Black Halo

Twelve

INSTINCTUAL SHAME



Semnein Xhai was not obsessed with death. She was a Carnassial, proud of the kills she had made to earn the right to be called such, but only those kills. Deaths wrought by hands not her own were annoying. They left her with questions. Questions required thinking. Thinking was for the weak.

And the weak lay at her feet, two cold bodies of the longfaces before her.

‘How?’ she snarled through jagged teeth.

‘Perhaps they were ambushed,’ Vashnear suggested beside her.

The male held himself away from the corpses, hands folded cautiously inside his red robe as he surveyed them dispassionately. His long, purple face was a pristine mask of boredom, framed by immaculately groomed white hair. Only the thinnest twitch of a grin suggested he was more than a statue.

‘It is not as though females are renowned for awareness,’ he said softly.

‘They’re renowned for not dying like a pair of worthless, stupid weaklings,’ she growled. ‘What did they die from?’ she muttered, letting her voice simmer in her throat. After a moment, she turned to the female beside her. ‘Well?’

The female, some scarred, black-haired thing with a weakling’s bow grunted at Xhai before stalking to the corpses. She surveyed them briefly before tugging off her glove. Xhai observed her fingers, three total with the lower two fused together, with contempt. Her particular birth defect, like all other low-fingers, relegated her to using the bow and thus relegated her to contempt.

Her three fingers ran delicately down the females’ corpses, studying the savage cuts, the wicked bruises and particularly well-placed arrows that dominated the purple skin left bare by their iron chestplates and half-skirts. After a moment, she nodded, satisfied, and rose up. She turned to Xhai and snorted.

‘Dead,’ she said.

‘Well done,’ Vashnear muttered, rolling his milk-white eyes.

‘How?’ Xhai growled.

The low-finger shrugged. ‘Same way we found the others. Smashed skulls, torn flesh, few arrows here and there. Somethin’ came up and got ’em right in the back.’

‘I told Sheraptus you shouldn’t be allowed to roam without one of us accompanying,’ Vashnear muttered. ‘If females are incapable of thinking that someone might ambush them in a deep forest, then they’re certainly incapable of finding anything of worth to use against the underscum.’

‘And what would you have done?’ Xhai asked.

His grin broadened as his eyes went wide. The crimson light leaking from his stare was reflected in his white, jagged smile.

‘Burn down the forest. Remove the issue.’

‘Master Sheraptus said not to. It will infringe on his plans.’

‘Sheraptus believes himself infallible,’ Vashnear said.

‘He is.’

‘And yet he wastes three females for each hour we waste looking for means to slaughter the underscum when we have always had the answer.’ He pulled a pendant out from under his robe, the red stone attached to it glowing in time with his eyes. ‘Kill them all.’

‘That won’t work against their queen. The Master says so.’

‘He cannot know that.’

‘He has his ways.’

‘And they are not working.’

Slowly, Xhai turned a scowl upon him. ‘The Master is not to be questioned.’

‘Males have no masters,’ Vashnear replied coldly. ‘Sheraptus is my equal. You are beneath him and beneath me.’

‘I am his First Carnassial,’ Xhai snarled back. ‘I lead his warriors. I kill his enemies. His enemies question him.’

Vashnear lofted a brow beneath which his stare smouldered, the leaking light glowing angrily for a moment. It faded, and with it so did his grin, leaving only a solemn face.

‘Our search continues,’ he said softly. ‘I’ve sent Dech out to find further evidence. We will find her before we lose a Carnassial instead of a pair of warriors.’ He walked past her, his step slowing slightly as he did. ‘Carnassials are killers. Nothing more. Sheraptus knows this.’

She turned to watch him go. At her belt, her jagged gnawblade called to her, begging her to pluck it free and plant it in his back. On her back, her massive, wedged gnashblade shrieked for her to feed it with his tender neck flesh. Her own fingers, the middle two proudly fused together in the true mark of the Carnassial, humbly suggested that strangulation might be more fitting for him.

But Sheraptus had told her not to harm him.

Sheraptus was not to be questioned.

‘What do we do with the dead ones?’ the low-finger beside her asked.

‘How far behind us is the sikkhun?’ Xhai asked.

‘Still glutting itself on Those Green Things we found earlier.’

‘It’ll still be hungry. It fights better when it’s been fed.’ She glanced disdainfully at the corpses. ‘Leave them.’

The low-finger followed her scowl to Vashnear and snorted. ‘He’s weak. Even Dech says so. His own Carnassial …’ She chuckled morbidly. ‘If whatever’s killing us kills him, no one will weep.’

Xhai grunted.

‘Who knows?’ the female continued. ‘Maybe if we don’t come back with him, we’ll get a reward from the Saharkk.’

Xhai whirled on her, saw the distant, dreamy gaze in her eyes.

‘What did you call him?’

‘Saharkk?’ The low-finger shrugged, walking past her. ‘It means the same thing.’

She had taken two steps before Xhai’s hand lashed out to seize her by the throat. Xhai heard the satisfying wheeze of a windpipe collapsing; she was right to listen to her fingers.

‘He wants to be called Master,’ Xhai growled. ‘And I don’t share rewards.’

The low-finger shrieked, a wordless, breathless rasp, as Xhai pulled harshly on her neck and swung her skull toward the nearest tree.

Kataria felt the bones shatter, the impact coursing through the bark and down her spine. She kept her back against the tree, regardless, not moving, not so much as starting at the sound of the netherling’s brutality. She held her voice and her breath in her throat, quietly waiting for it to be over.

But she had met Xhai before, in Irontide. She could feel the old wounds that the Carnassial had given her begin to ache with every moment she heard the longface’s grunts of violent exertion. She knew that when it came to Xhai, nothing painful was ever over quickly.

Her victim’s grunts lasted only a few moments. The sound that resembled overripe fruit descending from a great height, however, persisted.

The sound of twitching, chittering, clicking caught her attention. She glanced at the tremendous roach standing before her, its feathery antennae wafting in her direction as it studied her through compound eyes. Long having since recognised the oversized pest for what it was, she did nothing more than raise her finger to her lips. Futile, she thought; even if the roach could understand the gesture, she doubted it could make enough noise to be heard over Xhai’s brutality.

Apparently, the roach disagreed.

Its rainbow-coloured carapace trembled with the flutter of wings as it turned about and raised a bulbous, hairy abdomen to her. Her eyes widened as the back of its body opened wide.

And sprayed.

Screaming was her first instinct as the reeking spray washed over her. Cursing was her second. Turning around, dropping her breeches and spraying the thing right back quickly fought its way to the fore, but she rejected it as soon as she felt the tree still against her back.

At the other side, a body slumped to the earth with a splash as it landed in a puddle of something Kataria had no wish to identify. The sound of Xhai’s growl and her heavy iron boots stomping off quickly followed and faded in short order.

Kataria allowed herself to breathe and quickly regretted it as the roach’s stench assaulted her nose. The insect chittered, satisfied, and scurried into the forest’s underbrush. Still, she counted herself lucky that the only thing to locate her was a roach.

A roach that sprays from its anus, she reminded herself, wiping the stuff from her face. And the longfaces almost found you that time.

She grunted at her own thoughts; the longfaces were crawling over the island, roaming the forest and its edges in great, noisy droves. They were searching, she had learned from the few times they deigned to speak in a language she could understand. For what, she had no idea and she didn’t care. She was on a search of her own, one that could not be compromised by the addition of bloodthirsty, purple-skinned warrior women.

The Spokesman stick in her hand reminded her of it, with a warm assurance that it had tasted many human bones before.

She stared down at it contemplatively. The s’na shict s’ha, her father said, often claimed that their famed sticks earned their names for the fact that each one possessed the faintest hints of the Howling. The trees they were carved from drank deeply of shictish blood spilled in their defence. They carried the memories of the dead, perpetual reminders of the duties that every shict carried.

As Kataria stared at the white feather tied to it, she suspected the power of the Spokesman was likely a lot simpler than that.

Inqalle infested her mind, in words and thoughts alike. She had slipped in on the Howling, sank teeth into Kataria’s thoughts, and she could still feel them there.

But this was not such an awful thing.

Inqalle’s words only persisted because truth was always like venom: once injected, it could not be removed until the proper steps had been taken to cure it. Kataria knew this, just as she knew that what Inqalle had said was true.

For too long had she been comfortable telling herself she was a shict while acting so unlike one. How could any shict call herself such when she stared for hours over the sea, watching …?

No. Hoping, she corrected herself. You were hoping that one of them would come up on shore and you could go back to the way things were. Those days are over. You always wanted them to be over, right?

She didn’t answer herself.

Maybe … this is a gift from Riffid, she told herself. Maybe this is how you prove yourself to Inqalle. No, not to Inqalle. To yourself. She shook her head. No, not to yourself …

She looked down at the white feather, frowned.

Not just to yourself.

The Spokesman stick was heavy with purpose, eager to be used upon unsuspecting human skulls. It reminded her why this had to be the way. It reminded her of the sensations she had felt in the company of her companions. Former companions, she corrected herself.

They had infected her, deafened her to the Howling. They had taken something from her. This was how she would take it back.

She had found their trail earlier. She could follow it, descend upon them when they weren’t paying attention. Two swift cracks at the base of the skull. They would die immediately. They wouldn’t be able to ask her why. She could do it, she told herself. If she could avoid the longfaces’ patrols, she could sneak up on them. She could kill them.

If you could, the thought entered her mind involuntarily, you would have done it long ago.

She shook her head, growled.

Something in the forest growled back.

She froze, hearing the footsteps. Her ears twitched, angling from left to right, absorbing each noise. Heavy feet fell upon the earth with the ungainly disquiet of a predator glutted. Nostrils drew in deep breaths, sniffing about the woods. The growl, a deep chest-born noise, became a shrill cackle. Gooseflesh grew upon her body.

The sikkhun, she thought. They said something about a sikkhun. She swallowed hard. What the hell is a sikkhun?

And in the sounds that followed, she realised she didn’t want to know. She heard a sharp ripping sound; the stench of blood filled her nostrils. Slurping followed, meat rent from bone and scooped into a pair of powerful jaws. Blood dripped softly, hitting the ground with the sound of fat raindrops. A bone snapped, crunched, was sucked down.

And with every breath it could spare, the thing let loose a short, warbling cackle.

She folded her ears against her head, unable to listen anymore. Slinking on her hands and feet, she slid into the underbrush, leaving the sikkhun to its gruesome feast.

Yes, she thought without willing, so gruesome. Good thing you’re about to do something as civil as murdering your companions, you weak little—

She folded her ears further, shutting them to all sounds, within and without, as she softly crept away.

Tracks told stories.

This was the accepted thought amongst her people. A person spoke to the earth through his feet, unable to lie or hide through his soles. The earth had a long memory, remembered what it was told. Earth remembered. Earth told shict. Shict remembered.

Kataria remembered finding his tracks in the forest, almost a year ago.

Long, slow strides, she recalled, heavy on the heels and the toes alike. He was a man who walked in two different directions: striving to go forward, always held back.

She had tracked him, then, certain that she was going to kill him. She tracked him now, certain that she had to.

And what’s different this time? she asked herself. You went after him, attempting to kill him. You wound up following him for a year.

Because, she told herself, that was a time when she did not know what it was to be a shict. This time, she knew. She would prove it.

She had found their tracks shortly after. The earth was moist and dry at once, torn between whether it wished to continue living or not. It made the stories hard to hear. Those she recognised in the tracks were simple tales: anguish, pain, misery, confusion, hunger. But those were common enough, especially to those humans she had once called companions.

No matter. They all had to die, eventually. The other humans would be a nice warm-up before she stalked and killed her true quarry. She would have liked to have started with Lenk, though, suspecting that he would be the hardest to kill. He was the most agitated, the most paranoid, the most cautious.

Oh, and that’s why he’s going to be hard to kill? she asked herself. Right. He’s just so crafty and clever. This entire ‘stalking’ is a farce. If you showed up in front of him and waved, he’d wave back and smile and say how good it was to see you as you clubbed his brains out.

No, she told herself, he liked her, but probably not that much.

Right, she agreed with herself, but the point is, you know this is just a stalling tactic. Pretending to stalk him? Pretending to track him? Go run around the forest screaming his name if you think he’s alive. Wait for him to come out and then embrace him and then crush his neck. If you really wanted to kill him, you wouldn’t even have to try. But …

She snarled inwardly, opened her ears wide to let the sounds of the forest drown out her own thoughts.

You also know this forest is dead. Nothing’s going to make you stop thinking, dimwit.

She sighed. No wind sighed back. And from the dead wind, no trees rustled in response. And from the quiet trees, no animals cried out in response. And all around her, the verdant greenery and blue skies and bright morning sunshine yielded no sound, no life.

Barren forests weren’t unheard of. Plants, inedible and intolerable to animal palates, often thrived where those on two and four legs could not.

Except for roaches, apparently. She flicked away a dried trace of anal sputum.

But there was something different about this forest, this silence. This silence lingered like a pestilence, seeping into her skin, reaching into her ears, her lungs. It found the sound of her breath intolerable, the clamour of her twitching muscles unbearable. It sought to drive the wind from her stomach, to still the noisy blood in her veins.

She shook her head, thumped it with the heel of her hand, scolded herself for being stupid. Silence was uncomfortable, nothing more. It wasn’t a disease. He was. He was the one that needed to be cured, not her. It was him that was the problem.

So the problem is him, she told herself. That makes sense. That’s what Inqalle said. The greenshicts … no, no. They’re the s’na shict s’ha, remember? Greenshicts are what humans call them. The problem is him. Kill him and you’re a shict, right? Right.

Because that was what a shict was, she told herself, pressing forward and following the tracks. A shict killed humans. That was what shicts did. Her father said so. Inqalle said so. Her mother …

Her step faltered. The earth heard her hesitation.

Mother, she told herself, asked you what a shict was.

She stared down at the Spokesman stick in her hand, at the white mourning feather tied to it.

And you said …

Her ears twitched, still listening even if her mind was not. They rose up on either side of her head, slowly shifting from side to side as they heard a sound.

Water?

She followed it, the roar of rushing liquid growing more thunderous with every step. She glanced down at the earth; the tracks continued to it, though the earth still refused to yield the speaker of their stories, even as it became moister.

Soon, the ground turned to mud beneath as forest and river met in battle. The trees refused to yield, leaning in close over the great blue serpent that slithered through the earth. It flowed swiftly, fed by a distant waterfall thundering down a craggy cliff face not far from where she stood at its bank.

Not ten feet away from her, where the water was at its most shallow, an island of earth and stone rose like a rocky pimple. Long and wide, it defied the nature of the river with its stone-paved floors, crumbling pillars and the occasional vine-decorated statue. But the forest challenged even this, those trees and underbrush that had managed to grow over it encroaching upon it, obscuring the finer points of its decay as it strangled the island with leafy hands.

Odd, she thought, but not the oddest part about this place.

She surveyed the river, eyes narrowing. Certainly it sounded like a river ought to. The water was clear and, at a glance, clean enough and suitable for drinking. Her dry lips begged her to drink, her ears told her it was safe. Only her nose rejected it.

The scent of freshness was nowhere present in the air; the aroma of growing things fed by the flow was overwhelmed by a reek that lurked just beneath.

But surely, water was water. Even the water couldn’t be tainted if it caused such plants to grow. There was no harm, she told herself, in simply taking a drink. It would enable her to hunt farther, faster, and do what must be done.

She glanced down at the water, smacking her lips. Her nostrils quivered.

Still, she thought, glancing over to the waterfall, no sense in not taking a drink directly from the source.

She stared up, wondering exactly where the river came thundering from. And, atop the great crags of the cliff, she found an answer pouring from great, skeletal jaws.

The skull, resembling something of a massive, fleshless fish, stared back down at her through empty eye sockets as it hung precariously over the edge of the cliff, wide as a boulder, water weeping through every empty void in its bleached surface. Liquid poured from its great, toothsome jaws, burst from each empty black eye, weeping and vomiting in equal measure.

Not that such imagery didn’t unnerve her, but it paled in comparison to the fact that she had seen this skull before, in a much smaller form. But she had seen it, cleaned of shadowy black skin, sockets where vast, empty white eyes had once been. She remembered the teeth, she remembered the jaws, she remembered the gurgling, drowning voice that went with them.

An Abysmyth. She was staring at a demon’s skull, far more massive than any she had ever thought possible.

But it was just a skull, she thought. Whatever demon it had belonged to was dead now and there was no need for her to fear. Nor was there a need to wonder where it had come from. She had tracks to follow, tracks that had to have led through the shallows, over the island and onto the opposite bank.

Rolling her breeches up to her knees, she carefully waded in. The current was swift, but not deep enough to drag her under. Still, it was a slow and steady pace that carried her across, mercilessly leaving her time to be with her thoughts.

If there are demons here … she thought. I mean, I know that one’s dead and all, but if they’re here … you’re actually doing them a kindness, aren’t you? You’d be killing them before they could have their heads chewed off. Of course, you’d be eaten moments later, wouldn’t you? But that’s fine, so long as they die before that happens. That’s just the kind of selfless person you are, right?

She laughed bitterly.

Sure. I’m certain they’ll see it my way.

Her foot caught. A root reached up from muddy ground to tangle her. She cursed, reached down to free herself and found no rough and jagged tuber. Rather, what caught at her ankle was smooth and came easily out of the water and in her hand, the mud of the riverbed sloughing off to land in the flow like globs of great brown fat.

She might have thought how fitting that metaphor was, if it weren’t for the fact that she was currently staring at a fleshless, skeletal arm in her hand.

Before she could even warn herself against the dangers of doing so, she looked down.

And the small, rounded human skull looked back up, grinning and politely asking for its arm back.

With a sneer, she obliged, dropping the appendage and scurrying out of the water. Suddenly, the vague reek made itself known to her, the familiarity of it cloying her nostrils.

The water was rife with the scent of corpses.

‘Still alive.’

The sound of a voice beside the one in her head caused her to whirl about, tense and ready to fight or flee. And while she breathed out a scant relieved exhale at the sight of red flesh stretched over muscle before her, she didn’t outright discount either option.

Gariath, for his part, didn’t seem particularly interested in what she might do. Perched upon a shattered pillar beneath the shade of a tree, he seemed far more interested in the corpse twitching on his feet. She recognised it as one of the rainbow-coloured roaches, its innards exposed and glistening, loosing reeking, unseen clouds as he scooped out its guts.

Strange, she thought, that a dead roach should be more recognisable than the creature she had once called a companion.

It certainly looked like Gariath, of course: all muscles, horns, teeth and claws. His tail hung over the pillar and swayed ponderously, his wings were folded tightly behind his back, as they had been many times before. His hands were no less powerful as they tore a whiskered leg from the roach and guided it into teeth glistening with roach innards. His utter casualness about having a corpse at his feet and in his mouth was also decidedly familiar to her.

And yet, there was something off about him, she thought as she studied him with ears upraised. His skin appeared stretched a bit too tightly. His jaws opened with mechanical precision instead of morbid enthusiasm. The disgust on her face was plain as another wave of roach reek hit her nostrils, but he showed no particular joy at the discomfort he caused her.

This was all strange enough without considering his stare. There was intensity behind it, as ever, but it was not a fire that flickered and burned. His stare was hard and immutable, a stone that pressed against her.

‘So are you,’ she said, observing him coolly as he shovelled another handful of innards into his jaws.

‘You sound disappointed,’ he grunted through a full mouth.

She was, she admitted, if only slightly. Things certainly didn’t get less complicated with a hulking reptile still alive. She was certainly surprised to see him, given his rather obvious intent on dying the last time she saw him.

Still, she took some satisfaction in his appearance. It merely confirmed her previous suspicions: If Gariath was alive, Lenk would be, too.

And if Lenk is alive …

Gariath’s neck suddenly stiffened. He looked up, ear-frills fanning out. She started, unsure whether to run. He made no movement beyond sitting, ear-frills twitching, as though hearing something she could not. This, noting the differences between their ears, she found disconcerting.

‘Angry?’ He glanced to the air at his side. ‘Maybe. Probably. I don’t care.’

‘Are … you talking to me?’

‘If I was talking to you, I’d be angry.’ He cast a sidelong glare to the emptiness. ‘As it is, I’m only mildly irritated.’

While there were many oddities one could accuse Gariath of, madness was not one of them. What dribbled from his mouth on insect ichor might have sounded like lunacy, and she wasn’t ready to discount that it was, but it was uttered with such clarity that he was not possessed of even in his more lucid moments. He was serene. He was coherent. He was calm.

That unnerved her.

‘You look upset,’ he observed.

She said nothing. ‘Concerned’ and ‘observant’ were two other qualities one never accused Gariath of having.

‘Understandable, isn’t it?’ she asked. ‘I’m standing in front of a lizard who, up until moments ago, I thought dead and was pleased for it, because, as of a few days ago, said lizard tried to kill me by bringing down a giant snake on my head.’ She sneered. ‘Maybe a little upset, yeah.’

‘What?’

‘I just said—’

‘Not you, stupid.’ He held a hand up and looked to the side again, shaking his head. ‘No, she always sounds like this. Stupid humans cry about things like near-death experiences.’ He laughed morbidly. ‘No, no. They call it “attempted murder”.’ He snorted. ‘Babies.’

She stared at the nothingness beside him intently, straining to see what he saw. It became evident that trying to do so was as futile as trying to see what crack had split his skull from which this sudden lunacy leaked out.

She took a step back warily.

‘Going somewhere?’

She slowed, but did not freeze at his growl. ‘Back to tracking.’

‘Tracking what? The other humans?’

‘The humans, yes.’

‘Pointless. I can’t smell them. They’re probably dead.’

‘Given that you tried your damnedest to kill them, that’s definitely possible.’

‘They’re always snide like this, too,’ he growled to the air once more. ‘Hmm? No, you wouldn’t think so, but the pointy-eared one gets uppity about the other ones, too. Or at least, the other one.’

She felt the stab in his words surely as she felt the ire rise in her glare, seeking to leap out and impale him. The ichor on his unpleasant smile and the lunatic calm in his stare, however, convinced her to instead turn around, walk toward the opposite bank and hope he did nothing more than continue to stare.

‘Never seen you run before,’ he grunted after her.

‘I’ve never seen you talk to invisible people before, so I suppose we’re even,’ she called over her shoulder. ‘And for the thousandth time I remind you, knowing full well you don’t care or can’t understand, I’m a shict.’

The question came just as she set foot back onto damp soil, voiced without accusation, without malice, without anything beyond genuine curiosity.

‘Are you?’

And she froze, turned around so slowly she heard her vertebrae creak.

‘What … what did you say?’

‘You’re not going about this the right way, you know,’ he replied with a shrug.

‘You can’t possibly—’

‘I do,’ he replied, ‘and I can tell you that more dead bodies, theirs or yours, won’t make your ears any pointier.’

‘And I’m supposed to listen to that?’ It was unwise to snarl at him so, to bare her teeth at him challengingly, but she didn’t care. It was likewise unwise to allow the tears to form in the corners of her eyes, but she could not help it. ‘You expect me to believe that you, of all people, think violence isn’t a solution?’

‘I don’t expect you to do much more than die,’ he replied with coolness not befitting him. ‘Someone else expects you to do so in a more meaningful way.’ He blinked, then looked to the air with incredulousness. ‘Really? How do you figure that?’

‘Who—?’

‘Right.’ He nodded once, then turned to her. ‘But this isn’t it, we agree. No matter who dies, you’re still what you are.’

Walk away, she told herself. Run, if you have to. He’s a long way gone and he was rather far away to begin with. Go. Run.

Sound advice. She should have cursed her frozen feet, her eyes set against his. She should have done anything, she knew, besides open her mouth to him. But she could not help it, just as she couldn’t help the genuine curiosity in her voice.

‘What am I?’

‘Well, I don’t care,’ he replied sharply. ‘But whatever you are, whatever you’re planning, it won’t work.’

‘You know nothing of what I’m planning, of what I have to do.’

‘You don’t know what you have to do. Isn’t that why you’re being such a whiny moron?’ He leaned closer; the weight of his stare became oppressive, drove her back a step. ‘What happens when you do it? When you kill Lenk? Your thoughts won’t get any more quiet.’

‘What do I do then?’ She was far past concern for how he seemed to know her plans, far past baring her teeth or hiding her tears. ‘What does your lunacy tell you? Because I’ve been thinking with sanity and logic, and I can’t come to any other conclusion. This has to happen. He has to die.’

His expression didn’t change. The stone of his stare became one of body. His tail ceased to sway, his claws ceased to twitch. He stared without words, for he had no more for her.

And she had none for him. His might be a serene madness, but it was still madness. And she still knew what she must do.

She turned about swiftly this time, stalked back to the river. She hadn’t even lifted sole from stone this time before she heard him growl.

‘There, see? I told you she wouldn’t listen.’

She heard him rise, wings flapping, claws stretching, leathery lips creaking with the force of his snarl.

‘Now, we do things my way.’

In an instant, the sun was drowned behind her, choked by a shadow that bloomed like a dark flower over her. She had no thought for reasons why, only instinct. She heeded it as she leapt backwards.

He was Gariath. He didn’t know why. Reasons were for weaklings.

The ground shook as he fell where she had stood. His claws raked the rock and his wings flapped, sending up a cloud of granite-laced dust. She whirled, narrowing her eyes against the grit as he turned to face her, eyes bright and burning.

She wasn’t surprised; sudden and irrational violence was simply what he did. Still, she felt compelled to ask.

‘What’s it matter to you?’ She crouched, a cat ready to spring, ears flattened against her head aggressively. ‘Sad that you won’t get to be the one to kill them?’

‘They don’t matter.’ He rose like a red monolith, muscles twitching, claws flexed. ‘I don’t matter.’ His legs tensed, eyes narrowed. ‘You don’t matter!’

His roar split the dust cloud in half as he hurled himself at her. Her ears rang from his fury; she felt hairs on her neck wilt under the heat of his breath as she darted low beneath him. Her spine trembled as his jaws snapped shut, a hairsbreadth over it.

She heard him crash into the foliage, but did not turn to see. Instead, she scrambled across the stones, mind racing with her limbs as she searched for options and found them desperately scarce.

Fighting was impossible, even if she had her bow and knife. Hiding was futile, for his nose guided him as surely as her ears did her. Negotiation … just seemed stupid at this point. With nothing left, she turned to face him as he tore himself free in an eruption of soil and leaves.

And she hurled the Spokesman at him.

He lowered his head, let it smash against his skull. Such blows from a greenshict were legendary, the sticks splitting open heads as easily as they did melons. But no matter what she was, she was not a greenshict. The stick crashed against his brow, clattered harmlessly to the stones.

He stepped over it, his tail flicking behind him to snatch the stick and send it flying into the river, where it disappeared. She watched it vanish with wide eyes, the white of the feather tied to it visible for a long, horrifying moment. She forced herself to tear her eyes from it, forced the fear from her face and replaced it with snarling, white-toothed rage.

‘So what is it, then?’ she growled. ‘Why fight me? You won’t get a scratch, let alone die!’

‘Dying isn’t important … not anymore,’ he growled back. ‘Living is.’

‘You can’t possibly expect me to believe you came up with that all on your own.’

‘I don’t expect you to do anything but die.’ He stalked toward her with more caution than she expected. Or, she wondered, was that hesitation? ‘And I don’t care if I live, either. What’s important is that he lives.’

‘Who? Lenk?’

‘I need him.’

She paused, blinking. ‘Uh … for …’

‘I don’t know!’ His roar was mostly fury, but tinged at the edges with pain. ‘Some lives … are worth more than others.’

‘What of my life?’ She backed away as he continued toward her. ‘I killed alongside you. I fought. I thought you respected that.’

‘Liked, yes. Respected, never.’ He drew back a thin red lip in a sneer. ‘You’re still just a pointy-eared human. Still stupid, still weak, still have to die sometime.’

‘And when did you reach this conclusion?’ she asked. ‘Was it before yet another failed attempt to kill yourself? Or after another failed attempt to kill this stupid, weak shict?’

‘Shut up.’ His ear-frills twitched. His gaze danced from side to side before settling on her. ‘You should have died at sea. I shouldn’t have. I see that now.’

‘And what of Lenk? What if he died there, too?’

‘He lives.’

‘How do you know?’

‘How do you?’

His lunge came swiftly, but it was half-hearted, all fury with no hate to guide it. She darted aside, but did not flee. Perhaps, though, he was giving her the opportunity to do just that? No. He would think that cowardly. The madness that possessed him couldn’t have affected him deeply enough that he would be afflicted with the disease of mercy.

Still, something plagued his strikes, hindered his muscle, smothered his growl. Was he in his right mind, she wondered, or merely distracted?

There was an opportunity she could seize.

‘What of the others, then?’ she shouted, adding her voice to whatever assault kept his ear-frills twitching madly. ‘If Lenk lives, the others might, as well.’

‘I said some lives,’ he snarled, leaning low. ‘He lives because he was strong. The others died because they were weak.’

‘The giant raging sea snake might have also had something to do with it.’

‘It had to be done. The Akaneed was necessary. It was sent for me.’

‘You seem to say that about a lot of things that try to kill you.’ She took another step backward and felt unyielding stone at her back. ‘Since they haven’t, you think maybe whatever’s sending them to you might be mistaken?’

The rage that brimmed in his eyes at the insult was neither fire nor stone. It was a bodily thunder that boiled up through his chest, rumbled in his throat and became a storm behind his stare, vast, unrelenting and hungry for carnage.

‘The Rhega do not make mistakes,’ he growled, fingers tightening around something on the ground. ‘The spirits do not make mistakes.’ He rose, a fragmented stone head from a nearby decapitated statue in his hand. ‘The beast was sent not to kill, but to teach. And I have learned from it. I thought you and the others weak, stupid. I thought you dead. And now …’

His arm snapped, sending the granite skull hurtling like a meteor toward her face.

‘I’M RIGHT TWICE!’

She dove, felt the impact on the pillar behind her as the head burst into fragments and powder that settled over her like a cloak; she took advantage of its cover, crawling on her belly into the foliage and disappearing amongst the greenery.

Futile, of course; he would sniff her out. But between the futility of hiding and the futility of attacking a seven-foot-tall slab of muscle with nothing but her fangs and harsh language, this seemed modestly wiser.

Still, she couldn’t help but search for other options. Desperately scarce before, every strategy fled at the dragonman’s roar. She heard him clearly, the breaths laden with anger, the feet heavy with hate, his claws twitching impatiently for bones to break and flesh to rend. Above the sounds of his hatred, it was near impossible to hear anything else. But she heard a sound regardless, faint and quiet. Between the flickering of his fury and the rumble of his growls, his nostrils twitched, searched the air.

And found nothing.

He can’t smell me. The thought raced with the beating of her heart. Or is he just drawing it out? No, he’s not that patient. But it makes no sense. Why can’t he—?

The answer came on an invisible cloud of reek, filling her nostrils with knowledge and the pungent stink of roach innards. She glanced up, peered out of the foliage and saw the roach’s corpse loosing its incense onto the sunbeams filtering through the canopy.

And an idea came.

She could barely keep from laughing. The dragonman, the terror of all things that walked on two legs and four, laid low by a stinking bug. He had a weakness after all. And, if one of the many curses about shicts was true, it was that they knew weaknesses could be exploited.

Shicts, she thought with obscene pride, don’t fight fair.

The sole obstacle to capitalising on this pride was the expanse between her and the dead insect, dominated by a mass of red flesh and eager claws.

But that suddenly did not seem so grievous an obstacle anymore. He was only flesh and claws … and teeth, she admitted, but she was a shict. She was cunning, she was stealth, she was hunter. These were things the Howling taught her, reminded her of in faint echoes as she fell to all fours and crept about the bush.

‘What’s that?’

She froze.

‘What?’ he growled again. ‘No, I never said I couldn’t learn.’ Gariath sighed, unaware as she pressed on through the brush around him. ‘It’s just that the humans, round or pointy, have nothing to teach me. They know few things: desecration, degradation and indignation.’

He laughed blackly, a sound that made her skin crawl as it never had before.

‘No, it means she thinks she’s claiming some sort of victory here … no, an invisible victory,’ he growled. ‘It’s as stupid as it sounds. She pretends she’s avoiding me because she doesn’t deserve to be splattered on the ground. That is indignation, something humans claim to possess when everything else is taken from them.

‘In this case,’ he continued, ‘it’s stupid of her to think she’s going to die with anything more than mud in her teeth and a rock in her skull. That’s as invisible as victories get, I suppose. Eh? No, it makes sense to them morally.’

He’s speaking to you, she told herself, not the air … maybe both.

‘It basically means she’s lying to herself. Really, all we’re fighting over is killing rights, which is acceptable.’ He snorted disdainfully. ‘But she wants to kill the others, the stupid weaklings, to prove she’s less stupid and weak. This is a lie … sorry, a moral victory.’

He’s taunting you, trying to lure you out. Keep going. Don’t fall for it.

‘And this is why they look at her with hatred, why Lenk feared to turn his back to her.’

She froze.

‘She is a liar, a schemer. She tells herself they have to die for reasons she thinks will help, that she’ll stink less like a human after rubbing against their soft skin for so long. They know this. They hate her. What?’ He grunted. ‘Yes, I’d kill them, but only because I don’t like them. Honesty is an admirable trait.’

She was not prepared for this. Claws, fists, bellowing roars she had steeled herself against. But when he spoke with confidence, not rage, when his words were laced with cunning rather than hatred, she was stunned into inaction.

‘Ironic? Yes, I know what the word means. That’s different, though. I don’t protect Lenk. If he needed protection, I would laugh as he died. I give him the respect and honour of a fair fight by killing her first. He’s a stupid bug, all wings and stinger, that will leap into the jaws of a snapping flower because he can’t tell that the pollen stinks. He knows there’s something foul about the stench, but he sniffs it, anyway. She is the pollen. I’m just clearing his nostrils.’

Well? she demanded of her body. What are you upset about? That’s what you wanted, isn’t it? Lenk’s hatred, his fear … if you’ve got that, it’s all so much easier, isn’t it?

It was supposed to be, anyway.

‘No, no …’ Gariath’s voice drifted softly over the leaves like a breeze. ‘That’s not the funny part. The real humour is that she’s running away when I’m doing her a favour she doesn’t deserve. If she does fear, as you say she does, not being so pointy-eared, then how is what I’m doing a bad thing? Eh? No, I disagree. The kindest thing here …’

She felt the shadow on her back, looked up into hard black eyes.

‘Is a swift and fair death.’

Move.

She did, too late.

His claws raked her, dug into the tender flesh of her back. She felt blood weeping down her skin, shallow muscles screaming, but not the numbing agony that would suggest a crippling blow. She tried to ignore the pain and scrambled away. She leapt to her feet, heard him fall to his feet and his claws as he charged. The bug grew large in her eyes, its stink brilliantly foul in her nose.

He lunged; she jumped.

He caught her ankle in a grasping claw; she seized a handful of pasty yellow innards.

She twisted and saw his teeth looming forward. With a growl to match his, she thrust the glistening, guts-laden fist at him and smeared the insect’s ichor into his nostrils.

Though he didn’t let go, he did howl. The roach’s juices vengefully filled his nostrils, seeped over his snout to sting his eyes. He threw his head back enough that she could pull her ankle from his weakened grip, claws scratching at her heel as she did.

He sprang to his feet, swung his fists out, lashed his tail out, stomped the earth in a blind, anosmic rage.

His roar filled her ears, as did the sound of his nostrils futilely searching the air for her. Such sounds continued as she ran into the forest, leaping over the river’s shallows and leaving him far behind. Without direction, without stopping, she ducked branches, leapt over logs. And through his howling and snarling she could hear his words, spoken with such venomous clarity. She could feel them continue to seep into her, as she could feel her eyes brim with tears.

She ran, and lied to herself that she wept because of the pain in her back.

She flew past a roach, the rainbow-coloured insect’s antennae twitching curiously as she sped past it without so much as a glance. It chittered quietly, confused. She did not look back at it.

Perhaps if she had, she might have noticed the pair of wide yellow eyes peering out of the foliage. Perhaps, if she had, she might have heard the sound of long, green footsteps that set off after her.