141 “a very sad case”: Virginia Heinlein to Catherine and Sprague de Camp, Aug. 7, 1946.
142 “All right, I’ll marry you”: Sara Elizabeth Hollister (formerly Sara Northrup Hubbard) tapes, Stephen A. Kent Collection on Alternative Religions. Both the church and Hubbard himself denied that he was ever married to Northrup, although there is a marriage certificate on file in the Kent County Courthouse in Chestertown, Maryland, recording the marriage of Lafayette Hubbard and Sara Elizabeth Northrup on Aug. 10, 1946. Northrup also cites that date in her divorce pleading.
143 “I suppose Polly was”: L. Sprague de Camp letter to Heinleins, Aug. 13, 1946.
144 In fact, Polly didn’t learn: Miller, Bare-Faced Messiah, p. 189.
145 “Mr. Hubbard accomplished”: Church of Scientology response to queries. Parsons lost his security clearance in 1948 because he was suspected of leaking state secrets to a foreign power. In 1952, while his wife was at the grocery store, he blew himself up in his garage, apparently accidentally. According to Anthony Torchia, a former member of the OTO, the order dissolved in the 1960s but re-formed in the 1970s and continues to this day. Moreover, the OTO does not consider itself “black” magic.
146 “No work since discharge”: Veterans Administration Report of Physical Examination, Sept. 19, 1946.
147 “I got up and left”: Sara Elizabeth Hollister (formerly Sara Northrup Hubbard) tapes, Stephen A. Kent Collection on Alternative Religions.
148 churning out plots: Ibid. Among the stories Sara Northrup claimed to have written were the Ole Doc Methuselah series in Amazing Science Fiction.
149 “I kept thinking”: Ibid.
150 Nibs told her: Ibid.
151 Ron was arrested: Ibid.
152 I am utterly unable”: Hubbard letter to Veterans Administration, Oct. 15, 1947.
153 “a manic depressive”: Miller, Bare-Faced Messiah, p. 175.
154 “He said he always wanted”: www.cs.cmu.edu/~dst/Library/Shelf/miller/?interviews/barbkaye.htm.
155 “Paranoid personality”: Jim Dincalci, personal communication.
156 “malignant narcissism”: Stephen Wiseman, personal communication.
157 “a kind of self-therapy”: Church of Scientology, California, v. Gerald Armstrong. Information that has become available since the Armstrong trial, such as the Heinlein and Hays letters, confirms much of the material in the Affirmations, adding to its credibility.
158 “the Empress”: Atack, A Piece of Blue Sky, p. 100, says that Hubbard may also have called his Guardian Hathor, an Egyptian goddess usually depicted with cow horns. In the Affirmations, Hubbard explicitly names his Guardian Flavia Julia. He may have been referring to Flavia Julia Titi, daughter of the Roman Emperor Titus; or, perhaps more likely, to the Empress Flavia Julia Helena Augustus, also known as Saint Helen, mother of Constantine the Great, who is credited with finding the “True Cross.” Jim Dincalci told me that L. Ron Hubbard, Jr., referred to his father’s Guardian as the source of his automatic writing; also, that Aiwass, Crowley’s Guardian, was in charge of this sector of the universe.
159 miniature kangaroos: Miller, Bare-Faced Messiah, p. 140.
160 hypnotize Sara’s mother: Sara Elizabeth Hollister (formerly Sara Northrup Hubbard) tapes, Stephen A. Kent Collection on Alternative Religions.
161 “The organization is clearly schizophrenic”: Judge Paul G. Breckenridge, Church of Scientology, California, v. Gerald Armstrong.
162 “I went right down”: Hubbard, “The Story of Dianetics and Scientology,” lecture, Oct. 18, 1958.
163 “I used to sit”: Sue Lindsay, “Book Pulls Hubbard into Public,” Rocky Mountain News, Feb. 20, 1983.
164 “I cannot imagine how”: Hubbard letter to Veterans Administration, Jan. 27, 1948.
165 “Been amusing myself making”: Hubbard letter to Russell Hays, July 15, 1948.
166 he floats the idea of a book: Ibid.
167 “I got to revolutionize”: Ibid., Aug. 16, 1948.
168 “I was hiding behind”: Hubbard, “The Story of Dianetics and Scientology,” lecture, Oct. 18, 1958.
169 “I will soon, I hope”: Hubbard letter to Robert Heinlein, Nov. 24, 1948.
170 a Guggenheim grant: Ibid., Sept. 25, 1948.
171 a loan of fifty dollars: Ibid., Feb. 17, 1949.
172 “Golly, I never was”: Ibid., Mar. 3, 1949.
173 “getting case histories”: Ibid.
174 “My hip and stomach”: Ibid., Mar. 8, 1949.
175 It ain’t agin religion”: Ibid., Mar. 31, 1949.
176 “Dammit, the man’s got”: John Campbell letter to Robert Heinlein, July 26, 1949.
177 “deep hypnosis”: Ibid.
178 “I was born”: Ibid., Sept. 15, 1949.
179 lost twenty pounds: Ibid.
180 “The key to world sanity”: Ibid.
181 “a little old shack”: Hubbard letter to Robert Heinlein, Dec. 30, 1949.
182 Announcing a New Hubbard Edition: Undated correspondence from Hubbard to Robert and Virginia Heinlein.
183 “Ron is going at”: Sara Hubbard letter to Robert and Virginia Heinlein, May 2, 1950.