Until the Beginning

“Juneau—” I begin.

 

She interrupts me. “I was wrong to do it like that the last time—without your consent. My manipulating you—”

 

“Drugging me,” I interject.

 

“Yes—drugging you—made it a traumatic experience instead of something that can be beautifully mystical. That was totally my fault.”

 

“Well, thank you for the belated apology,” I say with a smile. “But I already forgave you.”

 

“I know.” She stares at the fire.

 

“But that doesn’t mean I want to do it again.”

 

“I know,” she repeats, pushing her foot over to rest against mine.

 

We sit in silence. The only sound is the rippling of nearby water and some very loud bugs chirping away in the dark.

 

“Juneau,” I say finally.

 

“Yes?”

 

“Want to show me how to put bullets in my new rabbit killer?”

 

Juneau laughs, and the heaviness lifts. “They’re called bolts,” she says. “And I think we can come up with a better name for your crossbow than that.”

 

“What? Not Rabbit Killer?”

 

“Lame,” Juneau says, grabbing her backpack and unzipping the top.

 

“Bunny Slayer?” I offer.

 

“Lamer,” she replies, hiding her grin as she pulls out a handful of sharp wooden pegs.

 

“Well, what’s yours called?” I ask, taking a bolt from her and rolling it around in my fingers.

 

“My last one was Windspeed. I’m not sure about this one, but I was thinking maybe Ravenflight.” She looks at me, gauging my reaction.

 

“You’re naming your crossbow after Poe?” I’m incredulous.

 

“What’s wrong with that?” she asks defensively.

 

“Well, ‘deadly’ isn’t exactly the word that comes to mind when I think of that bird. ‘Bumbling,’ maybe. ‘Annoying,’ definitely.”

 

Juneau’s jaw drops in feigned shock. “How dare you?” she says. “Poe is my noble messenger. My faithful companion. Besides, I think you’re jealous of him.”

 

“How faithful can he be if he’s off playing house-raven with that mountain woman?” I ignore the jealous jab.

 

“Poe is noble,” she insists. “And Ravenflight it is.”

 

“Just to spite me,” I challenge.

 

“Yes.”

 

“Fine. If we’re using avian nomenclature, I’m calling mine the Hoot of Hedwig.”

 

Juneau is baffled. “What in the world is that supposed to mean?”

 

“It’s a reference that pretty much everyone would recognize.”

 

“Besides me,” Juneau says slowly.

 

“Exactly,” I respond. “Annoying, isn’t it?”

 

“Not in the least,” she says, lifting her chin and glancing off into the night with an air of supreme disinterest. She sighs and, taking a bolt, fits it into a groove on the top of my crossbow.

 

“Literary reference?” she asks, still concentrating on the weapon.

 

“Oh, wouldn’t you love to know . . . crow lover,” I reply.

 

She bursts out laughing. And the look of pure happiness in her eyes makes everything that has happened, and everything that we are still facing, unquestionably worth it.

 

 

 

 

 

15

 

 

JUNEAU

 

 

ALTHOUGH MILES SAYS HE’S AFRAID HE WON’T BE able to sleep, he starts nodding off right after a short but successful round of target practice. I send him to the tent, but remain by the fire so I can Read it as it burns itself out.

 

This time, I go through my entire list of names. Everyone of interest. When I Read for Dad, I see inside the same adobe hut, where he lies on a cot staring at the ceiling, a candle flickering on the floor next to his palette.

 

It is dark in Tallie’s cabin, the windows softly illuminated by the glow of moonlight.

 

Miles’s dad is sitting in front of a computer screen in his office at the top of the Blackwell building. The lights of L.A. twinkle through the glass walls surrounding him.

 

Whit is out of the hospital. There’s a thick white bandage around his head. He’s sitting, writing, at a desk in what looks like a hotel room. On his way to hunt me down, I think. But if he plans on sleeping tonight then, by Gaia, so will I. We both know where I’m heading. Now it’s just a question of avoiding him while I figure out how to free my clan. A faceoff is inevitable. I just want to delay it for as long as possible.

 

I check in with my friend Nome and see her sitting outside under the stars, talking to Kenai. “I’m coming,” I whisper, and wish they could hear me. I could see them as early as tomorrow, if Miles and I get lucky. My heart is sore with missing them—the pain is even more acute now that they’re within reach.

 

I look away from the dying flames and feel suddenly and completely overwhelmed. As if in allowing one small hole for my loneliness to trickle through, I’ve knocked down a dam and my feelings are flooding out. I don’t let myself cry, though. I’m afraid that if I start, I won’t be able to stop.

 

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