Best Kept Secrets

"They were like a unit," she said, lapsing into a faint,

 

reflective voice, and Alex realized that she had slipped into

 

her own private world. "A little club unto themselves. You

 

rarely saw one without seeing the other two."

 

"I've noticed that in candid shots in their high school

 

yearbooks. There are lots of pictures of the three of them."

 

Alex had pored over the photographs on those glossy pages,

 

looking for clues, anything, that might benefit her investigation.

 

"I didn't want Junior to get so deeply involved with them,''

 

Sarah Jo was saying. "Reede was a hoodlum, the son of the

 

town drunk, of all things. And your mother . . . well, there

 

were many reasons why I didn't want him to become attached

 

to her."

 

"Name one."

 

"Mainly because of how it was between her and Reede.

 

I knew Junior would always be her second choice. It galled

 

me that she could even exercise a choice. She wasn't worthy

 

of the right to choose," she said bitterly.

 

"But Junior adored her, no matter what I said. Just as I

 

feared, he fell in love with her." Suddenly, her eyes focused

 

sharply on her guest. "And I have a sick feeling that he'll

 

fall in love with you, too."

 

"You're wrong."

 

"Oh, I'm sure you'll see to it that he does. Reede, too,

 

probably. That would round out the triangle again, wouldn't

 

it? Don't you want to pit them against each other, like she

 

did?"

 

"No!"

 

Sarah Jo's eyes narrowed with malice. "Your mother was

 

a tramp."

 

Up to this point, Alex had carefully controlled her tongue.

 

But since her hostess was maligning her late mother, she

 

dismissed her manners. "I take exception to that slanderous

 

remark, Mrs. Minton."

 

Sarah Jo gave a negligent wave of her hand. "No matter.

 

It's the truth. I knew she was common and coarse the first

 

 

 

I met her. Oh, she was pretty, in a lush, flamboyant

 

f. Much like you."

 

Her eyes moved over Alex critically. Alex was tempted to

 

get up and walk out. The only thing that kept her sitting in that spindly chair was the hope that Sarah Jo would inadvertently

 

impart some scrap of valuable information.

 

"Your mother laughed too loud, played too hard, loved

 

too well. Emotions were to her what a bottle of liquor is to a drunkard. She overindulged, and had no control over exhibiting

 

her feelings."

 

"She sounds very honest," Alex said with pride. "The

 

world might be better off if people openly expressed what

 

they were feeling." Her words fell on deaf ears.

 

"Whatever a man needed or wanted her to be at the moment,"

 

Sarah Jo continued, "she was. Celina was an unconscionable

 

flirt. Every man she met fell in love with her.

 

She made certain of it. She would do anything to guarantee

 

it."

 

Enough was enough. "I won't let you disparage a woman

 

who's not around to defend herself. It's ugly and cruel of

 

you, Mrs. Minton." The room, which had been as fresh as

 

a greenhouse when she had come in, now seemed suffocating.

 

She had to get out. "I'm leaving."

 

"Not yet." Sarah Jo stood up when Alex did. "Celina

 

loved Reede as much as she was capable of loving anyone

 

except herself."

 

"What concern was that of yours?"

 

"Because she wanted Junior, too, and she let him know

 

it. Your grandmother, that stupid woman, was giddy over

 

the idea of a match between our children. As if I'd let Junior

 

marry Celina," she sneered. "Merle Graham even called me

 

once and suggested that we, as future in-laws, get together

 

and become better acquainted. God, I would have sooner

 

died! She was a telephone operator," she said, laughing

 

scornfully.

 

' 'There was never any chance of Celina Graham becoming

 

my daughter-in-law. I made that quite clear to your grand

 

 

 

 

 

mother and to Junior. He moped and whined over that girl

 

until I wanted to scream.'' She raised her small fists, as though

 

she still might do so. "Why couldn't he see her for what she

 

was--a selfish, manipulative little bitch? And now you."

 

She stepped around the small tea table to confront Alex.

 

Alex was taller, but Sarah Jo had years of cultivated anger

 

to make her strong. Her delicate body was trembling with

 

wrath.

 

"Lately, all he can talk about is you, just like it used to

 

be with Celina."

 

"I have not led Junior on, Mrs. Minton. There could never

 

be a romantic entanglement between us. We could be friends,

 

maybe, once this investigation is resolved."

 

"Don't you see," Sarah Jo cried, "that's exactly how it

 

was with her? She abused his friendship because he was

 

clinging to the vain hope that it would develop into something

 

deeper. All he is to you is a suspect in a murder case. You'll

 

use him, just like your mother did."

 

"That simply isn't true."

 

Sarah Jo swayed, as though about to swoon. "Why did

 

you have to come here?"

 

"I want to know why my mother was murdered."

 

"You're the reason!" she said, pointing a finger straight

 

at Alex's heart. "Celina's illegitimate baby."

 

Alex fell back a step, sucking in a sharp, painful breath.

 

"What did you say?" she gasped.

 

Sarah Jo composed herself. The suffusion of color in her

 

face receded and it returned to its normal porcelain hue.' 'You

 

were illegitimate."

 

"That's a lie," Alex denied breathlessly. "My mother was

 

married to Al Gaither. I've seen the marriage license.

 

Grandma Graham saved it."

 

"They were married, but not until after she came back

 

from El Paso and discovered she was pregnant."

 

"You're a liar!" Alex gripped the back of the chair. "Why

 

are you lying to me?"

 

"It's not a lie. The reason I'm telling you should be clear.

 

 

 

I'm trying to protect my family from your vengeful destruction.

 

Being the richest woman in this horrid, ugly little town

 

is the only thing that makes it tolerable. I like being married

 

to the most influential man in the county. I won't let you

 

destroy everything Angus has created for me. I won't let you

 

cause dissent in my family. Celina did. This time, I won't

 

allow it."

 

"Ladies, ladies." Junior came into the room, laughing

 

indulgently. "What is all the shouting about? See a

 

spider?"

 

His manner changed drastically when he sensed the seething

 

animosity between them. It was sulfuric, as real as the

 

ozone in the air after lightning has struck nearby. "Mother?

 

Alex? What's wrong?"

 

Alex stared at Sarah Jo, whose face was as serene and

 

complacent as a cameo. Alex spun toward the door, sending

 

the small chair toppling over. She rushed from the room and

 

clambered down the stairs.

 

Junior gave his mother a searching look. She turned her

 

back on him and returned to the divan, picked up her teacup,

 

and took a sip.

 

Junior raced down the stairs after Alex and caught up with

 

her at the front door, where she was unsuccessfully trying to

 

work her arms into the sleeves of her coat.

 

He grabbed her upper arms. "What the hell is going on?"

 

Alex averted her head so he wouldn't see her tears. She

 

tried to disengage his hands. "Nothing."

 

"You hardly look like you've been to a tea party."

 

"Tea? Ha!" Alex said, tossing back her head. "She didn't

 

invite me out here to drink tea." She sniffed and batted her

 

eyes in an effort to keep the tears from falling. "I guess I

 

should thank her for telling me."

 

"Telling you what?"

 

"That I was a biological accident." Junior's face went

 

blank with shock. "It's true, then, isn't it?" Junior's hands

 

fell away from her arms and he tried to turn away. Reversing

 

their positions, Alex gripped his arm and forced him back

 

 

 

around. "Isn't it?" Her tears finally overflowed her eyelids.

 

"Say something, Junior!"

 

He looked uncomfortable with admitting the truth. It was

 

Alex who verbally pieced together the scenario.

 

"Celina came back from El Paso. She'd had her fling with

 

a soldier and was ready to reconcile with Reede. They probably

 

would have, too, if it hadn't been for me, right?" She

 

covered her face with her hands. "Oh, God, no wonder he

 

hates me so much."

 

Junior pulled her hands away from her face and looked at

 

her with sincere blue eyes. "Reede doesn't hate you, Alex.

 

None of us did then, or do now."

 

She laughed shortly, bitterly. "I'll bet Albert Gaither hated

 

the very thought of me. He was forced to get married." Her

 

eyes went round, and she spoke in a rapid, short-winded,

 

staccato voice. "This explains so much. So much. Why

 

Grandma Graham was strict about my dating--who I went

 

with, what time I got home, where I'd been.

 

"I resented her for being so inflexible because I'd never

 

given her any reason to mistrust me. I guess her overprotectiveness

 

was justified, wasn't it?" Her voice rose to a near-hysterical

 

pitch. "Her daughter got knocked up, and twenty-five

 

years ago, that was still a definite sin."

 

"Alex, stop this."

 

"That explains why Grandma never really loved me. I

 

ruined Celina's life, and she never forgave me for it. Celina

 

couldn't have Reede, couldn't have you, couldn't have a

 

future. And all because of me. Oh God!"

 

The curse, or prayer, was cried in a wailing voice. Alex

 

turned away from him and yanked the door open. She ran

 

across the porch and down the steps toward her car.

 

"Alex!" He started after her.

 

"What the hell's going on?" Angus demanded as Alex

 

rushed past him toward her car.

 

"Leave her alone, you two." Sarah Jo was standing at the

 

top of the stairs, where she had watched and overheard everything.

 

 

 

Junior spun around. "Mother, how could you? How could

 

you hurt Alex that way?"

 

"I didn't tell her to hurt her."

 

'What'd you tell her?" Angus asked. He filled up the open

 

doorway, baffled and impatient because no one was answering

 

his questions.

 

"Of course it hurt her," Junior said. "You knew it would.

 

Why tell her at all?"

 

'Because she needed to know. The only one who can hurt

 

Alex is Alex herself. She's chasing an illusion. The mother

 

she's looking for didn't exist in Celina Gaither. Merle filled

 

her head with a lot of nonsense about how wonderful Celina

 

was. She forgot to tell the girl how devious her mother was.

 

It was time Alex found out."

 

"Shit!" Angus cursed. "Will somebody please tell me

 

what the hell is going on?"

 

 

 

Twenty-six

 

 

 

Angus quietly closed the bedroom door behind him as he

 

came in. Sarah Jo, propped against the pillows on their bed,

 

laid her book aside and peered at him over the rims of the

 

glasses that were perched on the tip of her nose. "Coming

 

to bed so early?"

 

She looked about as harmful as a butterfly, but Angus knew

 

that her frail appearance camouflaged an iron will. If she ever

 

gave ground it was out of indifference, not defeat. "I want

 

to talk to you."

 

"About what?"

 

"About what happened this afternoon.'

 

 

 

She pressed her fingers to her temples. "It gave me quite

 

a headache. That's why I didn't come down to dinner."

 

"Taken anything?"

 

"Yes. It's better now."

 

They had repeated this same exchange regarding her headaches

 

nearly every day of their marriage.

 

"Don't sit on the bedspread," she scolded as he lowered

 

himself to the edge of the bed. He waited until she had folded

 

back the quilted satin spread, then sat down close to her hip.

 

"My, you look so downcast tonight, Angus," she said with

 

concern.' 'What's the matter? Not more maniacs on our property,

 

I hope."

 

"No."

 

"Thank God the only horse that was injured belonged to

 

Reede."

 

Angus let that pass without comment. Sarah Jo resented

 

Reede, and Angus knew why. Her feelings toward him would

 

never change, so berating her for the uncharitable remark

 

would serve no purpose.

 

What he had come to discuss was a delicate subject. He

 

took a moment to choose his words carefully. "Sarah Jo,

 

about this afternoon--"

 

"I was quite upset by it," she said, drawing her lips into

 

a pretty frown.

 

"You were upset?" Angus forcibly tamped down his impatience.

 

He needed to hear her side of the story before

 

jumping to conclusions. "What about Alex's feelings?"

 

"She was upset, too, naturally. Wouldn't you be if you'd

 

found out you were a bastard?"

 

"No," he said with a gruff, humorless laugh. "Wouldn't

 

surprise me if I was. I never checked to see if my parents

 

had a marriage license, and it wouldn't have mattered to me

 

if they didn't.'' His brows drew together. "But I'm an ornery

 

old cuss, and Alex is a sensitive young woman."

 

"I felt that she was strong enough to take it."

 

"Obviously, she wasn't. She ran past me without even

 

seeing me. She was practically in hysterics when she left."

 

 

 

Sarah Jo's smile crumpled. "Are you blaming me for telling

 

her? Do you think it was wrong?"

 

When she looked up at him with that apprehensive, little-lost-girl

 

look, his heart melted. It always had. Angus took

 

her hand. He could have crushed it like a flower between his

 

rough palms, but he had learned over the years not to exert

 

too much pressure when he caressed her.

 

"I'm not blaming you for telling her, honey. I'm just

 

questioning the wisdom of it. I wish you had discussed it

 

with Junior and me before you did. It was something she

 

could have gone throughout her life not knowing."

 

"I disagree," Sarah Jo argued petulantly.

 

' 'What difference does it make now if her mama and daddy

 

weren't married until after she was in the oven? Hell, that's

 

so commonplace now it's not even considered a sin anymore."

 

"It makes a difference in the way she views Celina. Up

 

until now, she's had her on a pedestal."

 

"So what?"

 

"Celina hardly deserves a pedestal," Sarah Jo snapped.

 

"I thought it was time everybody stopped *footing

 

around with Alex and set her straight about her mother."

 

"Why?"

 

"Why? Because she's trying to ruin us, that's why. I decided

 

to stop catering to her and to fight back. I used the only

 

ammunition I had." As usual, during scenes like this, Sarah

 

Jo became overwrought. "I was only trying to protect you

 

and Junior."

 

Actually, Angus thought, it had taken a tremendous amount

 

of courage for Sarah Jo to confront a self-assured woman like

 

Alex. He still thought Sarah Jo could have refrained from

 

telling Alex about her folks, but her motive had been unselfish.

 

She'd been protecting her family. Her valiant effort

 

deserved better than his criticism. He leaned down and kissed

 

her forehead.

 

"I appreciate your fighting spirit, but none of us needs

 

your protection, honey." He laughed at the thought. "How

 

 

 

could a little thing like you protect one of us big, strapping

 

boys? I've got plenty of money and plenty of know-how to

 

handle any little problem that crops up. A redhead that only

 

stands five feet six inches tall is hardly worth a second's

 

worry."

 

"If you could resurrect that odious Pasty Hickam, I'm sure

 

he would disagree," she said. "Look what happened to him.

 

Unlike you and Junior, and obviously, every other man, I'm

 

immune to the girl's charms." Her voice developed an edge

 

of desperation. "Angus, can't you see it? Junior is falling in

 

love with her."

 

"I fail to see why that's so god-awful," he said with a

 

beaming smile.

 

"It would be a disaster," Sarah Jo cried softly. "Her

 

mother broke his heart. Don't you care about that?"

 

Frowning, Angus reminded her, "That was a long time

 

ago. And Alex isn't like her mother."

 

"I'm not so sure." Sarah Jo stared into space.

 

"Alex isn't fickle and flighty like Celina was," he said.

 

"She's a tad too bossy, but maybe Junior needs that. He

 

walked all over his other wives, and they laid down and let

 

him do it. Maybe he needs a wife who'll tell him what's

 

what."

 

"Where is he, by the way? Is he still angry with me?"

 

she asked anxiously.

 

"He was upset, but he'll get over it, like he always does.

 

He said he was going out to get drunk."

 

They laughed together. Sarah Jo was the first to turn serious

 

again. "I hope he'll drive safely."

 

"He, uh, will probably be spending the night out."

 

"Oh?"

 

"Wouldn't surprise me," Angus said. "Alex needs some

 

time to sort herself out. Junior might be carrying a torch, but

 

he's not dead from the waist down. He'll find a woman who'll

 

give him the comfort he needs tonight."

 

His gaze lowered to his wife's decolletage, which was

 

smooth and luminescent with the body powder she had used

 

 

 

after her bath. "He's got a man's appetites, just like his

 

daddy."

 

"Oh, Angus," she sighed wearily, as his hand waded

 

through layers of lace in search of her breast.

 

"I could use some comforting myself."

 

"You men! Is that all you ever think about? You make

 

me--"

 

"You make me horny."

 

"Don't use that kind of language. It's crude. And I don't

 

want to do this tonight. My headache's coming back."

 

His kiss cut off any further objections. She submitted, as

 

he knew she would. She always put up token resistance,

 

but she never refused him. From the cradle, she had been

 

coached to accept her marital duties, just as she had to properly

 

serve tea.

 

That she responded to him out of a sense of obligation

 

rather than passion didn't stop him from wanting her; it might

 

even have enhanced his desire. Angus enjoyed a challenge.

 

He undressed quickly and lowered himself on top of her.

 

He fumbled with the buttons on her gown and finally managed,

 

with no assistance from her, to get it open. Her breasts

 

were as pert and shapely as they had been on their wedding

 

night, when he had first beheld and touched them.

 

He kissed them now with polite restraint. Her nipples were

 

small. His stroking tongue was rarely successful in coaxing

 

them erect. He doubted she knew they were supposed to get

 

erect, unless some of those novels she read were more sexually

 

explicit than he suspected.

 

She winced slightly when he entered her. He pretended not

 

to see her grimace. He tried not to sweat or make a sound

 

or do anything that she would consider nasty and unpleasant.

 

He saved all his raunchiness for the widow lady he supported

 

in the neighboring county. She didn't mind his crude

 

language. In fact, she hooted with laughter over some of his

 

more colorful expressions.

 

She was as lusty a lover as he. She had large, dark, milky-tasting

 

nipples that she would let him diddle with for hours