So you would think I’d be a happy motherfucker, with sore balls and a worn out dick. Well two of those are true, but I am far from happy, because Dani is preparing to run. I can’t allow that and it’s making me crazy. I need her to trust me, to be open with me. Of course she was doing that and I jumped the gun and fucked it all up, obviously I’m an idiot.
We’re all at the beach now at Twin Rocks picnic shelter. Dragon had this idea that the club needed to spend some time together. I agreed because I get my woman in a bathing suit and I’m not a fool. She’s in my arms and we’re playing in the water while Drag and Dance grill and the other girls are taking in the sun. Bull is off talking to the other brothers and Freak is shooting me looks. I feel a tinge of guilt every time he does. I’m going to have to deal with shit and soon. Not today though. Today I need to make sure that I give Dani every reason to hang on to us.
“You’re so fucking beautiful you make me hurt,” I tell her. We’re sitting in the water, just on the edge. It splashes against my sides as the waves push into the bank. Dani is in my lap her arms hanging loosely behind my neck, her eyes looking down at me and her legs wrapped around my waist. Her hair is wet and pulled from her face and she’s smiling…at me. If I could have this for the rest of my life, I’d be a happy motherfucker. How often have I thought this lately? It just keeps getting truer every day.
She tilts her head to the side and looks at me, like she’s trying to figure out life’s biggest mystery.
“Beauty fades, Zander. It can be changed or altered, it can even be fixed. You should have seen my stomach before Dr. Bradens got a hold of me.”
I bend down and place a small kiss on her stomach. “It wouldn’t matter to me what you look like. You’d still be beautiful, never forget that, Hellcat.”
She takes a deep breath and then looks over the beach, before her eyes come back to mine. “I’m thinking the fact that we’re fucking is no longer a secret.”
“Thank, fuck. I want the world to know.”
She leans down and places a light kiss on my lips, but I can’t let it stop at that. I slide my tongue into her mouth and deepen the kiss. It’s long, it’s slow and it’s sweet. “I love you, Hellcat,” I whisper against her lips.
“I love you too, Zander.”
Our foreheads touch and we stay like that and I wish I could freeze the moment forever, because it is that perfect.
Then…all hell breaks loose.
Gunfire rings out repeatedly. The sand around us pings with either the casings or the real fucking bullets, I have no way of knowing and I’m not about to stop and look. I instantly flip Dani and me over, so I can lay on top of her. I don’t have a fucking thing for cover, but me and I’m glad that I’m so much bigger than her so I can hide her body. She’s whimpering underneath me and I kiss her ear, keeping my head down and trying not to move.
“Let me up, Zander. God don’t do this, you need to go take cover,” she cries and I move just enough so I can kiss one of her eyes. There’s sand on her eyelid, but her salty tears mingle and hurt me.
“Shhh…sweetheart. My brothers have this. It’s going to be okay. Just hold still a few more minutes.”
Just like that it ends. The ringing of the shots stop and the sound of a vehicle peeling out from the parking lot above can be heard. I get up and pull Dani up carefully. I rake the excess sand off her body, and check her over for marks. Satisfied that she’s okay, I pull her close to me and walk towards Dragon. He’s checking over his woman and issuing orders at the same time. He looks at me and Dance and orders us to go with him. I want to scream, fuck no. I need to be close to my woman. I can’t.
“Freak. You keep close to Dani for me?”
Freak is mad, I see it all over his face, but he agrees. I think I’ve run out of time to come clean to my brothers. I look down at Dani and kiss her again, but quickly and with just a small taste of her mouth.
“I’ll be back Hellcat, stay safe.”
“Don’t get hurt, Zander. Please? I couldn’t handle it if something happened to you.”
“I’ll be fine. You just be waiting when I get back. I love you Melly.”
I thought she would kiss me again, she doesn’t she pulls away from me and turns toward Gunner and Freak. I know she’s blaming herself for this. It pisses me off. I can’t get into it right now though. I have to go with my brothers.
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