Samira clung to Hayal. She did not want to let go of her teacher and her friend, her source of security.
Hakan watched with leaden shoulders. He’d kept a respectable distance from Fereiba and the children. They were orphaned and vulnerable, and he did not want to transgress their privacy as he knew the rest of the world would. What they had been subject to and what they would be subject to were beyond his control. All he could do was give them a respite under his roof, which he did because he believed it to be right.
Hakan had taken on a father’s pride when he looked at Saleem. The boy was strong-willed and determined. He was teetering between boyhood and manhood, a dangerous time. He saw the way Saleem looked at his mother, the look of a boy who refuses to believe what he has not learned for himself. Fereiba would struggle with him, Hakan predicted, but Saleem was too devoted to stray far. He wrapped an arm around Saleem’s shoulders and squeezed.
Saleem was taller than he had been when he first met Hakan coming out of prayers so many months ago. He bit his lip, feeling as if he was betraying his father by leaning into Hakan’s paternal gesture. These small moments gave him resilience, though.
“Saleem, your family has a long and difficult journey ahead. God sees all that you’ve done for them and for yourself. I’m sure your father is quite proud of you and the man you are becoming. We will pray for you. Trust with caution and don’t get discouraged.”
Saleem nodded solemnly. Hakan’s words surprised him and made him feel small. He had snuck to the soccer fields when he said he was at the farm. He had smoked cigarettes and pocketed snacks from the street kiosk when the shop owner’s back was turned. He’d resented his baby brother’s needs and even Padar-jan for being so stubborn that he’d kept his family in Afghanistan until it was too late. No one knew these pieces of Saleem. He was cagey, a boy with secrets. He wanted so much to be the person Hakan described.
He looked at Hakan’s face, still discomfited by the inexplicable resemblance to his father’s. He felt the memory of his father fading with each passing day. Some nights, Saleem lay awake, trying to recall Padar-jan’s image, his voice, his smell. With each day, yesterday was pushed into a darker cranny of his mind. With each night, Saleem had to reach deeper into those recesses to find his father. Saleem clung to the images he had, fearful they would fade into a blinding whiteness. This, too, he was ashamed to admit.
Saleem hadn’t bothered to go back to the Polat farm even though he was owed five days’ worth of wages. He knew Polat would refuse to pay him if he wasn’t going to be returning. Ekin, who’d returned to haunt him as if nothing had happened, would find another way to busy her afternoons. With Kamal, Saleem’s farewell was awkward. Their friendship had been based on the lightness of childhood, boyish activities of little consequence. The bloodied wedding and Saleem’s departure brought a weight to their bond that neither boy expected or wanted. Kamal, not bothering to brush the hair from his eyes, quietly wished Saleem a safe journey. Saleem turned his back on his first friend outside of Afghanistan, knowing they would never speak again.
THE WAZIRI FAMILY LEFT INTIKAL ON A BUS HEADED TOWARD Turkey’s west coast, where ports and ships provided easy passage to Greece. They had the Belgian passports Abdul Rahim had secured for them and would not have to rely on smugglers. If these passports got them through customs, they would be well worth the high price Madar-jan had paid for them.