To be alone, which Madoc hated.
“Let’s go.” The bite in his voice was sharp, and I knew he wouldn’t take no for an answer. “Now.”
I looked at him again, confusion, aggravation, and frustration probably all evident on my face. “Where?”
He jerked his head behind him. “My house. We threw a party together. Fallon said she texted you an hour ago.”
“No.” I shook my head, knowing exactly whom I’d see there. “No party.”
He halted, pushing his suit jacket open and planting his hands on his hips.
“What are you wearing?” I asked, taking in the black suit pants and jacket and the light blue shirt with the royal blue tie. His clothes and hair were sleek and stylish, and I could never get over how he wound up with someone as alternative as Fallon.
He straightened, suddenly looking affronted. Running a hand down his front, he tipped his chin down at me. “Hot or not?” he asked, turning playful as he referred to his clothes. “I had to go in for my internship for a few hours this morning.”
I turned my eyes back out to the track, deciding not to encourage him.
“Let’s go.” His strong voice nagged again, getting back on topic.
I heaved out a sigh and hopped off the hood. “Knock it off. I don’t need you interfering.”
I went to open my door, but Madoc flattened his palm against the window, stopping me.
“You’re going to run into him a lot in your life,” he pressed. “Reunions, friends’ weddings, and what about when Fallon and I have kids? Or Jax and Juliet?”
My heart pumped wildly as I realized Madoc was right. I’d be running into Jared a lot over the years.
Shit.
Madoc grabbed my shoulders, forcing me to face him. “Get this through your head, okay?” He spoke to me like my father. “You are as important to us as he is. You’re not pulling away again. We’re not letting you go.”
Like a petulant child, I shot my eyes up at him. I hated his persistence.
Although I kind of liked it, too.
He never let me go. Juliet and Fallon were going to be with these guys forever and have children with them. And they’d no doubt settle here.
And they were all my friends as much as Jared’s.
I dug my keys out of my pocket. “Fine, but I’ll drive my own car.”
***
“Hey,” Fallon greeted me, pulling me in for a kiss on the cheek. Unusually chipper, so I guessed she was probably tipsy, although she seemed otherwise alert.
She wore one of her old gray T-shirts—cut, ripped, and tied—turned into a sexy, nearly backless tank top. Her cutoff jean shorts were already making Madoc drool as he came up behind her, groping her ass and burying his face in her neck.
“Get a drink,” she ordered, smiling as Madoc wrapped a possessive arm around her waist. And then she pinned me with her laser green stare. “And relax, okay?”
I spotted Ben outside by the pool, so I left my friends to it and trailed out to meet him.
Madoc and Fallon liked having people around, and Madoc especially loved his parties. It wasn’t because he wanted to drink or act out. It was because he loved community. He loved his friends, and he liked good times and good conversation. I had absolutely no doubt that Madoc would end up mayor of Shelburne Falls one day, because that’s how much he loved his family. And this town was his family.
And the idea of Fallon in a blue—or red—tailored dress with an American flag pinned to her was pretty funny, bless her heart.
I stepped through the sliding glass doors, hearing “She’s Crafty” by the Beastie Boys fill the late afternoon air, and it made me smile finally. It wasn’t as crowded as many of Madoc’s parties, but there were a good thirty people out here. Most of them dressed in swim shorts and bikinis, while I still wore my jeans and shirt from the Loop.
Walking up to Ben, I put my hand on his bare back, but before he even had a chance to turn around, I felt that familiar awareness that always made the hair on my arms stand up when Jared was around.
Ben turned and flashed me a wide smile, but as he leaned in to kiss my cheek, I glanced over his shoulder, unable to not look.
But Jared wasn’t here. I flitted my eyes around, scanning the party, but I didn’t see him anywhere.
It was some weird sixth sense I had, and although it couldn’t be explained, I always knew when he was close. Could’ve been the way my neck heated up or my skin vibrated under the surface, or maybe it was just because I expected him to be there, but as soon as I felt him, that’s all I was aware of.
Couples caroused and swimmers splashed around, but as I continued to look around, I didn’t find him.
He had to be here, though. His assistant, Pasha, was pouring a beer from the keg. I had spotted her purple hair.
“Are you okay?” Ben pulled back, one hand holding my waist and the other holding a plate of food.
“Yeah,” I rasped, reeling myself back in. “I’m good. I just . . .” I sucked in a slow breath, trying to shake off my nerves as I pointed my thumb behind me. “I’m just going to run down to the storage and get Madoc some more bottles that he asked for, okay? I’ll be right back.”
Giving Ben a quick peck on the cheek, I turned around and speed walked for the house before he saw the lie in my eyes.
Of course, Madoc hadn’t asked for more liquor from his dad’s storage, but I needed a minute away. Veering around the few people in the kitchen and the island of food, I swung the basement door open and jogged down the stairs.
The basement was empty, as early in the party everyone usually socialized together before the women allowed their boyfriends—and husbands—to disappear down to Madoc’s game room. The pool table, the skate ramp, and the leather couches all sat unused as I steered myself down the hallway and into the finished bathroom across from the storage room.