5. Smoking. At some point it became synonymous with cool. Why? It tastes gross. It makes you smell gross. It coats your lungs in ash. [I’m not sure if that’s medically correct. Remind me to ask Ajita.]
6. Reading in the bath. You have to dry your hands every thirty milliseconds in order to turn the page, and you live in constant fear of dropping the book spine-first on your bare foofer.
7. Shakespeare. I personally find it unreasonable that he has the monopoly on inventing words. [For example, I’m sure my copyeditors are going to flag up “foofer”.]
8. TV talent shows. But maybe I’m just bitter about having a face for radio.
9. Yoga. Specifically the way in which it is marketed as a relaxing pastime. There is nothing relaxing about twisting yourself into a pretzel and saying “om” a lot.
10. Dubstep. I don’t feel this requires further explanation.
Thankfully, word doesn’t seem to have gotten out about my controversial sexcapades at the weekend. Earlier in the week, the threat of exposure and ridicule felt very real, but, like the rumored Friends reunion, it didn’t really come to anything. Sexmageddon remains a secret.
But of course, the universe is a hormonal son of a preacher man at times, and I’m well overdue a generous helping of bad karma, so inevitably I meet both Vaughan and Carson in the hall at the same time on my way to fourth period. They’re strolling along together, Vaughan carrying a textbook and Carson a basketball, probably chatting about defense tactics or some other sportsball-related subject I have no hope of understanding.
Despite the flurry of activity around the lockers, they both clock me burying my face into my upside-down copy of Wuthering Heights. Ajita smirks dirtily and ushers them over, which is almost definitely a fireable offense as my supposed best friend, but at this point I just have to be thankful that Danny has double AP chemistry this morning and isn’t here to witness such an unfortunate coincidence.
I mean, they are on the same basketball team, so I should really have anticipated this kind of hideous confrontation, but thankfully it doesn’t seem like either of them are aware that I banged the other. These are their reactions to seeing their latest conquest out in the wild:
Carson: Cocky grin, trademark swagger, “Izzzzaaaayyyyyyy.”
Vaughan: Fierce blushing, frenzied throat-clearing, not a word. [Probably picturing the goose-feather cushion and getting aroused all over again.]
“Hello, gentlemen,” I say ever-so-calmly, despite the voice inside my head screaming ABORT ABORT ABORT. Remember how I love all drama except my own? This definitely falls under the category of drama I do not love.
Ajita grins ecstatically next to me, probably wishing she had a bucket of popcorn and some 3D glasses. Her mocking gaze flits between us all in turn, waiting for someone to break the ice. For a minute there’s just the sound of freshmen giggling nearby, and Vaughan flipping awkwardly through his history textbook as though its subject matter is of urgent importance to this nonconversation, then:
“So –”
“D’you –”
Carson and I both start to speak at the same time, then both immediately stop when the other makes a sound, gesturing vaguely to continue, which neither of us do. It is this precise phenomenon that makes me despise phone calls.
Thankfully, Vaughan mutters something inaudible and excuses himself, disappearing in the direction of the chemistry labs. With his history textbook. Very good.
Ajita senses the opportunity for me to chat to Carson and follow through on my teeny-tiny crush, so reluctantly says, “I’ll see you in English, Iz.” She disappears swiftly, giving my elbow a supportive squeeze on the way.
“So I heard your good news,” Carson says, shifting his backpack from one shoulder to the other. “Nice one. Always knew you were funny as hell.”
Those last three words have the same effect on me as a certain other three words would have on most normal people. It turns me to mush. Especially when uttered in that ridiculously attractive voice of his.
“Thanks, man,” I manage to reply, immediately regretting calling him “man”.
“No problem. Long as I can be your arm candy when your movie premieres.” He winks, slowly and exaggeratedly, in a way that lets me know he’s mainly joking, but also a little bit serious.
I play ball. “What’s in it for me?”
He strokes his freshly shaven chin, pretending to consider the options. “Don’t suppose the pleasure of my company would cut it?”
“Hard pass,” I answer matter-of-factly. “I’ve gotta get to class, but lemme know if you come up with anything worth my while.”
Carson’s smile is so massive I can practically see his tonsils, and, to be fair, he has got that movie-star charisma that’d probably make him right at home on the red carpet.
“Will do, O’Neill. Will do.”
12.49 p.m.
Holy hell. So we’re leaving the classroom after a snooze-worthy session on some idiots called Cathy and Heathcliff, ready to meet Danny outside so we can walk to lunch together, when Ajita stops talking abruptly. She’s seen something, or someone, that I haven’t. I follow her gaze.
Carson is leaning back against a row of lockers, bouncing a basketball up and down. He must feel our eyes on him, because he stops dribbling immediately – and doesn’t pick the ball back up, just leaves it mid-bounce and strolls over.
“Hey,” he says, not even registering Ajita’s presence because he’s looking at me so intensely. He smiles another huge smile. “So I thought of something that might convince you to let me be your red-carpet date.”
I smirk. He has specks of red and white paint on his shirt, and the palms of his hands are stained blue. He must’ve come from art class, which is unexpected in itself. “Oh yeah? What’s tha–”
But before I can even finish my sentence, HE KISSES ME!! Right there in the hallway!
He tastes fresh and awesome, like spearmint, and his technique is much better than it was that night at the party. It’s not a full-blown tongues affair, more soft and gentle. I like it. I like it a lot. I drop my copy of Wuthering Heights and let my hands rest on his chest.
When he pulls away, still somehow maintaining his cartoonish grin, I half expect Ajita to give us a round of applause. Instead she just says in a strange voice, “Izzy . . .”
She’s wincing, looking just over my shoulder. I turn around, hands still on Carson.
Danny is standing on the opposite side of the corridor, watching. When I meet his eye, he shakes his head in disgust, slams his fist against the nearest locker and storms off toward the fire exit.
“Crap,” Carson says, big smile fully disappeared. “I didn’t mean to get in the middle of anything. Are you guys –”
“No,” I say quickly. “Not at all. It’s . . . complicated.”
Carson looks relieved, but not altogether convinced. He rubs the back of his head, uncertain. “All right. Well, I guess I’ll catch you later then?”
Somewhat deflated, he picks up his ball and walks away. I turn helplessly to Ajita, who for once does not seem to be enjoying the show.
“It’s not your fault,” she murmurs, grabbing my book off the floor for me. “Really. Danny’s the douche who punched a locker. That was so not cool of him, crush or not. Don’t feel bad, okay?”
“Okay,” I lie, knowing perfectly well I’m going to agonize over this for several hours. Even though I know she’s right, and it was a dick move to cause a scene like that. In fact, I’m kinda mad at him for making Carson feel like shit. “Should I text him? Apologize?”
I don’t even know whether I mean Danny or Carson at this point, but Ajita assumes the former.
“I don’t think so. Just leave him to cool off. Let him come to you. Now, lunch?”
For probably the first time in my life, I don’t finish my cheeseburger. From guilt, and from the butterflies lingering in my tummy from the first sober kiss of my life.