Yuki had to know for sure. Was Paul’s death a homicide, a suicide, an accident, or undetermined? She said to Bunny, “He was a witness in my case. How long before we have a determination in manner and cause of death?”
“I’ll have Claire call you, okay?”
“Wait. Bunny, do you have the name of the officer or officers who called it in?”
Once Yuki had the names of the first officers, she called Lindsay and asked her to look up the report.
“Okay. I’ve got the file,” said Lindsay. “What it says is that Paul Yates was found dead in his apartment this morning by his girlfriend, who was worried when he didn’t answer his phone. He used a clothesline tied to his bedroom doorknob, strung over the top of the door, knotted around his neck. It’s written up as an apparent suicide.”
Yuki texted Parisi and then called Arthur again. After she briefed him, he asked, “What do we do now?”
“I want to speak with Marc Christopher.”
“How can I help?”
“Go to the ME’s office and wait for Yates’s death certificate. I’ll leave word that you’re there.”
CHAPTER 92
SOMETHING WAS HAPPENING to me that I didn’t understand.
I was swimming in darkness, surrounded by garbled voices. I was both numb and cold, and my head hurt.
Is this a really bad dream?
Hands plucked at me. Someone slapped my cheek. I wanted to sink back into the swirl of underwater, but consciousness intruded. Whatever was happening was too real to be a dream.
I opened my eyes.
A patch of the floor came into focus and I recognized the pattern of the ceramic tiles. A row of half doors filled my peripheral view. And then there were the shoes. Pale-colored shoes with sponge soles. Red ballet flats. I knew then that I was in the ladies’ room at the end of the hall from the squad room. I was lying half under a sink, but I didn’t remember coming here.
Brenda, our PA, yelled into my face. Her expression scared me.
“Lindsay, can you hear me?” she shouted. “What the heck happened?”
She was terrified. Had I been shot?
I said, “I don’t know.” That was the whole truth and nothing but.
I wasn’t ready to move, but I lifted my head and tried to make sense of the clamor. Paramedics had crammed into the small bathroom and were attempting to lift me onto a stretcher. I fought back. What had happened to me?
A man stooped down. His name was stitched above his pocket: A. MURPHY.
“I’m Andy,” he told me. “Can you remember what happened to you?” He had other questions, and I tried to answer them.
“In the ladies’ room … Lindsay Boxer … Two fingers … Wednesday … George Washington … I’m fine.”
“I’ll be the judge of that, Lindsay. Now tell me the last thing you remember.”
This was the second time I said this and it was still the truth. “I don’t know what happened.”
Another paramedic pricked my finger. Someone put a stethoscope to my chest. Andy shined a light into one eye, then the other.
“That’s good, Lindsay,” he said.
Fingers pressed across my wrist as Andy asked me more questions about my health—history of heart disease, previous episodes of blacking out, name of GP, last time I’d had a checkup. I struggled to sit up. I had pain in my shoulder and my forehead.
“I remember now. I came in here to wash my hands before having lunch. I must have passed out.”
Andy said, “That sounds right. Syncope. Your blood glucose is about normal. Your blood pressure is within normal range,” and he asked me to help him out by getting onto the stretcher. There was no way they could carry me out the narrow doorway on that thing.
My strength was coming back and so was my mind. I was feeling madder.
I said, “I’m fine, Andy. Please let me up. I’ve fainted once or twice before when I haven’t eaten. I haven’t eaten today. I’ve been busy. Look. Will someone just help me the fuck up?”
Hands went under my armpits. I was hoisted onto my feet. I felt woozy, but with the support of strong hands and a counter of sinks, I stood steady as a rock.
“I’m okay, see?”
Andy Murphy said, “There’s a pretty big knot coming up on your forehead. Emergency docs should check you out at Metro, give you a CT scan. If you were my sister, I’d insist on that. It’s the right thing to do, Lindsay.”
“Thanks. No. I’ll call my husband. He’ll drive me home.”
“We can’t make you come with us, but you do have to sign this,” said the paramedic, handing me a release. I signed it with a flourish. I thanked everyone. Brenda walked with me to my desk and I called Joe. I was scared, but I tried not to let him hear the throbbing freak-out in my voice.
I still hadn’t made an appointment to see Dr. Glenn Arpino, but I had to do it. I couldn’t justify putting it off any longer. Problem was, I was pretty sure that I now knew what was wrong with me.
It was a terrifying thought, and I couldn’t bear it. So I shoved it to the back burner.
I would deal with it tomorrow.
CHAPTER 93
YUKI WATCHED MARC Christopher squirm in one of the two metal-frame chairs across from her desk.
He leaned his crutch against the second chair. She moved her lamp a few inches, placed her phone where Marc could see it, and pressed Record.
“I’m recording our meeting.”
“Why?”
“You have a problem speaking on the record, Marc?”
“I guess not. But why do you want to do it?”
“I want to ask you some questions about Paul Yates,” Yuki said. “I’ve seen his death certificate. It’s official. Suicide by hanging. Do you have any idea why he killed himself?”
Marc’s defiance withered, and it looked like tears were about to spring out of his eyes. Yuki really didn’t care.
Marc cleared his throat a couple of times and said, “I just heard. It’s horrible. I haven’t spoken with Paul since, I don’t know. A week. I don’t know what to say.”
Yuki asked him again. “Marc. Do you have any thoughts why he would have hanged himself?”
“You’re asking if it’s about what happened during the trial?”
Yuki didn’t answer, just kept her eyes on Marc.
Marc said, “Maybe you’re right. Oh, man. He’s a pretty sensitive guy. Was. I shouldn’t have even told you about him. You would never have even heard his name if it weren’t for me. Oh, my God. I don’t know what to do or say. I want it all to stop.”
“Did you know that when Paul was in college, he was arrested for trying to blackmail a professor?”
Marc looked at her as if she were pointing a gun at him.
He said, “No. Of course not.”
Yuki slapped her desk. “Stop lying to me.”
He recoiled, then said, “Okay, okay, Paul told me about what he did in college. I don’t see what that has to do with anything. It was harmless. Look. Yuki. I want you to drop the charges against Briana. This has gotten out of hand. Can we just draw this whole thing to a close?”
“Drop the charges? You mean I should tell the judge what, Marc? The prosecution changed its mind?”
“Can you do that?”
“Tell me what happened with you, Paul, and Briana,” she said.
“What more is there to tell?” he asked her.
“Plenty. Feel free to fill in the blanks.”
Yuki took a sheet of paper out of a folder on her desk and flashed it at Marc.
“This is Paul’s suicide note.”
“No. Please. Please don’t read it to me.”
“I’ll skip around,” Yuki said. “Paul said that he’s sorry. He didn’t mean to lie about Briana. He wishes he’d never met you, Marc. He wishes he’d aimed higher when he shot you, at your request.”
Marc was saying, “Oh, God. Oh, God,” and crying now, hands over his eyes. Compared with the tears he had shed on the witness stand, this was a very ugly cry.
Yuki went on. “Here’s a quote: ‘Please tell Briana I know what I did was wrong and I am more sorry than she can ever know or believe for hurting her. I hope one day she can forgive me.’ That’s about it, Marc. And he wrote an apology to his girlfriend and his parents for taking his life.”
She gave the criminal liar sitting across from her direct eye contact. “Marc. Was this accusation that Briana Hill raped you a lie?”
He nodded.
“Speak up, Marc. Is that a yes?” Yuki asked.
“Yes. It was what she said it was. A game.”