Indecision played across his face for several minutes before he complied. I ordered another guard to fetch food and drink while I followed them.
Every step seemed to take too long. I couldn't believe the shell of a human in the guard's arms was the same handsome boy who'd chased Maia in our garden. How could my father have done this to him?
How could Acheron have done this to himself?
Entering my room, the guard placed him on my bed, then left immediately. I sent my maids for water and linen so that we could bathe some of the filth from him.
It was so horrible to be near him like this. He smelled so bad, looked so weak . . . How could anyone suffer such a tragedy? And I felt completely helpless.
Using my sheet, I tried to wipe some of the dirt from his face.
My maids returned at the same time food was brought.
I cradled Acheron's head as I carefully fed him small pieces of bread. But he didn't seem to want to chew. I didn't know if he was too weak or too far gone to even know it was bread in his mouth.
"My lady," Kassandra said, "You'll ruin your clothes touching him like that."
"I don't care." And I didn't. All that mattered to me was saving his life. I dripped wine slowly into his mouth. "Eat, Acheron," I breathed.
Weakly, he turned his head away from me. "Please," he begged, his voice a ragged, hoarse whisper. "Let me die."
Tears choked me as I realized he must have done this on purpose. No doubt he'd been going without food, praying for death to come and free him from that hole where he'd been trapped.
The kindest thing I could do would be to let him go.
But I couldn't. I wouldn't just lose him, I'd lose Styxx as well and I loved both my brothers.
"Stay with me, Acheron," I whispered.
But he didn't do it for me. Instead, he fought for death and the days passed as I watched my father's physicians violently force feed him while he tried to spit the food out. They were merciless in their attention.
They kept him tied to my bed and pried his lips apart so that they could pour milk, wine and honey down his throat. He would try to spit the food and drink out only to have them beat him and hold his mouth and nose shut until he swallowed it.
He cursed them and he cursed me.
I couldn't blame him.
Every day was a nightmare for him while Styxx grew stronger in comfort with everyone lavishing praise on him and serving his every need. Meanwhile bruises marred Acheron's skin, especially his jaw where they continually pried it apart. The physicians demanded that he be "fed" at least every two hours.
Every time the guards and servants appeared for those feedings, he'd stiffen and cast me the most condemning of glares.
As he grew stronger, the fights became worse until he finally stopped fighting at all. The hateful angry glares were replaced by a hopeless resignation that hurt me even more. Still they left him tied down and I realized that I hadn't really changed his position. Only his location was different.
My brother's reality was ever the same.
November 1, 9529 BC
Today Father had Acheron moved to a new room down the hall from mine. Once more, he was tied spread eagle on the bed, but at least this time he was clothed. The feedings continued, but now they only occurred five times a day.
I made a point of seeing Acheron every chance I could and every time I saw him my heart broke more.
Acheron never moved or spoke to me during my visits. He lay there, staring at the ceiling as if he were immune to what was happening around him.
"I wished you'd speak to me, Acheron."
He acted as if I weren't even there.
"You have to know that I love you. I don't want to see you like this. Please, little brother. Could you at least look at me?"
He didn't even blink.
His lack of response angered me and a part of me wanted to lash out verbally against him. But I held my tongue. He'd been abused enough by the insults of my father and the guards and servants who fed him.
There was nothing more I could do. Ill from the knowledge, I left him and continued my preparations for Apollo.
November 20, 9529 BC
Acheron continued to lie unmoving on his bed. He stared at the ceiling as always, ignoring me while I tried to talk to him.
"I wish you'd speak to me, Acheron. I miss the way we used to talk together. You were my best friend. The only person I could ever talk to whom I knew wouldn't tell every word I said to Father."
Again, there was no response.
What would it take to make him acknowledge me? Surely he couldn't continue to lie in bed like that. Then again, given the fact that he'd been sitting in a tiny hole these months past, he'd probably grown more than accustomed to not moving.