‘We were told to go to the space under the aftercastle.’
‘You go. I can’t.’
For the first time her expression was indecisive, uncertain. She stepped off the ladder and stood beside me. The ship was still turning, some of the handgunners were clutching at the ports now with one hand. Staring ahead, I realized the Mary Rose intended to face the galleys side on, bringing her cannon to bear. I felt giddy and sank to the floor. Emma looked down at her torn shirt, the heartstone swinging on its cord. It was still hard to believe she was not a boy. She pulled the ends of the shirt together, then sat down beside me. ‘Afraid, Master Shardlake?’ she asked coldly.
‘Leacon is right,’ I answered. ‘Everyone should be afraid to die.’
She laughed harshly. ‘Rather die fighting than hang.’ Her voice seemed perceptibly higher. Something else she had had to keep under control all these years.
I said, ‘David is not dead, though he is badly hurt.’
She lowered her head, then spoke quietly. ‘I did not mean to kill him. I thought I would kill you and Barak, but I couldn’t.’
‘I know.’
She did not answer, but sat with head bowed. I looked ahead again. The four galleys were close now, I saw their sides were richly gilded with the arms of France. They circled round, still in their square formation, bringing their guns into position to fire on the Mary Rose. I said, as steadily as I could given my thudding heart, ‘It’s coming.’
‘Let it,’ Emma answered without looking up.
I said, ‘If we get out of this, Hobbey will pass your wardship to me. Then you can decide what you want to be.’
She looked up, her face set hard again. ‘If we live I’ll find another company. Fight the Scots, perhaps.’
‘I risked all to try and save you.’
‘Why?’ she asked. ‘Why did you? I never wanted – ’
‘To give you a chance. A choice – ’
I broke off at the sound of a cracking boom. Dark grey smoke billowed out from the front of the galley facing us. There was an odd silence lasting perhaps twenty seconds, then one of the sailors said, ‘That was close.’
Then from below came a shout of ‘Give fire!’ followed by the loudest noise I have ever heard, as all the cannon on the starboard side of the Mary Rose fired on the galleys, one after another after another, a series of tremendous crashing roars. I felt the impact travel up through my legs, making my very bones shake, and a dreadful pressure on the inside of my ears. The decks trembled and creaked. I turned to Emma; she had looked up, her eyes alight with excitement.
As the smoke cleared I saw the galleys were undamaged. The Mary Rose began turning to port, fast and steeply. I heard a cracking of sails. Then, through the doorway, I felt a sudden strong gust of wind.
‘That’s too fast,’ one of the sailors said.
The ship heeled to starboard. I thought it would be like the earlier manoeuvre and she would right herself, but she tilted more and more. The soldiers on the port side, which rose high as the starboard side dipped lower, clung to the side of the portholes; their guns began slipping back through them and crashing down the decks. Looking through the doorway I saw a man fall off the topmast into the web of rigging, swivel guns fall from the topdeck railing, into the sea. I heard crashing and shouting below the netting enclosing the weatherdeck as men and equipment slid and fell. All this took only seconds, but the time seems to stretch out in my memory, detail after terrible detail. All the soldiers on our deck, and their guns, were now tumbling and crashing against the starboard side. The long cannon on the port side, too, began slipping from its mount.