmere and vanished upstairs with Lady Joan. And she remembered the sight of Mrs. Cage carrying the tray with its vase of delicate flowers. The current of anti-Semitism was running fast even through May’s small world. May said nothing.

But as if she was reading May’s mind Sarah brought the very subject up herself. “I don’t expect you have come across the rumours while you have been down in Sussex,” she began, “but Nat has been reading reports in the newspaper and talking to several tailors he works with and the word is that Mosley is planning a march through the East End any day now.”

Sarah returned her hand to rest on the swell of her stomach.

“If he comes I would like to be here with you,” May said.

“Oh good. Mum will be pleased. She says she is not worried but I know she is.” And with that Sarah and May moved back to the subject of motherhood and on to Lady Joan.

“She looks so old now,” May said. “Her hair is completely white and her skin is almost transparent.”

May and Sarah both struggled to imagine what it felt like to have more of one’s life behind one than in front, reaching a level of such closeness between them that May at last felt ready to talk to Sarah about her confused feelings for Julian.

At that moment Sam came flying in through the pub door. “I came straight home as soon as the ship docked.” His were eyes shining and he was so out of breath that he was close to unintelligible. “I’ve been looking for you two everywhere.”

“Oh, Sam, I am so happy you are here. When did you get back from the ship? Come and tell us everything.”

“I wanted to see you right away, of course. I had a wonderful time. There were some lads from Mum’s part of Scotland. They are really looking forward to meeting you, May. And we swam every day, and olives are my new favourite food. Oh and the king is cracky on someone! An American. She’s a friend of Miss Nettlefold.”

May looked at Sam, suddenly appalled.

“Shush, Sam. Keep your voice down. Have you already been to Oak Street?” she asked him quickly.

“Oh yes! Of course! I was looking for you.”

“And did you speak to Rachel at all?”

“Well, I sort of mentioned it, but only briefly,” Sam half apologised, sensing his sister’s caution. “She was really surprised! Actually a lot more surprised I might say than you seem to be,” he added a little reproachfully.

“Oh, Sam! What have you done? I must go and talk to Rachel at once.” May said, pausing to kiss a rather confused Sarah before dashing out of the pub without even stopping to put on her jacket. If Rachel knew the secret of the king’s love life, then the whole street would be buzzing with the news.

May was still talking to Rachel and Sarah, who had followed her home from the pub, when Nat returned unexpectedly at lunchtime. She was still doing her best to convince them that Sam was confused about the identity of the woman who had caught the king’s eye on board the Nahlin. May had it on impeccable authority from Miss Nettlefold, she assured them, that the king had been flirting with a member of the Greek royal family. Sam’s imagination must have been running away with itself. What would the king be doing with a married American lady? May did all she could to make the idea sound absurd. No. The king must have been giving the glad eye to a Greek princess. All those royals ended up marrying each other, didn’t they?

Rachel had humphed a bit and went to put the kettle on. “Strange things happen in love and war, May, I’m telling you,” was all she said, filling the kettle, scepticism evident in every line of her face.

Nat too had some urgent news. The voice at the end of workshop telephone that morning had been posher than any of those belonging to Nat’s regulars.

“So sorry to disturb you, Mr. Castor,” the man had said. “That is Mr. Castor, isn’t it? Oh good, good. Glad to reach you. Would you very kindly pass on a message to May?”

The man, Mr. Richardson, Julian Richardson, was in London for the day visiting his mother and wondered if he might call round to see May later that afternoon? Nat, who, together with his wife and mother-in-law, had an inkling of May’s romantic notions from the blush that crept over her whenever she mentioned Mr. Rupert’s university friend, had just avoided sewing his thumb to a buttonhole before throwing the jacket he was stitching aside and racing home to find May.


Three hours later, back in the pub for the second time that day, May was sitting enthralled at Julian’s tales of Berlin. Lottie’s name had not been mentioned. What was quite apparent was Julian’s ambivalence about the appeal of the German people. On the plus side, the country was so well organised, Julian enthused. There was so little unemployment. Everything in Germany worked. There had been some extraordinary parties.

“Despite not being much of a party person myself, even I confess to having enjoyed some of those Berlin balls,” he told her, lighting a cigarette.

The grandeur and opulence of Berlin had been astonishing. Comparisons had been made with events staged by Nero and Louis VIX. There had been music and dancing and fabulous ballets performed under the light of the moon. There had been caviar and oysters, oceans of champagne and evanescent galaxies of fireworks. Footmen dressed in pink uniforms copied from those worn in the eighteenth century and bearing miniature torches had greeted guests at a banquet at the opera house to which Julian had been invited at the last minute through the exemplary connections of Chips Channon. Julian felt horribly out of place at a table decorated with water lilies, watching obscure members of European royalty mingle with German officers of state as Chips pointed out remote foreign cousins of the British royal family, all descended from old Queen Victoria.

May barely touched her drink as she listened to Julian’s story, inhaling the smell of his cigarette, happier as well as more anxious than she had been at any time since he had left to go to Berlin. She did not know what had happened between him and Lottie in Germany. But she was prepared to wait. At that moment sitting alone with Julian in the pub was all she wanted to think about.

He described how the power-aspirant British had been anxious for their moment with Herr Ribbentrop, the German foreign minister about to take up residence in London’s German embassy.

“Chips thinks that Ribbentrop’s elegant and charming manner is something of a façade and that there is steel under all that suavity,” Julian told May with the air of a privileged insider. He described how one afternoon with a little time to kill, he had explored parts of the city on his own. Something prevented Julian from mentioning how Lottie had been more than willing to stay behind in the hotel with Rupert and how she had announced they were both keen to try the hotel’s special German beer. Lottie had been ill-tempered throughout the holiday, and on one occasion had suggested that Julian might be happier driving around the lanes of Sussex. Her tone had been unequivocally sarcastic. Instead, Julian continued by describing for May how many of the shop fronts had been boarded up and doors had been covered in graffiti. The paint-daubed phrases were often beyond Julian’s knowledge of German, but sometimes a door bore the one word “Jude” meaning “Jew” or just two letters, an image that recurred again and again throughout the Jewish back streets.

“I was told that P. J. stands for ‘Perish the Jews,’” he explained to May, shaking his head in disbelief.

“How truly dreadful,” May said, with an involuntary shiver, “that so much prejudice could be conveyed in just two letters.”

Eventually Julian had become lost in a maze of streets and after asking for directions in hesitant German, had found himself standing among a small crowd of curious onlookers gathered directly opposite Hitler’s house in the Wilhelmstrasse. The house was surrounded by several men in the ubiquitous uniform of black breeches. They all stood to attention as the sound of hooting horns preceded four black cars that drew up simultaneously outside the house. The small figure who emerged from the middle car disappeared inside the house quickly but not before Julian had managed to get a good look at him.

The Olympic Games themselves had been an event Julian would never forget. The opening ceremony had taken place in front of a capacity crowd of a hundred thousand spectators, assembled under heavy-clouded skies. A new spectacle that year, in the form of a flaming torch brought in relay all the way from Mount Olympus in Greece, had been carried into the stadium in the hand of a tall German athlete. The flame had burned continuously throughout its twelve-day journey. Thirty thousand members of the Hitler Youth and the German Girls were crammed into the stadium. The scene resembled the biggest military tattoo the world had ever seen. At the moment Hitler took his place in the stand, thousands of spectators cheered their ear-splitting acknowledgement of his presence. Right hands were raised in salute towards the diminutive figure in brown uniform as they shouted in unison two words: “Heil Hitler.” Julian had felt as if he was witnessing the Second Coming of the Saviour of the world.

However, a man not only of a different nationality but a different colour had stolen the Olympic show and confirmed Julian’s horror at the intensity of Nazi Germany’s racism. Jesse Owens, or “Ovens” as the Germans pronounced his name, was a black American from Alabama, whose limbs covered the ground at lightning speed. The grandson of a slave, his skin clashing with the Aryan paleness of the German competitors, Owens won a sensational four gold medals in the sprint and long jump. The word was that Hitler had hidden his fury at the result by rationalising Owens’s triumph. Athletes with monkey-like features owed the strength of their limbs to their tree-leaping antecedents, Hitler had declared to the press.

Julian stubbed the cigarette out with a vehemence that made May jump. “You have no idea how happy I am to be home again,” he said reaching for her hand.

“And you have no idea how happy I am that you have come back,” May replied cautiously as she allowed him to stroke each of her fingers in turn.

For a moment they looked at each other, both unsure where the conversation was going next.

“Will you tell me all your news, then? What’s been happening at Cuckmere?” he asked, gently releasing her hand and reaching again for his packet of cigarettes. “Any news of Joan? And how is Florence?”

“I haven’t seen as much of Lady Joan now that she is staying in the hospital for tests. But whenever Mrs. Cage and Cooky and Mr. Hooch and I visit her we still try everything we can think of that might wake her,” May said. “We have played music to her, shown her photographs, read to her, sang to her, whispered to her, even, in occasional moments of exasperation, shouted at her.”

“Does anyone think she will recover?” Julian asked looking truly saddened.

“The doctor thinks she may spend years in a coma. I hope she doesn’t know enough to feel lonely. Her sister came down to Cuckmere but left without even going to the hospital to see her.”

“Her sister?” Julian asked, surprised. “You mean Myrtle? The avid reader of Time and Tide, otherwise know as the Sapphic Graphic?”

May could not help laughing. “Yes, how do you know?”

“Joan told me all about her. I once met the magazine’s editor, Lady Rhondda. She had ditched her living arrangements with a perfectly good husband for a strapping young woman.”

“Well, maybe Lady Myrtle was inspired by Lady Rhondda,” May said, still laughing. “I would say that Vera is certainly on the strapping side.”

“Vera? Where does she come into it? And tell me about Florence? Did you manage to ask her about the belt?” Julian asked.

He wanted to hear everything, as May had hoped he would. So she told him how the day after Lady Myrtle’s disappearance she had suggested they celebrate Florence’s return from Pagham by baking a cake with raspberries from the Cuckmere fruit cages. To begin with, Florence had been subdued, still stuck in that strange mood in which she had left for her holiday, but with the promise of a bike ride and a swim in the river she had gradually recovered her good humour. The belt had been nowhere to be seen. They had not been able to find Vera anywhere in the garden to ask if they could go into the locked cages. In fact, no one had seen the gardener for days but she was a free spirit and the Cuckmere community was used to her disappearing at the drop of a hat. A knock on the open front door of her cottage remained unanswered.

“I wasn’t that keen to go in,” May explained to Julian, “but Florence said we must if we were to be given the key.”

“I think you enjoy being wrapped round little fingers,” Julian said. He had pushed his white-blond hair right off his face, taken off his glasses and was grinning at her.

May hesitated, feeling the beginnings of a blush just beneath the collar of her shirt. “Oh well, you know, I’d do anything for some people. Well certainly for Florence.”

Vera Borchby must have left her door open by mistake. She had certainly not been expecting visitors and did not notice May and Florence standing in her sitting room. Her uninvited callers could tell that one of the two figures on the sofa was definitely Vera by the laced-up gardening boots that were sticking up in the air. The jaunty chords of an Irving Berlin song floated from the wireless in a corner of the room but they failed to drown out the grunting noises coming directly from the sofa. May had grabbed Florence’s hand and pulled her outside.

There had been loud protests followed by hundreds of questions. And finally, after buying an ice cream from the man who travelled round villages with an icy box attached to the front of his bicycle, Florence promised she would not say a word about Lady Myrtle hugging Miss Borchby upside down and about the two women being what May described rather desperately as “convivial.” As Florence had assured May so many times before, Florence was good at keeping secrets.

“And what happened to Myrtle afterwards?” Julian asked, eager to hear the conclusion.

“She left the next day. None of us saw her again, except Mr. Hooch, who took her to the station. But I am afraid we could not help discussing it. Cooky was impressively knowledgeable about ‘them that swing the other way.’ She told us about a woman called Hall-something, I think, who wrote a book about it not long ago.”

“Quite a disappointing book in that way,” Cooky had remarked with rare knowledge of the printed word. “A friend of mine even asked the bookshop for her money back. I expect there are dozens of women at it behind closed doors,” she surmised with a pronounced pout of her lips and a quick whip round their overdry surfaces with her tongue.

Mr. Hooch had been less outraged although equally captivated by speculation over the goings-on in the gardener’s cottage.

“Whoever would have guessed it?” he said to May, with the jolly twinkle he reserved exclusively for her. “Nothing more than a couple of girl pansies, aren’t they? Right in the middle of our village! I say! But no harm done, eh?” he chuckled. “It’s the aftereffects of that bloody war again, excuse my language. Not enough of us decent men left to go round are there? Does funny things to women, war does.”

May was coming to the end of her story. “When Sir Philip came back from Chequers he gathered us all (except Vera, of course) in the drawing room and asked us to keep the incident to ourselves, and to realise what a blessing it was that Lady Joan knew nothing about it. He asked me privately to mark ‘return to sender’ on all the envelopes that came addressed to him in green ink and give them back to the postman. He had a word with Vera too. The beauty of the garden is what persuaded him not to sack her, although he was very keen to stress to all of us that she had not done anything wrong. She even offered to find a good home for that poor canary. And Mr. Hooch is more pleased than anyone that Vera is staying because he says she grows the best lettuces in Sussex.”

May was reluctant to finish her account of the recent weeks at Cuckmere. As long as she kept talking, she told herself, there would be no chance for Julian to tell her how happy he had been with Lottie in Berlin. She watched his tweedy back as he waited at the bar for Danny to refill their beer glasses.

“I’ve got some good news to tell you,” he said at last, putting his glass down on the table with a flourish. “I have decided to train for the law and become a barrister. An excellent crammer has offered me a place to study for the Bar exams starting in September. And, even better, I have been accepted as a student at the Middle Temple. And the best thing of all is that now that I have escaped from the manicured clutches of Lottie I will have all the time in the world to concentrate on the bar exams.”

“I am sorry. What did you just say?” May asked him.

“Lottie. Charlotte. You know? Well, when I left Berlin she decided to stay on for a bit and Rupert was decent enough to say he would drive her home so at the moment I am fancy-free. And I desperately need someone to come with me to the movies. You wouldn’t consider being that someone would you?” He was smiling as he asked May the question.

May nodded back at him.

“Oh good, good, good,” he said. “Because the truth is that not a single day has passed over the last month without me thinking about you.”

May did not trust herself to reply.





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