Elizabeth pulled away from him, her body trembling with frustration.
“Come on,” he whispered, trying to soothe her. “I just can’t take that chance right now. I’m worried about these soldiers everywhere.”
After another moment, Michael decided to be totally honest with her. “Actually, Elizabeth, I’m just really worried about that one soldier from the other day.”
“So it is true what Leah said?”
Michael’s eyes widened. “What did she tell you?”
“She told me the soldier could take me and force me to marry him. Could he really?”
He waved his hands in the air, shaking his head several times. “No, no, no. I won’t let that happen. If he took you, I would have no way to get you back. I can’t lose you. I can’t.”
Elizabeth was terrified now. Michael could see her body stiffen, her hands clenched at her sides. He wrapped his arms around her.
“Remember this, Baboo: no one will ever take you. I won’t let it happen.” Michael kissed the top of her head. “Come on. Show me this Cassie,” he said, smiling, as he led her back across the courtyard to the lamb.
Elizabeth kept her arm around him as they headed toward the tree. “You know, if we are stuck here for a bit, maybe we should look for Mom.”
Michael pulled away and held her at arm’s length. “Elizabeth, you know I want that more than anything in the world. But your safety is more important. Let’s just see what happens, okay?”
She nodded before leaving him to walk ahead.
Following her, he stepped into a puddle. “Man, there’s so much water on the ground.” Michael began moving his right foot back and forth across the muddied ground, trying to spread it out so it would dry faster.
“Dad, what are you doing? It’s just from the jug that Leah dropped before. It’s no big deal. It’ll dry up.”
“Hey, Sammie, come down, let’s play!” he called upstairs while watching the rain pelt the casement window. His younger sister was a gullible little girl who loved to be the center of attention, which meant he knew how to manipulate her.
She dropped her Curious George coloring book on the kitchen table and headed downstairs to join him. “Okay,” she said in her sweet, innocent voice, “what do you want to play?”
“Go upstairs and get a loaf of bread,” Michael said quietly, “and don’t let Mom see. I’m going to show you a new game.”
Samantha was excited: her older brother was going to play with her. She recognized the enormity of this event and quickly sprinted up the stairs. She peeked around the corner to the living room. Rebecca was nowhere in sight. Jetting through the hallway and into the kitchen, Samantha hopped up on a chair and grabbed the loaf of Wonder bread from the top of the refrigerator.
Back in the basement, Michael set the bread down next to him. He took a worn Bible from the bookcase and draped an old tablecloth around his body. After covering the rusty metal table between them with some stained red, white, and blue napkins left over from the Fourth of July, he found a discarded plastic cup behind the couch and rinsed it in the utility sink in the corner. Michael filled it with water and carried it carefully to the table. Then he pulled out several slices of bread and tore them into small pieces. Placing them on the napkins, he looked up toward the ceiling.
“What are you doing?”
“Shh,” Michael said quietly, “we’re at mass.”
“No, we’re not.”
“Pretend we are.”
Samantha shrugged, gazing innocently at her big brother. “Okay, I guess. What should I do?”
“Just be quiet for now. If you’re good, I’ll let you have Communion. But don’t tell Mom: you’re too young to eat it.”
Samantha smiled, thinking that this was getting good. “Okay, I won’t tell,” she promised solemnly, adding, “I won’t get you in trouble.”
“Good.” Michael looked up at the ceiling again and made the sign of the cross. As he tore another slice into pieces he whispered, “This is my body, do this in memory of me . . .”
He held the cup of water over his head. “This is my blood, do this in memory of me.” Michael looked down into the cup to see if the water had changed to wine.
“Ew, gross. Let me see!” Samantha grabbed his arm, throwing him off-balance and spilling the water on the floor. She watched as the water pooled toward the edge of their mother’s favorite old rug, soaking the tassels. “Mommy’s rug!” She added in a voice only he could hear, “Oooh, are you in trouble!”
“What’s going on down there?” Rebecca shouted from above.
Michael could hear the annoyance in her voice and felt the familiar knot growing in his stomach. “Nothing!”
He turned sharply toward his sister and hissed, “Shut up.”
Samantha took a dramatic breath but Michael covered her mouth with his hand. “Cut it out and I’ll let you have some of the bread now.”
She nodded happily as Michael offered her a small piece. She shook her head. “I want a bigger one.”
“Okay, okay, here’s a big piece.”
Samantha swallowed it seriously while holding her tiny hands together just as she had seen her mommy and daddy do at Sunday mass. “I wish I had a hat like Mommy wears.”
“You don’t need one.”
Then Michael offered her a sip of the water.
“Yuck, I’m not drinking from that,” she said, making a face, “you drank from it.”
“Just drink it, Sammie. Remember, you have to pretend it’s wine, so only take a little sip.”
His little sister perked up. She was able to be a grown-up while playing with her brother. She nodded and reached for the cup. It slipped from her hands and clattered on the tiled floor.
Michael froze in horror.
“Now look what you did!” Samantha yelled. “You made me spill it.”
“I did not. You dropped it!”
Samantha started to cry and Michael heard angry footsteps. Their mother was coming down the staircase. From where they sat, he could already see the bottom of her shoes.
“What’s going on down there?”
“Nothing,” Michael said, praying that she wouldn’t come down any farther. He knew it was no use. Nothing always meant “something” in the Stewart house.
Thump, thump, thump. Three more steps and she was able to peer over at them in the corner. He watched her take it all in—the water on the floor, the mangled bread on the table. She swiftly came down the rest of the stairs and towered over them.
“What’s going on here?” she asked quietly.
Michael hated the quiet voice. It was worse than the shouting because he knew what was coming.
“Look at this mess. Who did this?”
She noticed his sleeve was wet, and her voice grew even more calm and frightening. “Did you do this, Michael?”
Michael remained absolutely still, silent.
“Are you going to answer?”
More silence.
“I’d better get an answer or you’ll be in the house for the rest of the summer.” Rebecca crossed her arms. “And your father will have to deal with you.”
Neither one answered. His mom’s face became even angrier. Her hands were clenched. Michael kept his head down slightly and stared at her brown loafers. Sears Roebuck.
“Fine, you can stand down here all day long. Just wait till he gets home.”
Samantha began to sob. Her best friend’s birthday party was tomorrow and she knew her dad wouldn’t let her go. She cracked.
“I did it.”
Michael’s jaw dropped. Was she stupid?
Rebecca’s eyes narrowed. “Michael, upstairs!”
Michael looked over at Samantha, remaining perfectly still.
“Get upstairs now, I said!”
He reached the top of the stairs but lingered in the doorway. He hoped because his sister was small and young that she would just be sent to her room. But he was wrong.
Whack! He jumped. His sister’s scream went through him like a knife in his stomach. Whack, whack, whack. He started to cry.