“Mine.”
My cheeks burn, along with the area below my waist. He ignores my sudden shyness as he pours the mixture with his free hand, trapping me in place between both of his arms.
“Your first mistake was pouring too much in the pan at once.” His hot breath hits my neck, eliciting goosebumps across my body.
The eggs sizzle, matching the way my insides feel as his chest brushes against my back. I never thought cooking could be considered an erotic experience—at least not until Declan. The man makes cooking eggs seem like a kind of foreplay.
I swallow past the lump in my throat. “What’s next?”
He carries my hand gripping onto the spatula toward the hot stove. “You let the eggs cook.”
It’s a simple task, yet he holds my hand hostage as we gently push the eggs over and over until the top surface of the eggs has thickened. Each minute feels like an eternity with the way he holds onto me. He seems to be drawn toward the curve of my neck, and he kisses me twice before dictating the next set of directions.
“Now you fill one side with your toppings.”
“Not both?”
His deep chuckle rattles my bones. “Greedy as always.”
“More like famished.”
“That makes two of us,” he replies huskily as he presses his hips into my ass.
That’s definitely not a phone in his pocket this time. I can tell that much.
“I think we’re talking about two different hungers here.” Somehow the words make it past my tight throat.
His thick length presses against the seam of my ass, telling me exactly how he feels about cooking. He pulls away all too quickly, taking his warmth with him as he adds some space between us. I don’t understand his reaction.
Why do you care? It would only complicate things even more.
I care more than I would ever admit.
Because you want him too.
It is a tough fact to admit. I do want him. I want him really freaking badly, yet I don’t know how to go about pursuing something like that. And more specifically, I’m not sure exactly what it is that I want to pursue. Casual sex seems almost as complicated as proposing that we try something more.
Either option would blow our whole plan to hell, and I’m not sure I want to do that either. My options seem as hopeless as my ability to hold off on our attraction.
If Declan is aware of my inner panic, he doesn’t reveal it.
“Be ready in thirty,” Declan gives me one last look before he grabs my shitty first attempt at an omelet and walks out of the kitchen.
I grip the counter and take a few deep breaths.
How the hell are you going to survive a fake date today when you feel like this?
Declan grabs a pair of keys hanging on the wall.
“You’re driving?”
He spins the keys on his index finger. “I gave Harrison the day off.”
“I’m not sure what we did to deserve this kind of treatment but I’m here for it.”
Declan doesn’t comment as he walks up to a shiny vintage convertible that looks like something out of a spy movie.
My mouth drops open. “This is our ride?”
“Yup. Get in before we’re late.”
I’m stupefied as he circles around the hood and opens the passenger door for me.
“Wow. This is so cool!” I walk over to my side and drop into the seat, completely speechless as I trace the leather. Declan shuts my door before walking back around to the driver’s side. He puts the keys in the ignition, and the engine revs to life as he puts it in first gear.
I sigh. “The things I would do to get a chance to drive this car.”
He laughs. It’s rough, deep, and steals all my capacity to breathe. “You can get me to do many things, but driving this car isn’t one of them.”
“Let me guess. It’s a man’s car.” I roll my eyes.
His previous smile is wiped clean off his face. “More like a woman’s. My mother’s to be specific.”
I feel like someone stuck me in the chest with a knife and twisted it.
“Your mother’s?”
His Adam’s apple throbs. “I thought I’d take it out since I haven’t run it in a month.”
He takes it out every month? My chest aches for the man who keeps the memory of his mother alive through her car. I can tell Declan cares based on how much the car is taken care of, from the polished leather interior to the perfectly waxed exterior.
I can’t think of anything to say, my tongue thick with emotion. The image Declan portrays to everyone is nothing compared to the one he hides from the world. While he isn’t anything close to perfect by any stretch of the word, he is still human. He hurts just like the rest of us.
We take off down the driveway before he stops to open the gate. He rambles, and I smile because I have never seen him stumble on his words.
“She probably loved this car more than she loved my father—which if you knew them before she got sick—was a lot. Not sure what she saw in him, but I suppose he was different with all of us before she died.”
I don’t miss the way he talks about his parents before she got sick. As if her illness changed the dynamics of everyone’s lives, including Seth’s. My lips turn down, and I hate myself for the ounce of sympathy that bubbles to the surface of my heart for the man who is as vile and ruthless as they come.
Somehow love seems to humanize the worst souls.
“Will you tell me more about her?” It’s a loaded question. One that I’m not sure is fair to ask in the first place, but I can’t help myself. I want to know more about the man who takes his mother’s car out once a month as if she might return at any minute and ask for it back. I want to know about it all.
He sighs, and I just know deep down in my heart that he is about to turn me down. For some reason I can’t bear the thought, so I do something stupid.
Something so incredibly stupid I’m sure I will regret it tomorrow. But I’m too enraptured by his story to care about what might happen.
“What if we make a deal?”
The corners of his lips lift. “I’m open to negotiations.”
“What’s something you want?” I drop the bomb back on his lap. I’ll let him be the one to decide what he wants most and then see if I’m up for the challenge.
“I want an equal exchange…” He pauses, and my breath stalls in my chest.
Another kiss? A real date? A blow job? The options are endless really. A warmth travels from my head to my toes at the thought of what he might choose.
“What do you have in mind?”
“I’ll tell you about my mother if you tell me about your learning differences.”
If my life had a soundtrack, this is the moment the DJ scratches the record, making me feel like a total dud. The air escapes my lungs like a deflated balloon. What the hell kind of deal is that? And more specifically, how the hell did he find out?
I cross my arms and throw up a barrier. “Who told you?”
“No one.”
“Bullshit. Was it Cal?” I’m about to tell Declan to pull over and let me take over, solely so I could go find Cal and rip him a new asshole.
He shakes his head. “I found out on my own.”
“How?”