Joe Vampire

POST 11

Once Bitten, Twice Shy-Gay



I had to put the shakedown on Michelle to get Don’s address. She was reluctant to give it up, thinking I wanted to beat the crap out of him for the bite. As if I have any crap-beating tendencies. Or abilities. I told her I needed to find out his medical history – not a lie – and knowing how sick I’d been, she understood. I said nothing about thinking he might actually be a vampire, or that I might be one now, too.

That fun little secret was best kept between me and my commode.

I showed up unannounced at his loft, which happened to be a few blocks away from Pomme. I thought I’d be afraid to face the guy who’d done me such undeniably bizarre harm, and to find out what I was really in for. But I was more angry than scared when I hit the buzzer. It took a few minutes before he finally emerged from the entryway, bleary and blinking like it had been a rough night for him. A rough couple of weeks, even.

You and me both, buddy, I thought.

He looked like a gaunt, shirtless Bret Michaels with about ten years extra mileage. All guy-linered and tattooed, with shaggy blond extensions falling out from under a straw ten-gallon hat, ridiculously decorated with feathered clips hanging from the band. I had the feeling that somewhere in Haight Ashbury there was a half-stoned scarecrow with a cold head, missing his lid and wondering how he was going to finish off his roaches. Most notable about Don: he wasn’t pale like I was. He wasn’t even semi-flesh toned; he was completely tanned… just like Bret Michaels. That had to be fake. Maybe feeding on people blood rather than sirloin blood gives a vampire a healthy Bain de Soleil glow. Or maybe this whole thing was a product of my overactive imagination. Then he smiled and a little pair of fangs shone in the sun.

Not my imagination. Damn.

“You look like shit, man,” he said, all gravelly and wheezy. I wrote it off to chain smoking and Jack Daniels, both which he must have started consuming at the age of six.

I hoped it wouldn’t turn out to be a coming feature of being a vampire.

“Yeah, well I feel like shit, and I’m pretty sure you know why.”

“Hey – not my fault if the stuff I sold you was bad. I have no control over my suppliers. They provide; I sell. No refunds, no returns.” So not just a vampire, a drug-dealing vampire.

Beautiful.

“Not drugs, dirtbag. I’m the one you bit a few weeks back… remember?” I stretched out my neck to remind him.

“Oh… it’s you, bro. I thought you looked familiar.”

Now I just felt cheap. “Thanks. Nice to know I blend in with all the other guys you’ve chewed on.”

“Actually, you were my first.”

As seasoned as he looked, that just couldn’t be right. “Your first what – first bite, or first group date that ended in neck sex?”

“My first change.” There it was. Vampire vernacular.

Crap.

I tried playing it off, like I didn’t know what he was talking about. “Change? What change?”

He looked me up and down, and I felt the Nurse Giggly discomfort return. “Oh, you’ve changed, bro… you weren’t that gray when I bit you, or that skinny.” He looked down into my eyes. “Or that short.” People I’ve known for almost a decade couldn’t tell, but some wanker I met once in a bar saw the differences right away. It made sense, since he'd probably gone through the same thing. But I couldn’t even muster a reaction. “So was it as nasty for you as it was for me? Did you shit your a*shole inside out, with a fever and chills you couldn’t get rid of?” Yes, and yes. “Climbing the walls from outside your own body?” Sadly, yes. “How long did it take?” I told him: nine days. “Wow… only nine? My change took two and a half weeks. Reminded me of when I made the switch from crystal to crack… you know how that is, bro.”

No. I don’t know how that is. “Forgive my ignorance. I’ve never had an addiction to transfer from one drug to another.”

“Good… good for you. Stay away from that shit; it’s all poison. ” His odd concern surprised me, even though it was focused on entirely the wrong things.

“Holy shit,” I muttered. “I was attacked by a gay, drug-dealing, style-challenged vampire.”

“Hold up, bro. Back up the truck. I’m not gay.”

“But you bit my neck – me, a guy – when we were in a sushi bar on a group date with a bunch of hot women. And Michelle distinctly said she was setting me up with you not a girl named Dawn, like I thought she was. She couldn’t have thought you were exactly straight.”

Don scratched his scruff. “It's probably my shirts. Anyway, I tried with the girls but they all said no.” I didn’t realize volunteerism was a requirement for a vampire bite. “Michelle said you didn’t seem to be into women, so you were probably gay.”

“I’m not gay – I’m just shy!”

“Yeah; she said you were shy-gay.” Again with this?

“Why couldn’t you just do the women anyway? Why me?” That was not like me, wishing my own victimization onto someone else. But I was a little done in by what I was hearing.

He looked at me like I’d broken his bong. “That would be rape, dude… I’m not a rapist.” At least he had some kind of morals. Or one moral, anyway. “You kept humping my leg, so I just figured you were into it. And when I brought up the idea, you said yes. You also kept running your hand over my chest and sighing, real disappointed-like.”

A small slice of memory came back when he said it. “That’s because I thought you were a chick with really flat tits!” I actually had brought this on myself.

Shit.

“Ah… the new vampire’s a breast man. Sweet. You’ve never had sake before, have you? It packs a punch like that sometimes.” Don was the last person I was going to heed chemical advice from. I think he could see this wasn’t sitting well with me, probably by the way I was heaving and slumped against the wall. And I may have been rocking a little bit. “If it helps, if you’d have said no I wouldn’t have bitten you either, bro. And it didn’t go any further than the bite – hand to God.”

“Oh, well… thanks a lot for your restraint.” Small relief, I guess. By then I’d sort of lost my train of thought, but there were still a thousand more blanks to be filled in. Questions slowly arose. “So how many people have you bitten?”

“Memory’s not my strong suit.”

No. It probably isn’t. “Take a guess.”

“To feed? About sixty, I’d say. Maybe more.”

Mother of Hell – more than sixty? “And you killed all of them?”

“No way, bro! I don’t kill any of them. I just take what I need and leave them be. It’s a deal I make with them: a little nip in exchange for a dime of whatever they might be interested in. They get jacked first, and I feed off of them to get the blood and the high. Double whammy.”

It just kept getting worse.

“And who are these people?”

“Mostly hobos from the mattress factory – I mean, Pomme – before they all made tracks.” And I thought eating raw beef was unsanitary. “I’ve never bitten anyone else to change them, though. You’re it. Didn’t even know if I’d have it in me, but it looks like I’ve got the touch, eh?”

I couldn’t believe how cavalier he was. “Are you proud of making me into this, Don? Really – are you? You’ve turned a perfectly clean stranger into some undead blood-eating monster. Is that okay with you?”

“Dude, do you think I wanted to be this way? I didn’t ask for this; I was taken, just like you.” Taken. It sounded so victimizing, so hostile.

So Criminal Minds.

I had the stomach-churning impression that I might be gazing into my own future when I looked at Don. “How long have you been like this?”

“Just about two years. I didn’t always sell skag to the homeless, either, but after a while the night-crawling takes a toll… gotta do something to pay the bills and feed the hunger.”

Change. Feed. Hunger.

The vocabulary of my new life.

I was sort of desperate to know more about it. “Listen, I really need you to tell me what happens from here. What else is coming for me with this whole vampire deal?”

“It ain’t like those beautiful kids in the Nightfall films, bro… not by a longshot.” And he told me, in terms more lucid than I would have thought someone who was probably on several illegal substances could manage. He told me about the hunger and the feeding, and how the urge to change someone else into a vampire just came upon him one day, so he thought he’d give it a go. He told me about the guilt and the fear that never go away, taunting reminders of how human he once was. He told me about the loneliness and isolation of gradually becoming more creature than man until you hardly recognize your own impulses. And he told me how much it sucked having no one around to understand what you go through every day. “This wasn’t something I chose for myself, but I’m going with it now, making the most of it. Playing the cards I was dealt.”

In other words, he was settling for This.

And shoving it on other people.

I was numb by the time he was finished, and I think he knew he’d overwhelmed me. We just shook hands, and he told me if I ever needed to talk it through I knew where to find him. I walked away feeling more pity for him than I probably should have, knowing that I was in the same boat and rowing right beside him toward the falls. I’d hate to have people pitying me for this, and I surely wasn’t going to pity myself. As bad as I felt for Don, I’d be damned if I was going to let his badly planned reaction to his own life-ruining experience determine my path.

I was too shell-shocked at that moment to understand that it already had.