Immortally Embraced

chapter nine




“Ohmigod, ohmigod, ohmigod,” I chanted to myself, trying desperately to open an escape tunnel. The canvas bottom was stretched taut over the hard-packed ground. I couldn’t even force a finger under, much less my entire body.

Maybe I should start digging. I made a quick, frantic visual search for anything I could use as a shovel. It was too dark. Damn it. Besides, all he had was a bed and a desk. Pictures.

The pounding stopped. “You have a girl in there, Belanger?”

He winced as he flipped on the lights. “Yes.”

I about fell over sideways. Marc had outed us!

His cool gaze caught my wide-eyed stare. He’d still kept a hand braced against the door, but at that point, he might as well have swung it open wide.

I was new to this whole pseudo-spy business, but I was pretty sure giving up one’s partner was a big no-no.

The man outside chuckled. “She has a pretty voice.”

And what did that guy outside have? Super hearing?

It wasn’t exactly rare in the supernatural community.

Hell.

I scrambled to my feet. Marc had admitted I was here. Mister Mouse Ears out there had heard me. I didn’t know what to do. The primitive, panicked side of me still wanted to hide.

“She smells nice, too,” Marc’s superior officer commented.

“He can smell me?” I hissed.

Marc placed a finger to his lips. “So now you know,” he said to the man outside.

He motioned for me to come up and stand next to him. I did, because, frankly, I had nothing else to lose.

“I’ll be damned”—the voice lightened—“that’s the first girl you’ve had in what? Ten years? How long you been here anyway?”

My breath caught as Marc slid an arm around me.

He hadn’t wanted to be with anyone else in all that time?

I took in my silent, sexy ex. A small, angry part of me was glad he’d suffered. He’d brought this down on us. He’d chosen to cut me out of his life.

Now it seemed like he’d been just as paralyzed by it as I had. I wasn’t sure what to do with that.

He moved the window shade aside just enough for a fat-nosed, red-faced man outside to see me.

The stranger chuckled and gave us the thumbs-up.

I forced myself to raise a hand and wave. I was both sad and weak with relief. If they were going to be sexist pigs, at least it worked in my favor.

Marc dropped the shade closed as we watched the officer’s retreating form.

“Come on,” he said, “let’s get you away from the window.”

As we stepped back, I almost tripped over a book on the floor. “You were still reading?” I wished he’d tried to sleep. I didn’t know how long I was out, but my head had cleared and I felt better for it.

“I got distracted,” he said, blocking me as I reached down for the blue binder-style book. This wasn’t the thriller he’d picked up before. If I wasn’t mistaken, it was something I’d made for him.

I ran my fingers along the worn cover.

It was.

He cursed under his breath. “I haven’t gotten that out in a long time,” he said as I carried it to the bed.

“Why now?” I asked, sitting down.

“Because I’m an idiot.”

It was missing the photo I’d glued to the front, but I would have recognized it anywhere. I’d made this for him on our second anniversary.

It was a hellish year. I was in my third year of residency and he was in his doctoral fellowship. We didn’t have time to see each other as much. So I’d put together a memory book of ticket stubs, greeting cards, the stupid poem he’d written me on a Sam & Ace’s bar napkin.

I intended to find that epic bar napkin, but instead opened the book on a torn notebook page he’d left on my door.

Roses are red

Violets are blue

Don’t freak out

I’m in your bed

P.S. I have chocolate sauce.

I broke out in a smile. “You’re right. You are an idiot.”

“You think that’s bad.” The bed dipped as he sat down next to me. He flipped a few more pages. They were soft-edged and worn.

I knew it as soon as I saw it. “The bounce house!” I’d forgotten we had a picture. Well, it wasn’t of us. It was of the goofy, multicolored blow-up contraption with eighteen kids running around it. But still …

We were at my cousin’s fifth birthday party and my aunt had rented it. The kids had jumped and ricocheted off the walls like Tasmanian devils and then run off somewhere—probably for cake and ice cream.

Marc and I bounced until we were dizzy and then hung out on the air-mattress bottom and talked about the future—how we wanted a house in the Garden District, four kids, and a black Lab who would eat his mother’s broccoli casserole.

When the kids wanted their place back, we’d snuck off and made love in a field with flowers and a small stream. It was a gorgeous fall day with a slight breeze.

My heart clenched.

Despite my better judgment, I looked up at him. His face mirrored what I felt, bittersweet longing and regret.

I swallowed hard. “I thought you were trying to forget,” I said.

He gazed at me for a long moment. “I am.”

Then he lowered his mouth for a sweet, sensuous kiss that reminded me of grass fields and wildflowers and all of the things I’d tried so desperately to leave behind.

My body heated. I wasn’t sure if it was from anticipation or stark white fear. Probably a bit of both. “It’s too soon,” I murmured, my breath mingling with his.

“No, it’s not.” His lips brushed mine. He looked down at me, so tender. “I know you just lost somebody.” His fingers caressed the nape of my neck. “I don’t care if you use me for a while.”

“I do.”

His teeth grazed my earlobe. He found the small, sensitive hollow of my back that only he knew about. “Just let me love you.”

I could barely put a thought together as he drew me to him for a mind-numbingly erotic kiss. It was sweet and heady and sensual all at the same time. I savored it. Him. I rubbed against him, needing to be closer, needing to feel him one last time.

After this, I could leave. Even if I could never see him again, I’d know he was here.

God. It was so unfair.

There was no mercy in this war. No second chances.

But we could be together now. It would have to be enough.

He consumed me like a man starved. I had to get closer, craved him like air. Marc ran his tongue down my neck as I straddled him. He hissed as I rubbed my core flush against his hardness.

God, I remembered this.

I wrapped my legs around his waist and we both watched me caress his cock. He let out a hiss as I snaked up and down over the quaking, straining length of him. If we’d been naked, it would have been so easy to slip him inside of me.

How many times had I ridden this man? Felt him stretch me tight as I worked him over and over again.

He rolled me over onto my back, stripping off my scrub top. He feasted on my breasts, laving and sucking them until I was half out of my mind.

His body rubbed against mine, tight and hungry.

I shoved my hands under his flak jacket and over the muscles flexing on his back. This was stupid. I swore I wouldn’t do this again.

“I want you naked,” he gasped, “now.”

“Marc,” I groaned as his warm exhale brushed my ultra-sensitive nipple.

He had to stop doing that.

“Don’t think,” he said. His short blond hair prickled against my skin. “Just be with me.”

He made it sound so simple.

This war was horrific. It beat us and bled us and made us question our very humanity.

It kept us from the people we loved.

I could take that. I could live with it. I couldn’t live through this again.

He slammed his eyes closed. “Let it be beautiful,” he whispered as he panted against me, scarred, hurt, and breathtaking.

He forced his eyes open, and the raw pain I saw was both startling and humbling.

But he’d known about me for weeks. He’d had time to think about this. I drew myself up on my elbows. I understood on a gut level that this could never, this would never work. My voice was unsteady, but my words were certain. “We can’t see each other again. Not after tonight.”

He nodded, caressing my cheek. “Then let’s have tonight.”

His mouth crashed down on mine and I knew without a doubt I wanted him. I wanted this.

He was naked before I knew it. With bittersweet anticipation, I shoved him to his knees, our gazes locked as I shimmied out of my uniform and underwear.

“Thank you,” I said at the look of wonder and sheer rapture on his face. How could I have forgotten the way this man looked at me?

We came together, on our knees before each other, kissing and licking and caressing every inch we could reach. He was so eager, so sensual. I felt like a goddess as he eased me up and over his straining cock.

We paused, our foreheads touching, and I saw that he was shaking.

“I haven’t done this in a while,” he said, chest heaving. “I want this to be good.”

I kissed his cheek, drawing my hands down his back, humbled that this sweet, gorgeous rock of a man would even have to wonder. “It will be amazing,” I said against his sweat-warmed skin, “it’s you.”

He gave me an uneasy smile, so full of … what? Hope? We both groaned as he slid deep inside me.

I buried my forehead in the crook of his neck. “Love me, Marc.”

“Oh God, Petra. I never stopped.”

I clung to him as he moved inside me, the heady, raw friction sending my pulse racing. I dug my knees into the bed as he drove harder, our bodies slick with sweat as I held on to his shoulders, shoved down on his cock.

This was my moment, my time with Marc. Everything else may have been decided for us—where we lived, whom we fought for, whom we were allowed to love—but we could decide this: to be together in this moment.

I cried out as the pleasure spiraled higher. The urgency built. He clutched my hips and his thrusts took on a desperate edge. I met his every push, wanting it, needing it.

“Jesus, Petra.”

I shoved him down onto the bed. He rolled right back over, braced on his elbows on top of me.

“Not this time.” He grinned, straining, his face inches from mine.

He shoved his cock hard inside me and I whimpered. He felt amazing. “Yes. Right there.”

He found the sweet spot, working me, pushing me, loving me hard until I came to pieces around him.

With a harsh cry, he followed. And for one blessed, white-hot moment, we were at peace.