‘I, er… It is. An extremely bad word. Sorry, Poppet. I banged my head.’ He smiled tightly, his eyes travelling to Jade, who’d clearly gathered the reason for him cursing out loud.
‘Oh no!’ Looking alarmed, Poppy hurried across to him. ‘Does it hurt?’ she asked, her little brow now creased with sympathy.
‘Yes. It does. It hurts quite a lot,’ Mark said throatily, turning to park the bottle of vodka he’d fished from the cupboard on the work surface.
Forty-Two
JADE
Noting the number of the incoming call, Jade left Poppy to her cereal and dashed out the back door to answer it.
‘It’s my fault!’ Dylan blurted in her ear, before she had a chance to speak. ‘It’s my fault. She’s just lying there, and I—’
‘Whoa, Dylan, slow down. What’s happened? What’s your fault?’
‘Me mum! She’s… dead! She’s…’ Emitting a guttural sob, Dylan broke off.
‘Stay where you are,’ Jade said firmly. ‘Don’t touch anything or say anything. Not to anyone, Dylan.’
Dylan choked back another distraught sob. And another.
Hell, he was losing it. ‘Dylan!’ Jade felt panic twisting inside her. ‘Do you hear me?’
‘It’s my fault!’ Dylan repeated, sounding like a distraught parrot.
‘Dylan, it is not your fault! You weren’t even there,’ Jade barked. ‘Were you?’ she tacked on quickly.
Dylan sniffled snottily. ‘No,’ he said timidly, after a second. ‘I was fixing the barn roof, and when I finished I couldn’t find her. I thought she’d gone out, like you said, but…’ He broke off with another sob.
‘No one will blame you, Dylan, I promise.’ Jade softened her tone. She needed him to get a grip. God forbid he should get it into his thick head to dial 999. ‘But you have to listen to me. You need to stay calm, stay there and not talk to anyone – don’t even use the phone. Can you do that for me?’
There was a hiccuppy pause. ‘Uh-huh,’ Dylan replied uncertainly. ‘Will you come?’
‘Of course I will. I’ll be there as soon as I’ve dropped Poppy off at school,’ Jade assured him. ‘It will be fine, my love. I’ll help you sort it all out. Just make yourself a cup of sweet tea and sit tight. Okay?’
‘Okay,’ Dylan said, sounding somewhat relieved.
Thank God for that. Dylan subdued, for the moment, Jade hurried back inside to finish making Mark’s coffee. She needed to be gone, but first she needed to check how the land lay here. They hadn’t kissed and made up, she was aware of that. Other than to say goodnight to Poppy and Evie, Melissa had stayed in her bedroom. And no wonder. Clearly, she’d decided to keep a low profile. Mark had been white with anger when Jade had left to fetch the McDonald’s, and then subdued when she had arrived back. She’d learned from Melissa when she’d taken her some warm soup, with the necessary extra ingredient, that they’d argued about the catastrophe that was dinner. He’d been avoiding her since, Melissa had said shakily, meaning Mark had valiantly restrained himself rather than tackle the ridiculous woman about her drinking habit. Probably because it would lead to the inevitable argument, which Jade knew Mark desperately didn’t want his children to witness. He really was a lovely man. After helping Poppy with her Peppa Pig construction kit before her bedtime, he’d spent the rest of the evening listening to his music – trying to distract himself, Jade guessed. Then he’d spent the night on the sofa, fetching a pillow and sheets from the airing cupboard this time, which meant it might be becoming a more permanent arrangement.
Perfect. Jade hummed happily to herself. Who would have thought a little lump of clay could wreak such havoc?
‘All finished?’ She smiled brightly at Poppy as she passed by with the coffee.
‘Yup,’ Poppy said, picking her bowl up and tipping the last dregs of milk towards her mouth.
‘Good girl,’ Jade said, though she felt sorely tempted to slap her. Ill-mannered glutton. She really did have to go. ‘Go and get your shoes on then, sweetheart,’ she urged her. ‘I have an appointment this morning. If you’re really quick getting ready, I’ll bring you some sweets later. How does that sound?’
‘Yay!’ Poppy clapped delightedly, slid off her chair and skipped happily to the stairs.
Spoiled little brat. Quashing her irritation, Jade went quietly into the lounge. There was a chance Mark might still be sleeping. After all that had gone on, Jade doubted he’d had a very restful night.
But she found him sitting on the sofa, contemplating the bottle of vodka on the coffee table, obviously debating how to tackle his self-centred, needy wife about it. Poor Mark. Jade’s heart went out to him. ‘Morning,’ she said, toning down the cheeriness. She didn’t want to appear insensitive.
Mark dragged his hands tiredly over his face and got to his feet. ‘Morning.’ He forced a smile, for her sake, bless him.
‘I made you a coffee,’ Jade said, walking across to put the mug on the table. ‘With extra caffeine. I thought you could use it.’ Glancing at the vodka, she smiled sympathetically.
‘I could.’ Mark sighed, a world-weary sigh. ‘Cheers, Jade,’ he said, moving to bundle up his sheets, which were in a bit of a tangle. Definitely not a restful night then, Jade deduced.
‘How are you feeling?’ she asked, reaching to help him.
‘Okay,’ Mark lied. ‘A bit tired.’ He paused, a wretched look in his eyes. ‘I’m sorry about all this, Jade,’ he said, glancing embarrassedly away and back again. ‘If you wanted to hand in your notice, I’d quite understand.’
‘And leave you in the lurch? I wouldn’t dream of it. The children need stability above all else right now. I don’t want to add to their troubles.’ She flapped a sheet and folded it briskly. ‘I could cancel my arrangements, though, if it would help. Under the circumstances, I mean.’
‘Arrangements?’ Mark’s expression was one of confusion. And mild panic, Jade noticed, gratified. He was going to miss her. But not half as much as she would miss him.
‘I mentioned it to Mel. My friend, Samantha… she gets the result of her biopsy today. I said I’d go with her.’
‘God, no, don’t cancel,’ Mark said emphatically. ‘Go. I’m sure we can manage for…?’ he trailed off on a question, his look now hopeful.
God love him. He really was in an intolerable situation. The sooner Jade could get him out of it, the better. ‘Just the one day,’ she assured him. ‘She lives in London though, so I wouldn’t be back until quite late.’
‘No problem.’ Mark smiled, relieved. ‘I’m off for a couple of days, so I can look after Evie and collect Poppy. I’m guessing you could use a break anyway, although that’s probably not much of a break. Give your friend my best. I hope it all turns out okay for her.’
Even now, he was thinking of others. Jade’s heart fluttered inside her. A gem, he really was. ‘I’ll take Poppy to school on my way,’ she said. ‘Evie’s fast asleep. She’s due a feed at nine. You have my mobile if you need it. Good luck with…’ Pausing, Jade glanced again at the vodka. ‘Everything.’
‘Yeah, thanks. I might need it.’ His look now, Jade noticed with quiet satisfaction, was one of utter despair.
* * *
Seeing Dylan standing at the far side of the pig field, Jade called to him as she climbed out of the car. When he didn’t respond, she called out again, and then cursed and heaved the gate open to head towards him.
‘Dylan!’ Jade was seriously irritated now. Squelching through mud and pig shit in her trainers was most definitely not on her list of favourite things to do.
Finally, he turned towards her as she skirted around the pig house, careful to give Inky and bloody Oinky a wide berth. ‘It’s my fault,’ he said pitifully, his face the colour of damp putty and slick with sweat.
‘Dylan…’ Jade tempered her tone and tried to hide her annoyance. Could he not hear himself? He sounded like a two-year-old, for God’s sake. ‘Whatever’s happened, it is not—’