If You Stay (Beautifully Broken, #1)

And as we speed along, I get more and more pissed.

“What makes you think you have the right to be mad at me?” I shout above the wind. “I was curious, that’s all. I have a right to be curious, Pax.”

He doesn’t answer. His hand just pushes the throttle even more and we speed faster.

I grit my teeth.

“Would you slow down?” I demand. “You’re going to kill us both.”

No answer.

He doesn’t slow down.

I grit my teeth again but before I can say anything, we hit another huge swell. And this time, before I can think or move, we come down hard.

Only instead of staying inside the boat, I am thrown right over the edge, right into the frigid, churning waters of Lake Michigan.






Chapter Fifteen


Pax



“Fuck!”

I barely have time to react before Mila is gone, over the side and into the icy water. I kill the motor and turn about, scanning the top of the choppy water.

“Mila!” I shout as I rush to the side. “Mila!”

She’s gone. I can’t see her. The gray water churns and spins, creating frothy whitecaps that lap onto the side of the boat. There is no sign of Mila among the depths.

Holy shit. Without another thought, I dive in after her.

The shock of the frigid water knocks the wind out of me and I thrash about, trying to fumble for Mila and trying to keep my lungs from automatically sucking for air. I’ve never felt such an incredible, bone-shattering cold in all of my life. Every cell in my body, every bit of self-preservation, is trying to force me to get out of the freezing water. But I’ve got to find her.

I plunge further down and my body actually goes numb. I don’t feel it anymore. I wave my arms blindly in front of me, desperate for some sign of her. This can’t be happening. Mila can’t drown here, not in the lake that she loves so much, not because of me. I force my eyelids open and the frigidity assaults the tender tissue of my eyes, but I have to see. Although the water is so murky in its frigid state that I honestly can’t see anything at all.

I continue to flail about until my hand bumps something hard in the water.

I grab at it, my numb fingers grasping at something fleshy.

Mila.

The down-filled coat is dragging her down and she can’t kick to the surface. She seems to be struggling to take it off.

I pull her with me and we break through the water. I shove her hair away from her face. She sucks in air and claws at me out of instinct, trying to get out of the water.

“Calm down,” I tell her quickly, kicking us toward the boat. “Calm down or you’ll drown us both.”

I shove her up and over the side of the boat, and then pull myself up after her. We both collapse into a heap. She’s in a pool of icy water on the floor of the boat, her teeth chattering and her lips blue.

“What the hell were you thinking?” I snap at her. “Are you insane? Why weren’t you holding on? ”

I strip off the heavy full-length parka because it is soaked and then I look around the boat to see if there is anything to wrap her in, but there isn’t.

“Fuck,” I mutter. “I don’t have anything to keep you warm.” Her wet hair is standing up in clumps and dangling down her back and I rub at her arms. “We’ve got to get back to shore. Stay over here next to the edge.”

She clings to the side, under the lip where she is partially protected from the wind.

“I’m s-s-sorry,” she chatters. “I should have held on t-t-tighter. But y-y-you shouldn’t have been d-d-driving so fast.”

“I know,” I tell her limply. “I’m sorry, Mila. It was my fault. We’ll just get to shore and get you dried off.”

I start the boat up and turn it toward shore, going as fast as I can. The wind cuts through my wet shirt and no lie, icicles form on the hem. By the time I pull into my slip, my fingers are purple and I’m shivering almost uncontrollably.

I’m no sooner docked than I am helping Mila out of the boat with numb fingers. She’s stumbling so much that I can tell her limbs are numb, too. So I just scoop her up, figuring I can carry her faster than she can walk.

“I c-c-can w-w-walk,” she chatters. I shake my head.

“I can walk faster.”

Her fingers gripping my shoulders are like ice and I shake my head again.

“You’re probably going to get pneumonia,” I tell her as I unlock the car and settle her into the seat. For the first time, I wish my car was new instead of a classic. A new car would have seat warmers.

I jam the key into the ignition with frigid, shaking fingers and we make it to my house in just a few minutes. My guilt makes me drive faster on the ice than I normally would have.

The car is barely in the driveway before I hit the button for the garage so that I don’t have to fumble with the front-door lock. I am out of the car and to her side within seconds, pulling her out and carrying her through the garage and into the house.