Best Kept Secrets

"I keep getting the present mixed up with the past. Hearing

 

you talk about wishing you could have been my father stifled

 

my romantic inclinations."

 

"When I look at you now, I can't relate you to that tiny

 

baby in the crib. You're an exciting woman. I want to hold

 

you, love you, and not like a daddy."

 

"No." She shook her head adamantly. "It just doesn't sit

 

right, Junior. It's out of whack."

 

This was the speech she should have made to Reede. Why

 

hadn't she? Because she was a phony, that's why. And because

 

the same rules didn't always apply to similar situations,

 

even when one wanted them to. And because she didn't have

 

any control over whom she fell in love with. She and Celina

 

had that in common.

 

"We can never be lovers."

 

He smiled and said without rancor, "I'm stubborn. Once

 

this is over, I'll make certain that you see me in a whole new

 

light. We'll pretend that we're meeting for the first time and

 

you'll fall hard for me."

 

If it soothes his ego, let him think so, Alex thought.

 

She knew it would never be, just as it could never have

 

been with him and Celina.

 

And in both cases, Reede Lambert was the reason.

 

 

 

Thirty-seven

 

 

 

 

 

Angus's secretary escorted Alex into his office at ME headquarters.

 

It was an unpretentious complex, situated in a

 

professional building between a dentist's office and a two-partner

 

law firm. He stepped around his desk to greet her.

 

 

 

"Thank you for stopping by, Alex."

 

 

 

"I'm glad you called. I needed to talk to you anyway."

 

 

 

"Would you like a drink?"

 

 

 

"No, thanks."

 

 

 

"Seen Junior lately?"

 

 

 

"Yes. We had coffee together this morning."

 

 

 

Angus was pleased. His lecture had obviously worked. As

 

usual, Junior had just needed a pep talk to get into gear.

 

 

 

"Before we get to my business," Angus said, "what's on

 

your mind?"

 

 

 

"Specifically, the night my mother died, Angus."

 

 

 

His hearty smile faded. "Sit down." He guided her to a

 

small upholstered couch. "What do you want to know?"

 

 

 

"When I spoke with Junior this morning, he confirmed

 

what I'd already been told--that he proposed to Celina that

 

night. I know that you and Mrs. Minton opposed the idea."

 

 

 

"That's right, Alex, we did. I hate to tell you that. I don't

 

mean to speak badly of your mother because I adored her as

 

Junior's friend."

 

 

 

"But you didn't want her for his wife."

 

 

 

"No." He leaned forward and wagged his finger at her.

 

 

 

 

 

"Don't think it was snobbishness on my part. It wasn't. Sarah

 

Jo's opinion might have been swayed by class and economic

 

distinctions, but not mine. I would have objected to Junior

 

marrying anybody at that time in his life."

 

"Then why did you consent to his marriage to Stacey

 

Wallace only a few weeks later?"

 

No dummy this girl, Angus thought. He assumed an innocent

 

pose. "The situation had changed by then. He'd been

 

emotionally devastated by Celina's death. Stacey worshiped

 

the ground he walked on. I thought she would be good for him.

 

For a while, she was. I don't regret blessing that marriage."

 

"A prestigious judge's daughter was also a far more suitable

 

match for the son of Angus Minton."

 

His blue eyes darkened. "You're disappointing me, Alex.

 

What you're suggesting is downright tacky. Do you think I'd

 

force my son into a loveless marriage?"

 

"I don't know. Would you?"

 

"No!"

 

"Even if the stakes were awfully high?"

 

"Listen," he said, lowering his voice for emphasis, "anything

 

I've ever done for my boy has been for his own good.''

 

"Does that include killing Celina?"

 

Angus jerked upright. "You've got your nerve, young

 

lady."

 

"I'm sorry. I can't afford to be subtle. Angus, Junior says

 

he left the ranch that night, angry and hurt, because Celina

 

turned down his proposal."

 

"That's right."

 

"It was left to you to drive her home."

 

"Yes. Instead, I offered her one of the cars and gave her

 

the keys. She told me good-bye and left the house. I assumed

 

she drove herself home."

 

"Did anyone overhear this conversation?"

 

"Not that I know of."

 

"Not even your wife?"

 

"She went up to bed right after supper."

 

"Don't you see, Angus? You've got no alibi. There's no

 

witness to what happened after Junior left.''

 

 

 

It pleased him enormously that she seemed worried about

 

it. Her features were anxious and drawn. Lately, he'd found

 

it hard to think of this girl as his enemy. Evidently, she was

 

nursing that same ambiguity.

 

"I slept with Sarah Jo that night," he said. "She'll vouch

 

for that. So will Reede. We were in bed the next morning

 

when he came running in to tell us that he'd found Celina's

 

body in the stable."

 

"Wasn't my grandmother worried about her? When Celina

 

didn't come home, didn't she telephone the ranch?"

 

"In fact, she did. Celina had already left the house. She

 

had bragged that you were already sleeping through the night,

 

so I guess Mrs. Graham went back to bed, assuming that she

 

was on her way. She didn't realize until the following morning

 

that Celina hadn't made it home."

 

"What time did Grandma Graham call?"

 

"I don't remember. It wasn't very late because I was still

 

up. I usually go to bed early. I was especially tired after the

 

day we'd spent in the stable with that mare."

 

Alex was frowning in concentration. He grinned. "Sound

 

plausible?"

 

Grudgingly, she returned his smile. "Yes, but it's riddled

 

with holes."

 

"It's damn sure not enough to ask a grand jury for a murder

 

indictment. It's nothing like a blood-soaked Gooney Bud

 

holding a scalpel."

 

Alex said nothing.

 

Angus reached out and covered her hand. "I hope I didn't

 

hurt your feelings, talking frankly about your mother like

 

that."

 

"No, you didn't," she replied with a weak smile. "In the

 

last few days I've learned that she was far from an angel."

 

"I would never have approved of her for Junior. My disapproval

 

didn't have anything to do with whether she was a

 

saint or sinner."

 

He watched her wet her lips anxiously before asking,

 

"What was your main objection, Angus? Was it because she

 

had me?"

 

 

 

So that's it, he thought. Alex blames herself for her mother's

 

fate. Guilt had driven her to get to the bottom of this

 

case. She craved absolution for the sin Merle Graham had

 

laid on her. What a spiteful thing for the old bitch to do to

 

a kid. Still, it served his purpose well.

 

"My disapproval had nothing to do with you, Alex. It was

 

Reede and Junior." Humbly, he folded his hands and studied

 

them as he spoke. ' 'Junior needs somebody to goad him every

 

now and then. A strong daddy, a strong friend, a strong

 

woman." He looked up at her from beneath lowered brows.

 

"You'd be a perfect mate for him."

 

"Mate?"

 

He laughed and spread his arms wide at his sides. "Hell,

 

I might as well come right out with it. I'd like to see a match

 

between you and Junior."

 

'What!?"

 

Angus wasn't sure whether she was actually stunned, or a

 

damn good actress. Either way, he was glad he'd chosen to

 

prod this thing along himself. Left alone, Junior wasn't getting

 

the job done.

 

"We could use a smart lady lawyer in this family. Think

 

what a contribution you'd make to the business, not to mention

 

the empty bedrooms at the ranch. In no time you'd fill

 

'em up with grandbabies." He lowered his eyes to her pelvic region. "You've got the build for it, and you'd bring new

 

blood to the stock."

 

"You can't be serious, Angus."

 

"I've never been more serious in my life." He patted her

 

on the back. "For now, though, let's just leave it at this: I'd

 

be pleased as punch if something romantic was to spark between

 

you and Junior."

 

She moved away from his touch. "Angus, I don't want to

 

offend you or Junior, but what you're suggesting is . . ."

 

She searched for the right word, then laughed and said, "preposterous."

 

"Why?"

 

"You're asking me to play the role my mother was cast

 

for. You rejected her."

 

 

 

"You're suited to the role. She wasn't."

 

"I'm not in love with Junior, and I don't want the part."

 

She stood up and moved to the door. "I'm sorry if there's

 

been any misunderstanding or if I've misled anybody into

 

thinking . . ." He gave her his darkest, most fearsome frown,

 

the one that usually struck terror into the hearts of those who

 

opposed him. She withstood it well. "Good-bye, Angus. I'll

 

be in touch."

 

After she left, Angus poured a drink to calm himself down.

 

His fingers closed around the glass so tightly, it was a wonder

 

it didn't shatter under the pressure.

 

Angus Minton rarely had his ideas questioned, and even

 

less frequently, snickered at. They were sure as hell never

 

called preposterous.

 

 

 

Alex left feeling greatly disturbed. In spite of her best

 

intentions, she had offended him. She regretted that. But what

 

disturbed her most was that she'd seen into the man behind

 

the good ole boy demeanor.

 

Angus Minton liked to have things go his way. When they

 

didn't move along fast enough, he boosted them. He didn't

 

take kindly to being crossed.

 

More than ever, Alex pitied Junior, whose pace was so

 

different from his father's. No doubt that had always been a

 

source of friction between them. She could also understand

 

why a man as self-sufficient as Reede had left Minton Enterprises.

 

He wouldn't have functioned well under Angus's

 

heavy thumb.

 

She returned to her car and began to drive aimlessly, leaving

 

the city limits and taking to the back roads. The scenery

 

wasn't much to brag about. Tumbleweeds were snagged on

 

barbed-wire fences that seemed to stretch forever. Oil wells,

 

black outlines against the colorless earth, pumped desultorily.

 

The drive helped; it gave her privacy in which to think.

 

Like her mother, she had become entangled with three men,

 

all of whom she liked. She didn't want to believe one of them

 

was a killer.

 

Lord, what a muddle. She was gradually peeling away