Within These Walls

He looked away from her angry face and focused on a young woman rocking a baby in its car seat with her foot. She was reading a tattered old paperback, probably something she’d picked up used for a dime at the local Goodwill. But it was her posture that fascinated him most. So casual, as though she’d been to Lambert Correctional every week for as long as her baby had been alive; maybe six or seven months before it had ever been born.

 

Ten minutes turned into twenty. Lucas was eventually ushered into a room with small lockers situated behind a waist-high counter. The prison guard peered at him as Lucas removed all items from his pockets—keys, cell phone, loose change—and slid them across the surface to be stored. His messenger bag went in as well, but the guard allowed him to keep his yellow legal pad of notes and a handheld digital voice recorder to conduct his interview. He wasn’t allowed to bring a pen. Lucas had seen enough prison movies to not question why.

 

The guard patted him down, then wanded him for good measure before motioning for him to step over to the barred door on the opposite wall. A second officer met him on the other side of the bars before a loud buzzer screamed and the door slid open.

 

The guard who greeted him inside the belly of the prison wore a name badge that read “J E MORALES.” He was a tall, lanky man, maybe in his early thirties, with mocha-colored skin and a faint limp on his left. His smile was wide, almost triumphant.

 

“Mr. Graham? It’s a real honor,” he said, grabbing Lucas’s hand. “I read your book, the one about Ramirez?” It was always the one about Ramirez. “Man, it was good. You really captured the, uh . . . what’s the word . . .” He waved a hand above his head, trying to summon the right term. “The atmosphere,” he said, snapping his fingers at his own success. “I was born and raised in L.A. just outside of Monterey Park, where he shot that girl and attacked that old couple, you know?”

 

On top of killing Tsai-Lian “Veronica” Yu and assaulting and murdering one of the Dois, Richard Ramirez had also beaten a sixty-one-year-old woman to death in that same part of town. Lucas didn’t bother to bring up the omission. “That was one of the hardest hit areas,” he agreed.

 

“I was just a kid,” Morales said. “My parents were shitting bricks. Ramirez was one of the reasons I decided to become a cop.” He paused, as if going back to the memory of growing up in a terrorized Los Angeles, then shook his head. “I worked the beat for a while, but my mom was always waiting for a call, you know? Waiting for el segador . . .” He paused. “You speak Spanish?”

 

“Not really,” Lucas said.

 

“That means ‘the reaper,’ ” he said. “She was always crossing herself, praying for me on Sundays, counting off her rosary beads so I wouldn’t get shot in some alley in El Este.”

 

Lucas had spent enough time in California to be familiar with El Este—East L.A.

 

“It was mostly just robberies and car theft, lots of domestic disturbances . . . but it was rough, you know? My mom couldn’t handle what I did too good, so I applied as a guard at San Quentin. She wasn’t too happy about that, either, it being so far from home and all, but in her eyes, it was better than me being out on the streets.”

 

Lucas gave the chatty guard a nod. He appreciated the distraction. A silent walk into the bowels of Lambert Correctional would have only made Lucas sick with anxiety. It was a strange coincidence to run into such an avid fan, but he was thankful. Scared that the guy would suddenly stop talking and Lucas would be left to wrestle with his own self-doubt, he kept the conversation rolling.

 

“San Quentin,” he said. “You know that’s where—”

 

“Where they had Ramirez locked up? Yeah, man, I know. Everyone knew. I was working general population, so I was never in the same unit as him, but I knew he was there. I tried to get in to see him, but you know how it is, rules and regulations and all that. It was weird when he died.”

 

“Weird how?”

 

“Like, just weird,” Morales said. “You felt good that this guy was gone, right? But you felt bad because you aren’t supposed to feel good about people going to the other side.”

 

“Did you call your mom when it happened?”

 

Morales’s face lit up at the inquiry. “Oh, hell yeah, I did,” he said with a laugh. “I called her that same day and told her, Mama, el monstruo está muerto and she started doing Hail Marys right there on the phone. She’s read your book, too. I recommended it.” He paused, smiled apologetically. “She hated it. Sorry, man.”

 

Lucas bit back a laugh. “Great. Maybe I’ll send her my next one as a mea culpa.”

 

“A what?”

 

“An apology.”

 

“So, you don’t speak Spanish but you speak Latin?” Morales asked.

 

“No.” Lucas chuckled. “Just that and a few other things. Alibi. Alter ego. Stuff like that.”

 

“ ‘Alter ego’ is Latin?”

 

“Yep.”

 

“Huh.” Morales looked mystified. “Then I guess I speak Latin, too. Man, it’s good to meet you!” He beamed again, smacked Lucas on the back like a lifelong pal. “I lived in L.A. all my life, but I’ve never met a real-life celebrity before.”

 

Celebrity. Lucas nearly scoffed at that, but instead, he bit his tongue and offered the overly eager guard a smile.

 

The pair arrived at a second set of bars. There was a small office to the left, thick glass separating them from the guard inside. Morales gave the guy a nod and waited. The buzzer sounded, the bars slid aside, and they continued their walk.

 

“So, you tried to get to Ramirez; what about Jeffrey Halcomb?” Lucas asked. “Have you met him?”

 

Morales shrugged, as if suddenly reluctant to talk. “Yeah, I mean, it’s part of the job. He’s okay. Quiet, but I’m sure you know that, right? Him not giving anyone interviews or anything. He doesn’t cause too much trouble.”

 

“You know about his refusing interviews?” Lucas asked. It was interesting that a guard would be privy to that sort of information. How well did Morales know Halcomb? “Are you on one-on-one terms with him?”

 

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