“I got my heart broken again.” I chuckled, shrugged. “Stupid me, huh?”
“Stupid him, more like it. My girl’s a queen. Any boy that can’t see that doesn’t deserve to get within spitting distance.” The man should be president. He said the nicest damn things.
“Thanks, Dad.”
He just stared at me, waiting for more information.
“It really is a long story,” I said.
A particularly high-pitched, ear-shattering scream communicating what I supposed was extreme delight came from within the house. I winced.
“It’s going to be a long night,” sighed Dad. “What do you say we go inside, get the greetings out of the way, and then go hide out down in the basement with my beer fridge?”
“Sounds like a plan.”
“Your mother missed you, Lena.” He dug into his coat pocket for the keys. An impossible process given his many tasty burdens.
“Here, let me help.” I took one of the bags off his hands. “I missed her too. I just needed to get away for a while, find myself and stuff.”
“And what’d you find?”
“I found that I still have no sense when it comes to choosing men. But you know what, Dad?”
“What, Lena?” he asked with a smile.
“I’m okay on my own.”
His keys jingled as he fiddled about, searching for the right one. “Of course you are, you were always the strongest out of my girls. Your sister was always jealous of you, you know?”
“Get out of here.” I laughed. The whole idea was ridiculous. “Shiny, perfect Alyce?”
“Try shiny, sassy Lena. Always ready with a clever comeback and able to talk to anyone.” Dad smiled and pushed the front door open.
Light and noise assailed us along with many girls crying my name in surprise.
“Hi.” I gave a finger wave.
Alyce gave me a tremulous smile. Five-foot-eight and willowy slender, with a glossy fall of mahogany hair. “Lena. Hey.”
“Hi,” I repeated, just proving exactly how excellent I was with conversation.
Dad squeezed past me, taking the food into the kitchen. Her bridesmaids watched on with big curious eyes, the damn gossips. News of my return would no doubt be texted all over town within minutes.
“Thanks for coming back,” said my sister, looking all sorts of shy and uncertain. Her gaze wandered all over the place, unable to stay on me for long.
“Not a problem.”
Then my pint-sized hurricane of a mother flew out of the kitchen and tackle-hugged me. Our ample bosoms slammed together with an “oomph!” Rock-and-roll wrestlers would have been on their asses. My glasses were most definitely askew.
“About time,” she whispered. “Welcome back, honey.”
“Thanks, Mom.” I hugged her back until my arms ached. This had been the right thing to do, coming home. I felt better already, lighter. I could put myself back together in peace here. Forget about rock stars and slick suits and all the rest.
Mom, Dad, and I piled our plates high with Sweet and Sour Pork and so on, then retreated downstairs. The feral female bridesmaid pack could run wild with their squeeing on the ground level. It seemed even mom was ready for an estrogen break.
We quickly outvoted dad and the game got turned off in favor of an old black-and-white movie that was on TV. It was nice, being home, being with my parents, all of it. Very nice.
“Another beer, Lena?” asked Dad from his seat in the corner.
“I take it that’s your subtle way of asking me to go fetch you one?”
“I’m an old man. You have to look after your father.”
“Ri-i-ight.”
Mom just tittered. Lord knew how many white wines she’d sucked down before we came home. I didn’t begrudge her, Alyce’s wedding plans had obviously taken their toll.
The basement was Dad’s man palace. A huge flat-screen TV, comfy couches, and of course, the aforementioned beer fridge in the corner. Framed pictures of football jerseys lined the walls. Sometimes I wondered if Dad regretted not having sons, but he’d never said or indicated anything of the like. My parents were good people. Any issues I had body wise or whatever were my own. And while it was seriously great to be back home, I didn’t belong here long term.
Forget the past, I was going to do my thing (whatever that was) and be happy. Decision made.
I grabbed my dad’s beer, the second, however, I hovered over. I didn’t have a drinking problem. Not drinking had been something I did in support of Jimmy.
“Fuck it,” I mumbled, snatching another cold one from the fridge. I could kick back with my folks and enjoy a drink without it being a problem. Jimmy Ferris did not rule me in any way, shape, or form. Never had and never would. Not that he’d ever felt I needed to not drink, it’d been my show of solidarity and how far had that gotten me?
Whatever. It was time to kick back and relax. I was having a beer.
“Isn’t that the man you were working for?” asked Mom.
I turned and there they were, spread out in full vibrant color, coming at me live from Hollywood. Jimmy and Liv on the red carpet at some event. He looked so damn good with his dark hair styled back and a black suit on. It was like a knife twisting inside of my chest. My whole body went into shock. The beer bottles slipped from my fingers, smashing upon the tiled floor. Glass glittered and foaming beer had splashed everywhere. I looked up and he was gone, the ad was over, the news had moved on. Our sweet old black-and-white movie returned to the screen.
Mom and Dad were already out of their chairs and rushing at me.
“I’m so sorry,” I said, staring uselessly at the mess I’d created. My brain had stalled. Jimmy certainly however hadn’t missed a beat. He’d smashed my heart, thrown me out, and moved on with being the rock ’n’ roll bad boy.
“Fuck him,” I whispered.
My sister dashed down the stairs. “What was that?”
“Your sister had an accident,” said Mom, grabbing a towel out of the pile of laundry beside the dryer.
“I made a mistake,” I agreed. “A really big one.”
Dad blinked at me owlishly from behind his glasses. “Oh, sweetheart.”
The tears started and they didn’t stop for a long, long time. I think I finally cried myself dry.