He stood there for a moment, shaking his head with an expression of confusion and awe. “I love everything about you.”
It was at that moment that I realized why his eyes seemed so familiar to me. “You were there,” I whispered, scanning his face.
Beyond the cocktail dresses, the twinkling lights draped from every tree and light post, and the smell of the freshly cut grass and imported flowers my mother insisted on, his eyes flickered in my memory. I pressed deeper, feeling the light sheen of perspiration on my skin from the exceptionally warm night, the smell of the chlorine from the pool, and the sounds of the crowd humming in happy, flowing conversation.
When I glanced across the lawn at my father, I caught the glowing blue eyes of a stranger standing by the koi pond. His tailored suit and absent tie set him apart from the sea of tuxedos. Our eyes connected for only a second before he reluctantly pulled them away to face my father, who was having a low, serious conversation with him.
My memory replayed in slow motion as the chiffon of my short, white dress waved gently against my legs. Once again his stormy blue eyes singled me out of the crowd, and I shied away from his stare.
I snapped back to the present when Jared called my name.
“You were speaking to my father by the pond. That was you,” I said, my eyes wide with realization.
Jared’s brows pulled in. “You remember that?”
“It was just before I’d gone to the pool house. Jack was by the pond, talking with that face he made when he was giving orders.” I tried to recall every detail I could. “You were throwing rocks in the pond; I only saw you for a moment, but that was you, wasn’t it?”
Jared nodded slowly. “I wanted to throw Stacy out, take him somewhere and…I don’t know. Punish him, I guess. Jack refused, but he realized how I felt about you, then. He insisted that my family, including me, be kept a secret from you indefinitely. That was a rough night,” he sighed, rubbing the back of his neck.
“I am so sorry,” I whispered, not knowing what else to say. My heart ached for all the years he’d spent as a ghost.
Jared took my hand in his and pulled it to his chest. It was then that I realized I’d been absently twisting my Peridot ring around my finger.
“I picked up this ring, you know,” he said, softly pressing his lips against my fingers. “Cynthia was up to her neck in party details and she’d forgotten to get it,” he smiled. “And because you were in my father’s presence, I was sent to pick it up for you.”
“Great. They used you as a gopher.”
“I volunteered. I wanted to,” he explained. “I can’t describe the way it made me feel to see your smile when you opened the box. You were so pleased with it, and I had a part in that,” he said. His smile faded. “Later, it helped a little with the…misery of never being able to console you when I’d see you twist this ring around your finger. I know it sounds ridiculous, but it has always been comforting to see you reach for it when you’re upset.”
I stared at him, bewildered. I wasn’t sure how to feel; even with the suspicions I’d already had, I couldn’t have prepared myself for what he was telling me.
“Please don’t leave,” Jared whispered, still holding my hand to his chest.
I looked down at my feet and then reached down to unbuckle the straps of my shoes from around my ankles. “You’d just follow me if I left, right?” I said, kicking off my shoes.
“Even if it weren’t my job,” he said with an impish grin. He looked down at my bare feet. “I’m glad you’re staying, we still have quite a bit to discuss.”
“There’s more?”
Jared nodded and led me to his small, grey couch.
“Maybe we should save the rest for another night. It’s a lot to take in,” he sighed.
I ignored him. “Why did you sit beside me on that bench the night of Jack’s funeral?”
“You were crying. Jack was gone. I couldn’t think of any more reasons to stay away.”
“What about your father? Didn’t Gabe care that you were breaking the rules?”
Jared looked to the floor. “He died the morning of your father’s funeral.” He spoke as if exhaustion had just set in.
I gasped. “Gabe is…?” I couldn’t finish.
Jared had comforted me just hours after his own father’s death. I gently pulled his chin to face me. His eyes were thick with grief, as if he was experiencing it for the first time.
It dawned on me how it must have felt to Jared, to see me suffering, and the deep need he struggled with to make it go away. I felt the same urgency that very moment. My eyes focused on the thin line between his lips, and I moved a bit closer to him.
Jared rested his soft hands on each side of my face. He leaned in slowly, inches from my mouth. His jaw tensed; he seemed to be struggling with what he had been told was the right thing to do and what he wanted.
He shook his head. “This isn’t why I brought you here,” he said, pulling away from me.
“I know,” I sighed.