“But he is — ”
“He is not going to remember you’re his mother or return to his old self unless I cure him,” the Queen said. “And I won’t do that until we win the war.”
“So you’ve planned this from the beginning. You knew you wouldn’t give him back to me.”
“I may be short, but I’m smarter than you. How many times do I need to spell it out for you?”
“So what do you want from me?”
“To keep working for me, Duchess. Once we win the war, you can have your innocent version of your son back. Until then…”
“The show must go on, I know,” Margaret said. “Please don’t hurt him until then.”
“As long as you obey me.”
Margaret hesitated then nodded. “At your service, My Queen.”
“Brilliant. We have a new monster coming. A special one. This one has the key to the Pillar and Fabiola’s weaknesses.”
“Why those two?”
“Because once we find the keys, all we need to win the war is to get rid of those two.”
“I see.”
“One last thing.”
“Yes, My Queen.”
“The coming monster never lost a war, so we’re expecting someone to die, from us or the Inklings — but it’ll be worth it.”
“Why?”
“He is one of few who knows how to use the keys.”
Chapter 92
THE PRESENT: TOM TOWER
“What’s on this paper?” I ask the Pillar.
“I wrote my Wonder on it.”
“You have a Wonder, like the rest of us?” I chuckle.
“At least, I think it’s my Wonder.”
“What does your Wonder have to with why you helped me?”
“One day you’ll know.”
“So you’re not showing it to me know?”
“I’d love to, but I’m sensing a few complications on the way. I can’t explain much, but let’s say I’d like you to keep the note.”
“I’d love to.”
“Only you have to promise me you’ll never open it until I die.”
“Whoa. Why are you talking about death now?”
The Pillar steps closer to me. He gives me that look again. “Something strange happened when I was in the future.”
“What happened?”
“I went to Carroll’s grave to get a stock of Lullaby pills from his corpse.”
“You dug him up?” I don’t like the sound of that.
“Let’s not try to be ideal heroes here. Yes, I dug him up to get the pills and save your life.”
I shrug.
“But that’s not the point,” he says. “On my way out of the cemetery, I came across a tombstone.”
“Whose?”
“Someone dear to me was buried there.”
“Fabiola?”
“That someone is very important to me. You have no idea how.”
“Me?” I say. “But it can’t be me. I was alive in the future. My kids expected to see their mum, so I was alive.”
“It’s not you, Alice,” the Pillar says.
“Who is that someone? Do I know him or her?”
The Pillar steps back, locking eyes with me. “That someone is me.”
There are no words to describe my shock. No words at all. “But…”
“Don’t, Alice,” he says. “I’m going before, or some time within the Wonderland Wars”
“Don’t say that, Pillar.” I step forward. “You will not die. We can do this. We can do this together.”
“No, we can’t. The future will always find a way.”
“But you’re wrong. Didn’t you see I saved Jack?”
“I think that’s why I’m going to die, Alice.”
“What do you mean? What does Jack have to do with this?”
“According to the terrible Guide to Wonderlastic Time Travels, time will take a life for every life you save. For every life the time traveller cheats out of time.”
I didn’t know that. “Are you saying that Jack’s life comes at a cost?”
“Yes. At the cost of another life.”
“So what? It doesn’t say it will be you.”
The Pillar shrugs. It’s one of the rare moments I’ve seen him do that. He tries to evade my eyes, but I don’t let him, locking on with his. “It has to be me, Alice.”
“Pillar?” I tilt my head, realizing I can’t lose him now. “What’s going on?”
“Time let you save the dearest person to you. In exchange, he will take the next dearest person to you.”
And with this I realize the paradox and dilemma. Now that I’ve learned what the Pillar has done for me, and even though he may have his own agenda, I know he is truly the dearest person to me after Jack.
“Time is vicious,” the Pillar says. “I thought I’d live long enough to beat him, but I was wrong.”
“Pillar,” I say. “No. We’ll find a way. We’ll…”
“Just don’t,” the Pillar says. “I’m good to go. Just keep my note. Read it only when I die.”