‘Ships all in the same places,’ Barak said. ‘The French haven’t sent the galleys forward yet today.’
I looked out across the Point. The fleet still rode at anchor out on the Solent, in fact more small ships had joined it, but one great ship was missing. Though it set my stomach fluttering with fear, my eyes searched out over the water. ‘You can’t see the masts from here,’ Barak said gently.
‘Will they send word to the families of the men who were lost? Leacon’s company came from Hertfordshire.’
Barak looked out at the ships. ‘They won’t be able to send anyone. Returning soldiers will tell the families when this is over.’
‘I will tell Leacon’s parents at least, go to Kent. Dear God, I owe them that.’
He answered gently, ‘Let’s get our business done and return to London first.’
We walked towards the inn where Oddleg was stabled. A company of tired-looking soldiers marched past us towards the wharf. I studied their faces, then asked quietly, ‘When you were out in the city yesterday, I don’t suppose there was any sign of Emma?’
‘I asked around, spoke to the soldiers at the gate. No one remembers a brown-haired boy in a torn shirt. I think she’s got herself away.’
WE FOUND THE horses and rode out through the town gate: I left Portsmouth for the last time with head bowed, unable to look back. There were new soldiers in the tents where Leacon’s company had been encamped. We spurred the horses to a canter, riding north across Portsea Island, and crossed the bridge over the muddy creek to the Hampshire mainland; then left, to Portchester Castle. I kept my gaze away from the seaward side of the road; I could not bear to look out there.
I had no letter now, no authority to get into the castle. I dared not ask for Warner. But faced with the guards by the moat I found my fear and shrinking left me, my lawyer’s tricks of speech and manner came back and I told them – truthfully enough – that I was a lawyer who worked for the Queen and had been on the Mary Rose. I managed to get the name out, although it brought a fresh churning to my stomach.
I had expected the officer in charge to be impressed, but he only looked at me dubiously. ‘What was a lawyer doing on the Mary Rose? There’s dozens round Portsmouth now saying they’re survivors of the sinking. Most are hoping for pensions. If you’re a lawyer, where’s your robe?’
I lost my temper. ‘At the bottom of the Solent! I tell you, I was on that ship; it will haunt me all my days! Now get a message to the Queen, it’s urgent. She’ll see me. If she won’t, you can throw me in the moat for all I care.’
He looked at me doubtfully again, but sent a soldier to take my message in. Barak clapped me on the arm. ‘That’s better,’ he said in relieved tones. ‘See, you’re getting back to your old self.’
I did not reply. Seeing the soldiers had made me think again of Leacon and the company, the water splashing up around them as they fell and drowned. I gripped Oddleg’s reins, saw my knuckles turn white.
HALF AN HOUR later I was shown into a richly furnished chamber. Barak had been ordered to wait in the courtyard. The Queen sat at a desk, writing. As ever, two maids-in-waiting were with her, sewing in a bay window. They rose and bowed. Robert Warner stood beside the desk. He gave me an angry stare as I bowed deeply to the Queen. She got up. I saw she still looked strained and tired.
‘The guard told me you were on the Mary Rose, Matthew?’ she said gently.
‘I was, your majesty.’ I found I was blinking back tears. At a nod from the Queen, Warner guided me to a chair. Queen Catherine stood, hands folded over her lap, looking down at me.
‘What happened?’ she asked softly.
I took a deep breath, but for a moment no words came. ‘I am sorry, your majesty. I hastened to get here, but – forgive me, I find it hard to speak.’ My voice trembled.
‘Take your time.’ The Queen waved at her ladies. ‘Rosamond, bring some wine.’
After a few moments I collected myself. I said, ‘I have the answer to what was done to Hugh Curteys. And to poor Michael Calfhill, who was driven to kill himself. And then – I have something to tell you about Sir Richard Rich and the woman I know in the Bedlam. Something dark and secret.’
Warner spoke for the first time. ‘If it involves Rich, your majesty, you should be careful. Master Shardlake, is this something safe for the Queen to know?’
I hesitated, then said, ‘Perhaps you are right. My judgement of late has been wanting, God knows.’