“Do we have any more of those peaches from last night?” I say.
I see the flame flicker up in his eyes, irritation that he failed to anticipate this.
“You ate them all before bed.”
“You didn’t think I’d eat six at once?” I say, that light edge of teasing both infuriating and arousing him. He grabs my wrist, pulling me toward him.
His rough growl swipes up my spine like sandpaper: “If we were on a ship stranded in the ocean, and all we had left was one bar of chocolate, you’d eat the whole thing in five minutes and lick your fingers afterward.”
I smile up at him, unrepentant.
“I don’t want to be hungry while I get that ship working again,” I say.
I gulp down the rest of the meticulously-prepared latte. “Rationing is for people who only want to endure.”
“I would have thought hard times would have taught you the value of planning,” Cole says, his other hand snaking around behind the back of my skull, gripping me tight, his fingers twined through my hair.
I tilt up my mouth to him.
“I don’t want to survive. I want to thrive.”
He kisses me like he does every time, like he’s eating me alive. He slips his hand inside my robe, cupping my bare breast. His sensitive fingers explore my body like a blind man: learning every curve by feel, not sight.
I try to resist the power of those hands, but it’s impossible.
I go limp, falling back against the supporting strength of his arm. The robe opens, giving him full access to the naked body beneath. I’m dizzy and swooning as that warm, powerful hand roams over my exposed flesh.
The ornate tin tiles of the kitchen ceiling fill my eyes with their silvery glow. His fingertips dance across my collarbone, before his hand closes around my throat. I feel his cock stiffening against my hip as he slowly cuts off my air.
“What were you dreaming about last night?” he murmurs in my ear. “You were moaning in your sleep …”
“I don’t remember,” I lie.
His fingers tighten until black spots bleed over the tin tiles and I can barely feel his arm beneath my body.
“You can’t keep secrets from me, Mara,” he growls, his teeth bared against the side of my throat. “I will break you down systematically, relentlessly, until you give me what I want.”
I turn my head, looking directly into his eyes.
“What do you want?”
He licks his lips, our mouths so close together that his tongue almost touches mine as well.
“I want all of you. Every single part of you. I want to know everything about you: all your history, and every thought that comes into your head. Every desire, no matter how dark or how perverse. Every fantasy, no matter how impossible it may seem. And most of all, Mara, I want to occupy your thoughts like you occupy mine. I want you obsessed with me, bound to me, dependent on me. I want you to live for me, not just with me.”
To me, this is a more terrifying prospect than when I thought Cole might murder me.
My whole life has been a struggle for independence.
Every person who was supposed to love me tried to control me instead. They tried to bend me and shape me to be what they wanted, so they could use me, so they could consume me like fuel.
I pull away from him, standing straight, closing the robe and belting it.
“I put my life in your hands. I never said you could take my identity.”
Cole smiles at me, unabashed.
“I’m not trying to change who you are. I’m trying to reveal it. A diamond can’t shine until it’s cut.”
I cross my arms over my chest, already knowing where this is going.
“And where do you plan to cut me today?”
He’s trying to hold back a laugh—never a good sign.
“Always so suspicious, Mara. It’s quite unjust, considering I’ve yet to make a plan for you that you haven’t enjoyed.”
“That’s a generous interpretation. Especially since the journey to ‘enjoyment’ tends to be nothing less than horrifying.”
Now he does laugh, a sound that flushes me with heat. When the devil chuckles, the world tilts a little on its axis, and somewhere, someone makes a fatal mistake.
“There’s nothing horrifying about me taking you shopping.”
“No fucking way,” I snap. “You promised to get my things from my old house.”
“And I have—your ‘things’ will be delivered this afternoon. Though I ought to have them fumigated first.” He sniffs.
“Don’t want my thrift-store jackets hanging in your immaculate closets? Don’t worry—I’m sure there’s some wing of this house you’ve never even seen.”
“Oh, I know every inch of this house,” Cole assures me. “There’s nowhere you can hide from me out in the world, let alone here in my own home.”
Locked in his dark gaze, I believe him.
Opposing Cole feels like standing in the path of a freight train.
Yet here I stand, staring down the headlights as the horn blares in warning.
“I like my clothes,” I hiss.
“You don’t have your clothes,” Cole says. “I do. And I’m not giving them back to you until you come shopping with me. If you don’t like what I pick out, then you don’t have to wear it. But you will accompany me … or you’ll have to go to the studio in that robe.” He grins. “Or naked. I’m happy with any of those options.”
I’ll wear this damn robe all week long to spite him. That would offend his sensibilities much more than mine. It’s only the chill gray fog outside the window that dissuades me—silk isn’t warm.
“Fine,” I say grudgingly. “But I mean it—I’m not wearing anything I don’t like.”
“I’d expect nothing less,” Cole replies with irritating smugness.
Taking my latte glass to the sink and setting it down a little harder than necessary, I say, “Let’s get this over with.”
Cole raises one black slash of an eyebrow.
“You need to shower first.”
My hand itches to snatch up the glass again and fling it at him. It’s never enough for him to get what he wants—it has to be exactly the way he wants it.
Instead, I slip out of the robe and drop it in a puddle in the middle of his kitchen floor.