“Okay, so we continue to pretend.” She said treating me to an eye roll as she sat in the chair across from me. “Did you have a fight with Rico?”
“I thought we were pretending.” I said hopefully as I stirred the creamer into my coffee. She shot me a warning look to give it up. “Fine… things are a mess between me and Rico and I am afraid it’s my fault.”
“What happened?” She asked giving me her undivided attention. I loved how attentive my sister was with me so eager to help me unravel my problems. I hope that one day she will allow me to return the favor.
“Mikey.” I said, taking a sip of my coffee. Closing my eyes, I silently damned Mikey with his good looks and bad boy tendencies to hell.
“Mikey?” She raised an eyebrow pointing an accusing finger at me. “Spill.”
I cringed taking a deep breath before I spilled the whole sorted story to my one and only confidant. “Ever since Mikey came home, I’ve been a disaster. I don’t even know if I love Rico because all I can think about is Mikey. How can I love him if it’s that easy to forget him? I can’t control myself around Mikey. I look at him and my body goes haywire! One minute his eyes get to me looking all sad and tormented. All I want to do is make him feel better take him in my arms and make it all go away. The next minute it’s his muscles. If he wears a T-shirt I become a blithering fool and all I can think about is holding onto his arms as he screws my brains out.” I gasped as the words flew out of my mouth. Adrianna’s mouth fell open, forming a perfect O as she stared at me wide-eyed.
“Nikki!” She covered her mouth to hide the laughter that threatened. Sure, laugh it up Sis. I stared daggers at her, forcing her to pull herself together.
“Don’t you dare laugh at me!” I warned. “I’m so out of control that… oh god. I can’t even say it.” I threw my head into my hands shamefully.
“Okay, big deal.” Adrianna said calmly. “So you’ve got the hots for Mikey. I for one am not surprised you’ve had a crush on him since you were ten years old.”
“This is far passed just a crush.” I said, muffled by my hands.
“Well, it’s definitely inconvenient because of Rico.” She said before sighing. “You might not want to hear this, but Nikki maybe you and Rico should take a break.”
I lifted my head to meet her gaze. I was so not expecting that from my sister.
“Hear me out. Mikey isn’t going anywhere and the crush you have on him doesn’t appear to be either. I mean ten years later and you’re still pining away for him. I know you care about Rico so before you are tempted to do something you might regret—“
“It’s too late!” I exclaimed. “I may have coerced Mikey into phone sex.” I coughed, trying to cover my words.
“You had phone sex with Mikey? Wait a minute, how exactly—“
“Don’t ask for details please.” I begged. “We sort of kissed, but Anthony walked in.”
“Anthony caught you two kissing?”
“Well, we were about to I mean he completely walked in at the wrong time killing the mood. Anyway, I left after that and went home. I thought Mikey was calling me to say it was a mistake and to apologize for kissing me. I didn’t want to hear it. I didn’t want him to say he was sorry for doing something we both wanted. He said it wasn’t a real kiss he baited me really, so I let my curiosity get the best of me and I kind of asked him to describe what it would’ve been like if he had really kissed me.” I felt my face flush just thinking about it. I could still hear Mikey’s gruff voice telling me he’d fuck my mouth. I looked at my sister noticing her mouth was agape.
“Well don’t stop there.” She said swallowing as she leaned her elbows on the table resting her chin in her hands giving me her full attention as I continued with my sorted tale.
“It just sort of escalated from there we started telling one another what we would like to do to the other. I mean they were just words, but hearing him say them knowing he was just as affected by them, it turned me on. I could hear the control slip from his voice as he started to pant. I couldn’t help myself.”
“Oh My God!” Adrianna said covering her mouth with one hand. “You didn’t?”
“I did.” I groaned. “But he did too!” Silence is such an awkward thing, especially after you’ve just admitted to masturbating while on the phone with your childhood crush.
“Adrianna say something.” I begged.
“I don’t know what to say…” She said honestly causing me to groan in response. Maybe coming here was a bad idea. I mean, did I really expect her to have any answers for me she had her own shit track record with men. I think the Pastore girls were destined for failed relationships it seemed to be the one thing we excelled at serial dating at its finest.
“Okay, so what happened afterward?” She said trying her hardest to make sense of my predicament.
“I ended the call and threw my phone across the room.” I said obviously. What did she suggest I do?