The Dress - By Sophie Nicholls
Prologue
It all began with a dress.
‘As so many things do, tesora,’ I can hear Mamma saying now in her rich, slow voice, stirring sugar into her cup. ‘As so many things do…’
It was a simple dress, a slip of oyster-coloured silk, made to fall over the body like a sigh of pleasure. On the morning that it appeared in the window of our shop on Grape Lane, I stood in my bedroom window, watching the women stopping to admire it in the street outside, some of them setting down their bags of groceries, folding their arms over their bosoms, cocking their heads to one side, imagining themselves into the swish of its silk, which Mamma had accessorised with a single strand of pearls, looped over the mannequin’s fingers.
The story that I’m about to tell you is not so simple. It has complicated seams and concealed fastenings. It has deep pockets and interfacings that won’t sit quite true. I’ll shape it for you here, as Mamma taught me to do, rolling the hem between my fingers, teasing the stray threads with the lightest touch I can manage.
You’ll have to forgive me if at times I’m clumsier than I ought to be. Mamma didn’t believe in following a pattern. She taught me to trust the fabric itself, letting the texture and colour of it find its own form on the cutting table. If I asked her what to do next, she’d smile and tell me to close my eyes while she brushed the edge of a half-made sleeve or the fold of a skirt across my cheek.
‘What do you feel, carina?’ she’d say, ‘What do you feel, deep inside you? What does this fabric already know? What does it want to be?’
I wish I had the family gift, the gift of Mamma and Madaar-Bozorg and their mothers and grandmothers before them. Back in The Old Country, they used to say that the Jobrani women could divine a dress from the fragrance of the wind or the memory of the sun on the sea.
Mamma lives in America now, her America, the New Country of possibility that she always longed for. Without her, I’m learning to be my own diviner but I don’t have her knack. I’ll piece this together for you as best I can from everything that I remember, the things I’ve guessed at and the things that, no doubt, I’ve added in myself as I’ve told and retold this story over the years.
Some of it’s difficult to work with. It slips through my fingers like fine jersey or rucks up under my needle like brocade. But some of it, when I smooth it on my lap, is as light and easy as gingham, with straight lines that my thread can follow as I attach one story to another, one word to another. And that’s how I’ll make this beginning.
Now that I’m so much older and a mother myself, I can see that what I’m making here – my story, the story of Mamma and me - is a story that belongs to all of us, if it belongs to anyone.
You only need to stop for a moment, lift your arms over your head – there, that’s right, just like that – and allow the rustle of it, the soft gatherings of it, to settle over your body, just so.
And now it’s your story, yours to make and remake again, in your way, until it’s perfect.
The Dress
Sophie Nicholls's books
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- Alone The Girl in the Box
- Asgoleth the Warrior
- Awakening the Fire
- Between the Lives
- Black Feathers
- Bless The Beauty
- By the Sword
- In the Arms of Stone Angels
- Knights The Eye of Divinity
- Knights The Hand of Tharnin
- Knights The Heart of Shadows
- Mind the Gap
- Omega The Girl in the Box
- On the Edge of Humanity
- The Alchemist in the Shadows
- Possessing the Grimstone
- The Steel Remains
- The 13th Horseman
- The Age Atomic
- The Alchemaster's Apprentice
- The Alchemy of Stone
- The Ambassador's Mission
- The Anvil of the World
- The Apothecary
- The Art of Seducing a Naked Werewolf
- The Bible Repairman and Other Stories
- The Black Lung Captain
- The Black Prism
- The Blue Door
- The Bone House
- The Book of Doom
- The Breaking
- The Cadet of Tildor
- The Cavalier
- The Circle (Hammer)
- The Claws of Evil
- The Concrete Grove
- The Conduit The Gryphon Series
- The Cry of the Icemark
- The Dark
- The Dark Rider
- The Dark Thorn
- The Dead of Winter
- The Devil's Kiss
- The Devil's Looking-Glass
- The Devil's Pay (Dogs of War)
- The Door to Lost Pages
- The Emperor of All Things
- The Emperors Knife
- The End of the World
- The Eternal War
- The Executioness
- The Exiled Blade (The Assassini)
- The Fate of the Dwarves
- The Fate of the Muse
- The Frozen Moon
- The Garden of Stones
- The Gate Thief
- The Gates
- The Ghoul Next Door
- The Gilded Age
- The Godling Chronicles The Shadow of God
- The Guest & The Change
- The Guidance
- The High-Wizard's Hunt
- The Holders
- The Honey Witch
- The House of Yeel
- The Lies of Locke Lamora
- The Living Curse
- The Living End
- The Magic Shop
- The Magicians of Night
- The Magnolia League
- The Marenon Chronicles Collection
- The Marquis (The 13th Floor)
- The Mermaid's Mirror
- The Merman and the Moon Forgotten
- The Original Sin
- The Pearl of the Soul of the World
- The People's Will
- The Prophecy (The Guardians)
- The Reaping
- The Rebel Prince
- The Reunited
- The Rithmatist
- The_River_Kings_Road
- The Rush (The Siren Series)
- The Savage Blue
- The Scar-Crow Men
- The Science of Discworld IV Judgement Da
- The Scourge (A.G. Henley)
- The Sentinel Mage
- The Serpent in the Stone
- The Serpent Sea
- The Shadow Cats
- The Slither Sisters
- The Song of Andiene
- The Steele Wolf