The injustice rekindled her rage.
‘Awesome.’ Her tone was sullen. ‘So, are we just going to stand around chatting about how funny it is when Carter breaks The Rules, or is there something you want me to do?’
Mr Ellison’s eyebrows shot upwards. ‘I’d appreciate it if you kept a civil tone, Miss Sheridan.’
She couldn’t remember him ever looking truly stern before. Tall and broad-shouldered, with warm brown eyes and skin the colour of burnished oak, the groundskeeper had always been kind to her.
Normally she would have apologised and defused the situation but right now she was cold and bruised, every single one of her muscles hurt, she’d had that awful nightmare and nothing was fair.
She glared at him in mute rebellion.
When Allie didn’t respond, the groundskeeper spoke again, his tone signalling his disapproval. ‘I believe you’re right-handed, Allie?’
Some part of her wanted to end this standoff and just answer him straight but she was sulking in earnest now. So instead she gave a dismissive shrug and crossed her arms.
‘Allie, come on…’ Carter said softly.
She bit her lip hard to stop herself from telling him to just shut the hell up. Why wouldn’t he mind his own business?
Evidently having decided she wasn’t going to speak, Mr Ellison reached into the pocket of his dungarees and pulled out a pair of well-used secateurs, small enough to fit easily in her hand, and held them out to her. He made no move to step towards her. She was going to have to walk over and take them.
Allie’s arms stayed folded stubbornly. She didn’t want to give in. She wanted everyone to know how angry she was. How unfair everything was.
But he’d report her to Isabelle. And then Lucinda would find out, and she’d told her she had to cooperate completely, so…
She had no choice. With slow, resentful steps, she crossed the distance between them and reached for the clippers, trying to show him with her eyes how angry she was.
When she started to pull away, though, he held on to the clippers.
‘I know you’re better than this, Allie,’ he said, not at all unkindly.
Her first instinct was to tell him he didn’t know anything about her. Nobody did. But then, to her surprise, tears prickled the backs of her eyes. She didn’t want to say mean things to Mr Ellison. She knew she wasn’t in control of her actions right now. She was swinging wildly; hitting all the wrong people.
She had to stop.
Her rage dissipated, like a puff of breath in the cold air.
‘I’m sorry,’ she said, needing him to accept her apology. Needing him to forgive her.
His face softened. ‘I understand more than you know, Allie.’ The deep baritone rumble of his voice was comforting. ‘I’ve lost people. Good people. So has Carter. People we loved just as much as you loved Jo. We know how much it hurts. But we got through it and now you have to get through it, too.’
Allie knew Carter’s parents died when he was only a child. And they were good friends with Mr Ellison. That must have been devastating. They must have felt as bad as she did now.
She turned to look at Carter, but he’d dropped his gaze, as if Mr Ellison’s words had brought back painful memories.
The tight strings that had seemed to bind her heart ever since that horrible night loosened, just a little.
She was not the only one to go through this. And she shouldn’t punish them because of her own pain. All of them had lost someone.
She nodded fiercely. ‘I’ll sort things out, Mr Ellison. I promise.’
Perched high on a ladder, Allie trimmed twigs from the gnarled branches of the old apple tree as Mr Ellison had showed her, letting them fall through to the ground. From where she sat she could see the top of the school building – lights had just begun to come on in the dorm windows. Inside it would be warm and starting to smell of bacon and toast.
At the thought, her empty stomach rumbled.
She’d had to take off one glove to hold the clippers and she paused to blow warm life back into her frozen fingers. Below her she could see Carter dragging fallen branches into piles and raking leaves and twigs away from the base of the trees.
Across the orchard, Mr Ellison was busy sawing fallen branches into firewood, so they were essentially alone.
Amid the protection of the branches she watched Carter work, remembering what it was like to be close to him. She’d been his friend first – then his girlfriend. Now his… nothing.
Since he’d got together with Jules they hardly spoke. She’d been stunned by how quickly he’d moved on, and he had just sort of avoided her. The air between them remained heavy with unspoken recrimination.
Climbing down, she dragged the ladder around the tree to a new spot.
Carter glanced up at her. ‘Do you need some help?’
She shook her head. ‘I’ve got it.’
With a shrug, he returned to his work.