Chapter 11
Maia
What the hell am I doing? Jackson’s behaving like a perfect gentleman, and I’m seriously pissed about that. A disturbing thought causes my skin to crawl. The whore in my father’s penthouse. Was I that whore? Was I really that chick? What the hell am I doing? The ride home from the wharf is excruciating with the silence that blankets us. I let Jackson drive. He stares tentatively ahead, and a few times I think he may say something, but the words don’t eventuate. Not until we arrive back at the campus.
“Maia, are you really going to give me the silent treatment for being a gentleman?” he asks, with a little more annoyance than I expected.
I really and truly don’t know what the next words out of my mouth are supposed to be. Did I lead him on? Yes. Was I really going to have sex with someone I had only known for a few days on a bench at a public wharf? Yes. Was I pissed off that he shut me down? Yes. Was he really just being a gentleman? Yes.
“Jackson, what do you want me to say? I don’t know how to deal with many things, and today was a shit day overall, except for the parts I spent with you. And in truth, I probably had a little too much to drink.” Unfortunately the wharf’s events had well and truly sobered me up. I look up at him hoping that he understands what a complicated chick he managed to get tied up with.
His eyes soften slightly, but overall he still looks relatively pissed off. “Look Maia, I really want to get to know you, I really do. Today’s complications are one thing. That drama I don’t mind, being there for you felt right. But I’m not here to play games, not with you or anybody, no matter how amazing you are. Everybody goes through their shit, but if every time you do, or I give you an opinion, you freeze me out, this is going nowhere fast.”
He takes my hand in his, and god I love how rough they feel. My eyes sting with tears, and I look up, struggling to keep them from breaking free. “Is it bad to say that I don’t trust you?” I ask quietly.
“Old habits die hard I think.” Jackson lifts my chin to meet my gaze. “No, I always prefer the truth. But if you’re not going to bother giving me a chance to earn your trust, tell me now. At least then I can try to walk away. Before this gets deeper than it already is.”
Jackson’s words are soft, but they are loaded with meaning. We both have trust issues. Both well warranted, I’m sure. I’m not good with words, or exposing my feelings to anyone. My defense mechanisms started building themselves when I was a toddler. But I owe this to myself. So I don’t even try to explain what I feel. Instead, I wrap my arms around Jackson’s neck and lean into him. Our lips meet in the softest, most earth shattering kiss imaginable. His hands cup my face gently as the sweet and heated kiss raises the car’s temperature. He grins at me cockily as we finally separate. “You are an unbelievable contradiction, you know that? So chaste, yet so very loaded at the same time.”
I throw my head back and scoff. “Loaded? Umm, that would be you.” I allow my eyes to sweep across his jeans coyly.
“You’re right. Get out so I can walk you up. I have a date with a cold shower to get to,” he huffs exaggeratedly.
“Hey, you said no!” I mock. “Regret that much?”
“No,” he says, turning serious. “I don’t plan on screwing this up.”
Jackson walks me up to my dorm room and our supposedly innocent goodnight kiss ends up with me once again pressed against the hallway wall, with him holding my arms up above my head and not even a millimeter of space between us.
Thankfully we said our goodbyes in the hall, because upon entering my dorm, I notice Jade is out for the night. She didn’t text to mention anything to about a date. I grab my phone and send a brief message.
Hey. Just me. Where are you?
I take a quick shower, irritated that cleanliness requires me to wash the scent of Jackson’s cologne off of my skin. No message from Jade when I get back. I close my eyes and block out the day’s events from my mind, save for the kiss in the car, and with the memory of Jackson’s lips on mine, I have the best night’s sleep I’ve had in a long time. Not one nightmare.
The next morning, an overcast sky greets me from the window. Glancing over, Jade’s bed is still empty. I check my phone, and still no texts. Surprisingly I’m awake early, and after carefully dressing in a cream cashmere V-neck jersey and my favorite weathered jeans, I make my way to Art History. As I walk over to the Art Building, I dial Jackson.
“Morning, beautiful.” He sounds like he’s just woken up and my mind reverts back to him in low riding grey sweatpants with no shirt, laying across my bed. “Maia?”
Shit! “Oh hey, yeah I’m here. Morning to you, too. Sleep well?”
“Mmmhmm. I did a few things in my dreams that I’m quite impressed with, actually. After my cold shower of course,” Jackson answers lowly.
“And which harlot found her way into your dreams?” I respond cheekily.
“Her name’s Maia. Forceful chick. Always trying to jump me. Know her?” he retorts laughing. I wish he were here so I could throw something at him!
“Anyway, have you heard from Jade? She stayed out last night and didn’t reply my text.”
“Nah, not since the Bean yesterday. She probably had a date,” Jackson answers. “Speaking of dates, do you have any time today between classes? I’m free all afternoon and I was hoping you are too,” he continues.
“Sure, I’m free from three. I’ll meet you outside the library?” Seriously, three ‘o clock might as well be half a century away. I can’t wait to wrap my arms around Jackson.
Seems like my new love life and almost-sex life do wonders for my GPA. I actually actively participated in most of my classes. All except the Art History class, where my professor went to great lengths to describe how the genitalia may have looked in the Birth of Venus, as compared to Michelangelo’s David’s parts. This would have been fine, if he weren’t so naturally creepy, and didn’t turn beet red every time he even alluded to said genitalia. Just awkward.
By the time three ‘o clock came and I made my way to the library, the wind was blowing a gale, whipping my hair into my face. The offending hair blocked my sight for a brief moment as I went to climb the stairs and I felt myself lose balance. Until a set of strong arms, with a familiar-scented cologne, caught my fall.
“My hero,” I grin, looking up at Jackson’s smiling face.
“Hey beautiful,” Jackson replies, wrapping his arms firmly around my waist.
He plants a smoldering kiss on my lips, and for a brief second my body flushes from the inside out and I feel like I’m falling all over again. The connection between us in undeniable, and so is the sexual chemistry. It’s almost electric, and I know that it’s only a matter of time before I end up with my thighs wrapped firmly around Jackson’s waist, both of us clothing deficient, of course.
“How about a change of scene? I thought maybe we could take a ride to NYC for dinner?” Jackson asks.
“Um, I’m not really dressed for the big city,” I admonish, gesturing towards my worn jeans. “How bout a movie and dinner in Providence?” Truthfully, I really don’t want to risk running into any remnants of my past. But I don’t admit that.
“Sure,” Jackson shrugs as we walk down the stairs towards the parking lot.
It’s easy to be like this with Jackson; he’s easy. No stress, no drama, no control. Just Jackson. My mind does a quick flashback to my father, or not father as it were, and to Bryce and all of their manipulation. I push them out of my mind quickly before they can invade my thoughts.
We cross through the park and I spot a familiar silhouette in the distance. Those squared off shoulders and almost anally straight posture. Bryce. Funny, I always thought he walked like he had a pole shoved up his ass. Now I’m certain. As he approaches us, I pray to God for invisibility right about now. Sadly that does not come to fruition, and Bryce’s face forms a sickening smile when he sees us. My hand automatically reaches for Jacksons. Bryce glances at it momentarily before hissing out my name like the snake he is.
“Maia. So nice to run into you,” he says, completely ignoring Jackson’s presence.
“If only the feeling were mutual,” I deadpan. “What are you doing here?”
“Right now?” he grins. “Just getting Morgan’s books. She’s here for late enrolment in advertising.”
Morgan at Brown? Now there’s a contradiction. The only 4.0 GPA that Morgan has ever possessed is in backstabbing, and how to be a social opportunist. “I guess her daddy’s money does a good job of buying brains too,” I retort sarcastically. Jackson squeezes my fingers lightly, as if telling me not to bite.
“Now, now, that’s not nice Maia. Besides, she won’t bother you. I’ll be here to keep her occupied,” he sneers, still ignoring Jackson. Oh my f-ucking word. What could I possibly have done to deserve this? “Only a few business subjects, to pass the time until I’m on the board of the company. Oh, and Art History and Comparative Literature. But sshh, don’t tell Morgan about those. I have ulterior motives in both of those classes,” he continues, winking.
Jackson’s body noticeably tenses next to me. Bryce has trouble reading Dr. Seuss, and his idea of art is the cover of Hustler. I’m not going to bite.
“Whatever,” I reply flippantly. “We have to go, Jackson and I have places to go, people to do. Oh I’m sorry. See, people to see. Bye Bryce.”
Bryce’s face flashes a mixture of surprise and annoyance. The old Maia would have run away to hide. The new Maia doesn’t really give a damn.
“So, that was badass. I like the way you handled that,” Jackson laughs as we get to the Mustang. “Just so you know, my resolve not to break his nose was wearing thin.”
“Hey!” I answer loudly. “That’s my ex-boyfriend you’re talking about.” Jackson’s face is a mixture of confusion and shock. “If anyone has first dibs on breaking his nose, it’s me!” I shove a thumb into my chest and grin before wrapping my arms around Jackson’s neck and stopping the conversation by otherwise occupying his lips.
“Wow, do you know how sexy you are when you’re mad?” Jackson says pulling back, as his hands glide lower on my waist.
“I can tell you think so,” I whisper, sliding my hands under the back of shirt and slowly pulling his hips towards me, until the space between us in impenetrable and I can feel the growing bulge in his jeans pressed against me. My thoughts are a mess; my brain is completely fuzzy. If we weren’t in the parking lot at the campus, there is not a thing that would keep me off of Jackson. And judging by his lust-filled gaze, I think he feels the same. “Let’s pick this up later,” I say very reluctantly.
We sit through some B grade slapstick comedy at the Cineplex, in an almost deserted cinema, where to our credit, Jackson and I abstain from any kind of sexual behavior. We have just managed to find seats at the packed Mexican grill nearby when I feel my phone vibrate in my pocket. It’s a text from Jade. Finally!
Hey! Sorry about not texting. I had someone to see in Atlanta, so I had to get down there.. Will call you soon. Xx.
How bizarre. “Jade is in Atlanta,” I say to Jackson still not completely having absorbed the fact. “Something about having to see someone.”
Jackson immediately looks uncomfortable and yet, very intrigued by my news. “Did she say who?” he asks. Something tells me a bomb is about to drop nearby.