I ached deep inside my soul for him. He was alive, but to what purpose? Perhaps it would have been kinder to let him die after all. But how could I have done that? He was my brother and I did love him even when he hated me.
Ill, I turned and went back to my chambers, but there was no peace there. I'd been uncharitable to Acheron, unkind. Thoughtless. No wonder he didn't want to speak to me.
But I couldn't leave it at this. I would give him time. Perhaps he'd come around eventually.
At least, I hoped deep inside that he could find it within himself to forgive me for being like everyone else. For hurting him when I should have been fighting for him.
December 1, 9529 BC
As the days passed by, I learned more things about Father's mandates for Acheron's treatment. No one was allowed into Acheron's room, except for me whom he refused to see, and everything he touched was to be shattered and burned.
Everything.
His dishes, his sheets. Even his clothes. It was Father's public humiliation for Acheron.
It sickened me.
Until the day I made the most frightening discovery of all.
I'd gone with several friends to see a play in the middle of the day. It wasn't something I normally did, but Zateria had a desperate crush on one of the actors and had insisted I judge him for myself.
We'd been laughing among ourselves when I happened to notice someone who was sitting two rows down from us in the peasant section. He sat alone with a peplos shielding him. He had the hood pulled up over his head so that I could tell nothing about his features and yet something seemed oddly familiar about him.
It wasn't until the play ended and the man got up that I realized why he was familiar.
It was Acheron.
He pulled the cowl down lower, but I'd already glimpsed the beauty of his face and I knew Styxx would never deign to come to something as common as a midday play. Even if he had, he'd never be in that section of seats.
I excused myself from my friends to go after him.
"Acheron?"
He hesitated an instant before he pulled the cowl lower and continued on his way.
Rushing to catch up, I pulled him to a stop.
He looked at me coldly. "Are you going to tell him?"
"No," I breathed, knowing the him he meant was our father. "Why would I?"
He started away, but I stopped him again.
His expression was exasperated. "What, Ryssa?"
"How did you come to be here? The guards—"
"I bribed them," he said in a clipped tone.
"With what? You have no money."
The look he gave me answered that question plainly. I was nauseated with the mere thought of what he'd used to get out of the palace.
He narrowed his eyes at me. "Don't look so horrified, Ryssa. I've been bartered for much less than an afternoon of freedom. At least they're gentle with me."
Tears stung my eyes. "You can't keep doing this."
"Why not? It's all anyone wants me for."
"That's not true."
"No?"
I watched as he angrily lowered his cowl. I could feel the ripple that went through everyone around us as people caught sight of him.
The sudden silence was deafening. It was tangible and there was no mistaking the attention that was immediately focused on him.
Solely him.
Women's heads came together as they giggled and tried to remain inconspicuous in their ogling. Men weren't so subtle. There was no denying the fact that every one of them stared at him with longing. With desire.
I was no more immune to his unnatural allure than they were, but mine was tempered by the fact that we were family.
"Do you really want to know why your father hates me?"
I shook my head. I knew the answer. Acheron had said it the day Father had banished him. Because he, too, was attracted to Acheron and he despised the boy for it.
Acheron pushed past me, out of the stadium. With every step he took, he was dogged by offers and invitations. Even once he'd replaced his cowl, people didn't stop calling out and pursuing him through the street.
I hurried after him.
"Don't be like that," a man said as he trailed behind Acheron. "I would make you a most beneficial mentor."
"I have no need of a mentor," Acheron said as he continued walking.
The man grabbed him roughly. "What do you want?"
"I want to be left alone."
The man lowered Acheron's cowl. "Tell me your price. I'll pay anything to have you."
That hollow, empty stare came into Acheron's eyes as he shoved the man away from him.
"What is this?"
My blood went cold as I recognized the hostile, demanding voice of my father. I'd been so intent on Acheron and the unknown man that I had failed to realize Father and his entourage were traveling past.
Now Father's full attention was riveted on Acheron whose face had turned to stone.