Still Lives by Maria Hummel
Don’t rub the sleep out of your eyes. It’s beautiful sleep.
A LINE FROM THE FILM A YANK AT OXFORD, CONTRIBUTED BY F. SCOTT FITZGERALD
THURSDAY
1
For the four years I’ve lived in Los Angeles, the Rocque Museum has been my university and my workplace, offering me a degree in contemporary art and the cosmopolitan life—brilliant as the blues in a Sam Francis painting, decadent as a twenty-four-karat cast of a cat testicle. Most days pass in a pleasurable blur of words and pictures. Most nights I hate to leave my little office, especially on April evenings like this, when I can look over my mess of proofs, out to the greening city, and imagine I am still happy.
A couple of blocks down the avenue, a new concert hall is rising like a silver ship from a dirty parking lot. Just past it, I see a theater pavilion, a row of jacaranda trees floating their violet clouds. A mile beyond that, I know the city’s river is still flooding its concrete throat, and I can remember why I came to this place, to live a new life, away from old ghosts.
I would love to stay late tonight in this tiny room, with space enough for my chrome desk and file cabinet, a shelf of art catalogs, and one extra chair for visitors. It’s quiet here past six o’clock. I know where everything is, I have editing to do, and my glass door makes it impossible for people to surprise me. I could wait out the traffic, drive home late in the flowing lights of the 101. On my way, I might glance too many times behind me; I might rush the key in the lock of my peeling bungalow. But I would make it home fast, and there would be fewer silent, empty hours before sleep.
Horns bleat below my window. I look down to see two beverage trucks heading for the intersection that leads to the underpass beneath our avenue. They will take two more turns and disappear down a ramping street tunnel to reach the museum’s loading dock. The party is arriving.
Within a few hours, this whole street will clog with limousines. I need to steal my chance now and leave the Rocque. The entire L.A. art world converges tonight for the museum’s Gala opening of Still Lives, Kim Lord’s latest exhibition. Three hundred guests will arrive to eat, guzzle champagne, and crowd the galleries until the rooms hum and buzz. Then they will parade back outside to make glowing speeches about the artist, and dance. A tangible excitement will push out through their noise, like a ball held underwater. It will be the party of the year. Every show of Kim Lord’s is a moment. Every painting “is so powerful it makes your eyes bleed,” according to her new boyfriend, that up-and-coming gallerist with the crooked grin, Greg Shaw Ferguson.
Nice line. I can guess how Greg said it, too. First he looked the Los Angeles Times interviewer deep in the eyes, as if he were suddenly just seeing her, human to human. Then he spoke the words with a little gravel in his voice, shook his dark blond head, and ignored the reporter to brood on some secret thought. And during that brooding, which lasts just one second too long, she fell for him. They always do.
A white TV news van roars below, heading toward the same intersection. Time to go. Ruminating on Greg’s irritating allure won’t erase my own five-year folly over him, and it might thwart my escape. I sling my bag over my shoulder and grab some proofs to drop off with Yegina, our exhibitions manager and my closest friend. I need a good dose of Yegina’s undying loyalty to the Rocque to inoculate myself against more wallowing. So what if the man who moved to L.A. with me, the man I once thought I would marry, will be squeezing Kim Lord’s hand all night? Phones are ringing off the hook at our membership desk. We might all keep our jobs tomorrow.
When I reach the staircase that winds down the center of the building, I allow myself one slow take of the party I’ll be missing. Our offices rise in a windowed, four-story tower above the low-slung hulk of the museum itself, a 1920s police-car warehouse converted to galleries. The Rocque’s concrete walls, broken by a single glassy, steel-girdered entrance, give us the look of a bygone industrial gem plopped among boring skyscrapers. Our members love the building, but I’m sure its size and design incite the ire of every greedy developer who drives by our footprint on downtown’s best hill.
The museum’s western side is a low gray expanse that flaunts its drabness against the mirroring blaze of bank towers. Tonight, it wears a white banner bearing Kim Lord’s name and a dozen sponsor logos. A red carpet unfurls beside it, under spotlights. Men in vests set out cones to block the street. Here, the limos will drive up, guests pouring out until the sidewalk disappears beneath their gowns. There, people will pause in the glare of cameras, not quite smiling. Then they’ll follow a velvet rope to a staircase half a block away that descends to the delivery underpass below, now transformed into a cocoon of cloth and flowers. No stale ballrooms for Kim Lord’s Gala. I can already imagine all the rich, pleased, apprehensive faces. The way they will glide like souls pouring into Hades.
I tread my own humble path down a corridor of fading art posters to Yegina’s office.
She’s alone, blinking, as if someone just handed her a trophy. She’s a catch, Yegina, not in the favored Angeleno way of being so thin you could double as a cocktail straw, but noteworthy for her inky hair and slyly arching cheekbones.
She waves me in, beaming. “Guess what?”
“You got engaged since lunch without telling me?”
Yegina divorced her white slacker husband last year and is searching for the perfect Asian match, preferably Vietnamese.
“Ha-ha. Guess again,” she says.
“Don finally got in somewhere?” Yegina’s younger brother has been receiving rejections from med schools for the second year in a row. The whole family is devastated.
“They’re going to vote yea or nay on Bas,” she says in a dreamy voice. “At the next board meeting.”
Bas Terrant is the museum’s new director. Yegina loathes his preppy blond zeal and his appeal-to-the-masses agenda to make the Rocque a “must-see destination” instead of a museum. Since Yegina has spent her whole life despising the masses, and ardently defining herself in opposition to them, she’s nearly come to blows with Bas over the exhibition schedule and when she can squeeze in his “people-friendly” new idea, Art of the Race Car.
“I thought he had a three-year contract,” I say.
“It gets crazier.” Yegina shakes her head. “Kim Lord is AWOL. She was supposed to be here this morning for press photos, and she still hasn’t shown up.”
I put my hand on the door. I don’t care if Kim Lord has gone to Pluto. If I leave the Rocque in the next ten minutes, I can beat rush hour home to Hollywood.
“She sent a couple of texts, but she’s not answering her phone.” Yegina pauses dramatically. “PR’s got major interviews lined up before the Gala.” Her eyes catch me sideways and her lashes dip.
I know that look.
“Oh no,” I say, opening the door. “I’m not calling Greg.”
“Just dial and let me talk,” Yegina says. “He’s got to know where she is.”
“It’s too humiliating,” I croak.
“Do you understand that the entire Development department will spontaneously combust if their Gala honoree doesn’t appear on time?” She smiles at me brightly.
It’s true. Our fund-raising team gets increasingly flammable the week before the Gala, and they go off like firecrackers at the slightest provocation. The museum depends on the money they raise, and this year’s party has gotten more buzz than in decades. Art lovers know Kim Lord’s name. They have seen the blood-red banners popping up all over town, and they want to be the first to view her shocking paintings.
“Please,” says Yegina. “I’ll go with you to that stupid pony party this weekend.”
This is serious payback. I’ve been begging her for weeks.