I stand there staring at her, because frankly I can't think of what to say with my head throbbing like it is.
"You girls look like death warmed over," Doreen says, pushing herself past my arm without waiting for an invitation to come inside.
"Tequila," Sable says, her hand on her forehead. "I'm never drinking it again."
"Jonathan said as much," Doreen says. "Go take showers and I'll make you some coffee and pancakes. You need something in your stomachs to soak up the alcohol."
"Doreen, I –" I start, then stop.
"Go," she says, waving me in the direction of the bathroom. "Now."
After I brush my teeth and sit on the floor of the shower with hot water beating down on me for twenty minutes, I feel considerably more life-like than I did before.
When I come out of the bathroom, Sable is in her bathrobe, her hair wrapped up in a towel, sipping coffee. The bags of snacks and tequila have disappeared from the coffee table, and the house smells like bacon. Doreen is in the kitchen, humming to herself.
The fact that she's here right now cooking us breakfast makes me feel worse than ever.
"Take this," she says, thrusting a cup of coffee into my hands when I walk into the kitchen. I sip it, grateful for the caffeine and for something to focus on other than the fact that Colton's mother is standing in my kitchen. "Go sit down," she orders. "I'll bring you girls food."
A few minutes later, she sets plates of bacon and pancakes down on the table, and Sable pops a piece of bacon in her mouth, munching happily. Doreen sits down at the table with a cup of coffee and takes a slow sip.
Then she looks at me. "Now. What the hell did you do to my son?"
Oh God.
Beside me, Sable coughs. "You know what? I think I'm going to take these delicious-looking pancakes into my bedroom because… reasons. Thanks for the breakfast, Mrs. K."
Sable scurries away from the table, practically speed-walking to her bedroom, leaving me here by myself with Colton's mother. Doreen looks at me expectantly. "So?" she prompts me. "Spill the beans."
"I don't know what to say." My voice trembles. "Or where to start."
"Let's start at the place where he's head-over-heels for you," she says.
Head over heels.
"That's not true," I say, my voice cracking. "There's… nothing between us."
"Oh, cut the crap," Doreen blurts. "I'm not your employer. I don't care about whether or not you're supposed to be dating my son."
"We're not dating," I shoot back quickly.
She raises her eyebrows. "Let's not argue about semantics," she says. "I've never seen Colt moon over anyone as much as he moons over you. You make him happy, which makes me happy because I'm an old woman who wants grandchildren."
I nearly spit out my sip of coffee. "Whoa, now. Who said anything about grandchildren?"
"Forget the grandchildren," she says. "Fast forward to whatever happened yesterday that's got Colt sulking around the house and fighting with Jonathan."
"Oh, that." I exhale heavily.
"Yeah, that. Jonathan mentioned that Colt might have screwed a cheerleader but that you said whatever happened was your fault."
"He didn't screw a cheerleader," I say. "That I know of."
"Didn't think so," she says. "My son might be an ass, but if there's one thing he is, it's honest. He's not one to sneak around behind someone's back. So if he were going to screw a cheerleader, you'd know it."
"That's…oddly comforting." Then the full impact of her words hits me. If there's one thing Colton is, it's honest.
Unlike me.
My eyes well up again and I blink back tears. Damn it, am I about to have my period or something? I can't stop crying. I'm not a crier. I can't remember the last time I cried.
Doreen puts her palm on mine. "What happened, honey?"
So I tell her. I tell her the whole story about how I was working on a different thesis topic, but I hated it and wasn't making any headway, and then when I agreed to tutor Colton the new topic popped into my head.
"I wasn't trying to hide it," I say. "Shit. Who am I kidding? I was trying to hide it. I convinced myself it wasn't a big deal. I wasn't putting anything in it about the players, nothing about Colton or the team, I would never do that – and it was really just a literature review and proposal of a study. I didn't tell him, though. Which is basically lying. And then Colton read the first bit of it yesterday, which was really a bad place to read because I was summarizing some theories about aggression in sports that made it really sound like athletes are overgrown children just throwing tantrums or compensating for –"
"That's it?" Doreen interrupts.
"That's the whole story," I say. "It was terrible of me and I should have told him from the beginning."