“Okay.” An idea popped into my head, and I ran with it. “I’ve heard it said that the greatest adventure is what lies ahead. Well, I read it, but we’re going to use it.”
Maisie stifled a giggle and then nodded in all seriousness. “Go on.”
“And the story I read was about a fierce princess who wanted to fight for her kingdom. When all the men were called to war, she was told that as the princess, she had to stay behind and care for her people. She argued with the king that she could care for her people by fighting for them, but he ordered her to stay behind—to stay safe.”
“He wanted her to stay in her tower,” she said, leaning forward.
“Hey, at graduations, the graduates don’t interact with the speakers,” I teased her.
She grinned but sat back in her chair and made the motion like she was zipping her lips.
“Now where was I? Ah, the princess. Right. So the princess, being as smart as she was, knew she was needed. So she dressed like a man and snuck into the army camp, riding out to battle with the men.”
Maisie’s eyes lit up, and her mouth dropped open slightly. “What happened?”
“What do you think? She ran into battle in full armor, swinging her giant sword, and she struck down the Naz…uh…dragon, slaying it in one mighty swipe and defending her kingdom. She was the leader her people needed, because she was brave enough to fight.”
Maisie nodded enthusiastically, and I almost forgot I was supposed to be giving a graduation speech…for a six-year-old.
“Right. So, as you embark on this journey of your education, you must remember to be brave like the princess.”
“And tell all the kings they’re wrong!” She jumped up.
Oh, this was not going the way I’d intended.
“Kind of. When you’re…you know, big enough to swing a sword.”
She seemed to ponder this for a second and then nodded with all seriousness.
“So,” I continued. “You have to fight for what you know to be right. Stand up for the people who need your protection. Never let anyone tell you that you’re anything less than a warrior because you’re a girl. Because in my experience, girls are the strongest warriors. Maybe that’s why all the boys try to keep them out of battle. They’re scared they’ll get shown up.”
“Makes sense,” Maisie agreed. “Is that it?”
“It is. Speech over.” I tried to recall any graduation I’d ever had and failed, because I’d never had one. I’d shipped out for basic the moment I finished my senior year, the day before graduation. But I’d seen plenty in movies. I cleared my throat. “The time has come for you to leave the childish, carefree days of kindergarten and embark on your journey in elementary school. When I call your name, please rise and accept your diploma.”
“Beckett, you know I’m the only one here, right?”
I shushed her. “I haven’t said your name yet, graduate.”
She gave me the same look Ella did when she was ready to call me on my crap, and I pressed my lips together to keep from laughing.
“Margaret Ruth MacKenzie.”
She stood, regal as that princess, and walked toward me with her head held high, bringing her IV pole with her. When she arrived in front of me, I crouched down to her eye level. “Congratulations on your graduation.” I handed her the diploma with one hand and shook her hand with the other.
“Now what?” she whispered.
“Now you flip your tassel to the other side.”
She did the mouth and nose scrunch thing again and moved her tassel to the opposite side.
“I now pronounce you graduated,” I said in the most official tone I could muster.
She grinned and laughed, pure joy radiating from her like sunshine. Then she launched herself into my arms as the nurses in the doorway began to clap.
I held her, careful not to squeeze too tight, but she didn’t have that same issue, and hugged me to the point of near strangulation. Man, I loved this kid. Loved her strength, her tenacity, her kindness. She was one of a kind, and I hope she knew how precious she was, not just to her mom, but to the world.
As the clapping subsided, I glanced over to see no less than half a dozen nurses watching Maisie’s graduation. The girl was magnetic—she drew people to her everywhere she went, and I was no different.
“How about a picture?” a nurse who looked to be about Ella’s age asked.
“Yes! Absolutely!” I handed my cell phone to her, and she snapped a few of Maisie and me. “Thank you. Now just the graduate,” I said to Maisie, turning the camera on her as she struck a pose.
“It was Aowyn,” the nurse said with a smile while the other nurses congratulated the graduate. “The princess who slayed the Nazgul. It was Aowyn.”
Busted. “Tolkien fan?”
“Movie fan. Kind of comes with the territory when you work in pediatrics.”
“Think she noticed?”
She shrugged. “It was a good speech. Little girls need more warrior queens.”
“I like warrior queens,” Maisie said, coming to stand next to me. “Is it time for Moana?” As quickly as her joy came on, she sagged a little against me, and I felt the tiredness take over.
“That sounds like a plan to me.” Putting my forearm under her, I stood, lifting her slight weight, and carried her back to bed, her IV in my other hand.
She scooted back, sitting upright, and took off her cap as the nurses left. “Thank you,” she said, playing with the tassel.
“I know it’s not the same—”
“It’s better.” She met me with a look that left no room for argument.
I sat on the edge of her bed, adjusting her IV pole so it was closer to her.
“It’s just the start, Maisie. You have so much ahead of you. The summers, the mountains, the sunrises. The choices you’ll get to make when you decide which college you want to go to, the second you take off on a trip to backpack across Europe. Those are the moments when you find out who you’ll be, and that’s just a glimpse of what’s waiting for you when you’re past this.”
“But what if this is all there is?” she whispered.
“It’s not,” I promised.
Her face twisted, her lips pursing, and tears welled in her eyes. “Am I dying? Is that what’s happening to me? Mom won’t tell me. Please tell me, Beckett.”
A vise gripped my heart, squeezing until I was sure it couldn’t beat.
“Maisie…”
“Please. Am I going to die?”
I thought of the MIBG therapy she needed, the countless drugs, treatments, operations, transplants. Everything that was standing between her and a disease-free body.
“Not on my watch.” I didn’t care what I had to do. I’d find a way for her to get what she needed. I wasn’t watching another kid die if I had the power to change her fate.
“Okay.” She relaxed against the raised bed and took my word like it was gospel. Then she grinned as she played with the strands of her tassel. “I’m glad you’re here.”
Before I lost my shit in front of her, I leaned forward, pressing my lips to her forehead in a quick kiss. When I pulled away, I forced a smile and blinked back the awkward wetness in my eyes.
“Me, too, Maisie. Me, too.”
…
“Gentry, I’m glad you’re here.” Mark Gutierrez met me as I parked the truck at the trailhead. He was in his early thirties, fit, with a full head of black hair and enough confidence to make him a good unit leader for our search and rescue operation, but he wasn’t arrogant.
I was good with confidence, but arrogance was a deal breaker. Arrogance got men killed…kids, too.
Havoc jumped to the ground behind me, already wearing her work vest. That had always signaled her that play time was over, and I was relieved that our time in Telluride hadn’t changed that. Between the trips to Denver and the days I’d spent in Montrose with Maisie, I’d worried that she’d fall out of rhythm. I’d gone back to Montrose and brought Ella and Maisie home yesterday after being there for a week, and when the call came in this afternoon, Havoc had jumped right back into action.
“Hey, Havoc,” Gutierrez said, moving toward her.
“Nope. She’s in work mode.” I cut off his access. She was on alert and sensitive at the moment, and I really didn’t need to file an accident report that he’d lost a finger.