What have I done?
For half an hour, I stare at the fire, my mind in overdrive. Eventually, as exhaustion begins to take over, I can’t fight my eyelids any longer. I go inside to the bedroom to find Spencer naked and fast asleep on his back.
I walk back out to Anthony who is on the sofa. “He’s asleep. You can go sleep in the spare room at the end of the hall. I’ll sleep in the other one.”
“You sure?” He frowns.
I nod and take his hand. “Thank you for looking after me so well.”
He smiles sadly and then smirks as if remembering something. “Where the fuck is Wyatt?”
“Hopefully he’s having more fun than we are.”
He chuckles. “This is one fucked up New Year’s Eve.”
I smile. “Right?”
He gets up and walks in to check on Spencer before he walks around and locks everything up.
“Goodnight, Charlotte,” he says.
“Goodnight.” I sit for a long time and watch the sun slowly rise through the windows. It’s like the world has gone into slow motion, and I know more than anything that I need to make this right. I walk into Spencer’s bedroom and take a long hot shower. Once clean and naked, I crawl into bed beside him.
He smells like he’s tipped a bottle of scotch over his body. I could get drunk from the fumes alone, but I don’t care. I wrap my arm around him and put my head on his shoulder, throwing my top leg over his. I gently kiss his chest, and with the familiarity of his warm body up against mine, I drift into an exhausted slumber.
*
I wake to the light beaming through the window. My eyes flutter to fight against it.
Spencer is still fast asleep, flat on his back, and I roll onto my side to watch him.
His large arms are up behind his head. My eyes drop down over his broad chest and rippled stomach, and then lower down over the well-kept pubic hair onto my favourite body part of his.
His cock is standing to attention up against his stomach. It’s big, beautiful, and ready to fuck. I smile at the sight of it. Even in deep sleep he is the perfect specimen.
Unable to help it, I kiss his chest, and then his bicep as my fingers trail down his abdomen and keep moving lower. I feel my arousal creep in as my fingers run through his pubic hair.
God, he’s beautiful. I’ve missed him so much.
My fingers wrap around his thick length, and his lips part as he sleeps. “Oh, I could make you feel so good, baby,” I whisper to myself.
I stroke him, and he inhales and spreads his legs as if granting me permission. I stroke him again and pre-ejaculate beads on the end of his head. “Do you need me, baby?” I murmur against his chest. “Because I need you.”
His legs spread wider and I begin to feel my pulse between my own legs. It’s been a long time since we touched each other. I felt like a part of me was missing. I slowly kiss down his abdomen and over his hip bones. I kiss his cock, and it flexes under my lips. I smile as I lick up the thick length of it.
He moans as he stirs, his knees parting and falling to the mattress.
Oh, I need him. I know he’s angry with me, but what a great way to make up. I take him into my mouth and my tongue swirls around the tip. He inhales sharply in his sleep, and I smile around him.
“You like that, baby?” I take him deeper and deeper, building a rhythm, and my mouth becomes flooded with pre-ejaculate.
I begin to lose control and take him deeper, when he suddenly jumps awake with a start.
His eyes meet mine and I stop what I’m doing, waiting for his reaction.
Is he going to push me away?
I smile softly around his cock, and he clenches his jaw as he watches me, his hands still above his head.
Okay, he didn’t push me away. I’ll keep going. I take him deeper, and my hand begins to stroke him as it follows my lips.
He inhales sharply, and I can tell he’s close. I can feel his cock quivering under my tongue.
“I missed you,” I whisper around him.
His dark eyes hold mine. I begin to flick my tongue over the end of him, something I know forces him to either come or fuck. He has nowhere to go when I do this. He can’t hide.
His body convulses. He grabs two handfuls of my hair to hold me in place and he begins to fuck my mouth with deep pumps. I gag at how rough he’s being and pull off him. Saliva streams from my lips to his cock.
“Fuck.” He moans at the sight of it. “Fucking hell.”
Before I know what’s happening, he flips me and has me pinned to my back, my legs spread wide.
His dark eyes hold mine as he slides in deep with one hard thrust.
My body convulses, and he pulls out only to slam back into me even harder. “Ouch, Spence,” I whisper. “Be careful.”
He flips me onto my knees. “Famous last words,” he growls as he slaps me hard on the behind and slams in deep, driving me into the mattress.
Oh shit!
He has a handful of my hair in one hand, while the other is holding my shoulder as he slams my body back onto his.
I can feel him so deep inside of me, and he’s so thick. He’s getting faster and faster, and, oh God, I can’t deal with how rough he’s being. But damn, I need this. The sound of our skin slapping together is echoing around the room.
“Spence,” I moan as the air is knocked from me. “Oh God.”
He grabs my shoulder and pushes me down to the mattress. His cock reaches a new, deeper place. A guttural moan leaves my body, and he slaps me on the behind again.
“Take it.” He hisses. “Take it.”
I clench and scream into the pillow as I see stars, my body thumping as an orgasm tears through me. He keeps working me at such a fast pace. I can only grip the sheets beneath me and feel the stretching burn of his possession. He holds himself deep and throws his head back, and I feel the jerk of his cock deep inside of me.
But instead of the tender strokes he usually empties himself with, this time is different. He continues to fuck me hard, banging pumps, as if my body is only a tool that he’s using to empty his pleasure into.
There is no emotion in his touch.
It’s as cold as ice.
With each hit, my tears form. This is foreign to me—so different to how we usually make love.
It’s like he’s a stranger.
He slaps me on the behind once more, and then he pulls out. Without a word, he gets up and walks into the bathroom, slamming the door behind him.
I lie in shock, my body still quivering from the orgasm I just had. My breathing is ragged as I gasp for air.
Dear God, what the hell was that?
I roll over onto my back and stare at the ceiling through my blurred vision.
Fuck this.
I get up and storm into the bathroom. He’s in the shower, soaping up.
“What the hell was that?” I demand.
He glares at me. “I’d like to fucking know, too.”
I scowl in confusion. “What do you mean? You just fucked me like you don’t even know me.”
“That’s because I don’t fucking know you.”
My face falls. “Spence.”
“You’re too late,” he barks, and my heart drops. He’s so hurt.
“Baby.” I step under the water and wrap my arms around him. “I love you. I’m so sorry. I had to work this out by myself, and it took longer than I thought it would. I couldn’t get a flight, and then I spent all day calling you. Why didn’t you answer your damn phone?” I blurt out.
He stands rigid, his hands down by his sides.
My eyes search his and I cup his cheeks. “Can we talk and work this out together?”
“The time for talking was last week, Charlotte. You’ve put me though fucking Hell.”
“I know,” I whisper. “I’ve been to Hell and back myself.”
He gets out of the shower in a rush. “I don’t want to fucking see you.”
“Don’t say that,” I plead as I reach for him. “I missed you.”
He stares at me.
I stand on my tiptoes and softly kiss his lips. I take his arms and wrap them around me. “I love you, Spencer Jones. I’m going to spend the rest of my life making this up to you.”