EPILOGUE
I WAS STANDING AT the bow, the wind whipping my hair and what might have been sea spray wetting my face.
Banished! I thought. Banished again!
Was I doomed, like the Flying Dutchman, to spend all eternity sailing the seas in search of salvation?
I had asked that question of Mrs. Bannerman—in somewhat simpler form—last night in the ship’s lounge.
“Good heavens!” she had said. “You’ve passed with flying colors. Don’t you realize that?”
“I’m an FF,” I said. “Failed to Flourish. Sent home in disgrace like Charlotte Veneering.”
“On the contrary.” She laughed. “Your photograph will be hung in the gallery, like your mother’s. You will become part of the legend.”
“But the rules,” I said. “What about the broken rules? Miss Fawlthorne told me that reputation is paramount.”
“Ah, yes,” she had said, this once-convicted murderess, staring thoughtfully into her pink martini and giving it a stir, “but she also probably mentioned that there are things which, even though they be wrong, are best kept quiet for the greater good.”
I had to admit she had a point there.
“I’m sorry you had to be arrested,” I said. “I’d have spoken up sooner—”
“Shush!” she said. “Not a word of it. I told you I helped the police with their inquiries from time to time. Ambiguous, I know, but I mustn’t say more. If you want to feel sorry for someone, feel sorry for poor little Collingwood. It was she who helped Francesca make her costume, and of course she recognized the red sock. I’m assured that she’ll recover in time, but a couple of little prayers will do no harm.”
And with that she bowed her head and so did I.
I keenly regret that I was unable to use either the spectrophotometer or the electron microscope in solving the case: that in the end it had been the plain old everyday Marsh test that had done the job.
Perhaps there was a lesson there.
There had been no good-byes at Miss Bodycote’s. No little parties, no little gifts. I was there and then I was gone. To the other girls, I would be just one more of those who had vanished. My name would be added to those of Wentworth, Le Marchand, and Brazenose.
My spirit would be summoned in darkened rooms by Ouija boards, and used to frighten little girls who were away from home for the first time.
I smiled at the thought and lifted my head to the breeze.
An unexpected wave dashed cold water into my face, but I didn’t care.
Somewhere ahead of us, to the east, lay England. Somewhere, still over the horizon, lay Buckshaw.
To Shirley, with love and gratitude
ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
WHENEVER I BUY A book, I usually flip first to the back pages to read the names of those who helped. Contrary to popular belief, no book is written in isolation, and this one is no exception.
My editors, Bill Massey at Orion Books in London, Kate Miciak at Delacorte Books in New York, and Kristin Cochrane at Doubleday Canada, have been the supports that hold up this bridge of words.
My agent, Denise Bukowski, is always there: my literary guardian angel.
Brad Gossen and Russell Eugene “Bud” Gossen have patiently answered my questions about policing Toronto in the 1950s, and Carol Fraser has loaned documents and precious family treasures to help get some of the historical details straight.
Again, Robert Bruce Thompson, whose Illustrated Guide to Home Chemistry Experiments has taught hundreds to do forensics tests without even having to leave the house, has saved me from the pitfalls of poisons, as well as providing a number of excellent suggestions.
Special thanks to Maija Paavilainen, editor in chief of Bazar Kustannus Oy in Helsinki, for inviting me to visit that beautiful city, and to Vilja Perttola for getting me everywhere on time in spite of a hectic schedule.
And finally, as always, to my wife, Shirley, whose love makes it all worthwhile.
Isle of Man, June 28, 2014