Leaving Berlin

“But the West—you’d think they’d have a field day with this. The propaganda. If they really want to hit the Soviets.”

 

 

“It’s hard to get information. Not so many leave now. And of course the ones who do speak are discredited. So it’s rumors.” He looked up. “Conversations like this.”

 

“Which we’re not having.”

 

“No,” Aaron said, a faint smile. “Literary conversation only.”

 

“I didn’t mean to pry—about the committee. Thank you for being so frank.”

 

“Frank. Indiscreet, Helga would say.” He looked up at the sky. “You know, it’s not always like this here. It’s just a sensitivity, the mines. When you think—how desperate they must be to risk all this good will, for pitchblende.”

 

“Maybe they don’t care.”

 

“No, I don’t think it’s that,” Aaron said, thoughtful. “I hope not. How can we do this without them?”

 

“Do what?”

 

“Make a new life for Germany. The Russians are here. What other choice is there? When I was in Mexico I used to think how it would be, when the Nazis were finally gone. When it was our chance. And now it is.” He looked over at Alex. “So you work with what you have. Well, I’m talking too much. I should get back to the office. You can find your way?”

 

“Were you ever tempted to stay? In Mexico?”

 

“In Mexico? My God, no. I couldn’t wait to get back to—” He stopped, laughing at himself. “Civilization.” He looked around at the ruins. “Well, it doesn’t seem so now, does it? But you know, we are a civilized people.” He paused. “Don’t worry, you’ve done the right thing. We’ll clean all this up. You’ll help. And then we’ll see what we can be.”

 

 

 

* * *

 

 

 

It was already dark, Unter den Linden like a long open field swept every once in a while by the headlights of military transports, high off the ground, and the fainter beams of a few cars. In the quiet he could hear the airlift planes overhead. How to get Erich out? Train, car—the usual exits were closed. Getting to the frontier now would mean traveling across the Soviet zone, a desperate risk for a POW on the run. He could walk to a Western sector in Berlin, but that was no guarantee—the Soviets picked up people wherever they felt like it, snatched them right off the streets. He thought of Lützowplatz, the squeal of tires. And who would hide him? Gustav, with one hand already on the phone, doing the right thing? Willy might have done Alex the favor of getting him into the American hospital, but Willy was dead. Any approach now to BOB would put both of them at risk. And Erich would still be in Berlin. He looked up. The only way out was by plane, and for that he’d need more than a favor.

 

It took him a few seconds to realize the sidewalk was being lit up by a car behind him. Not speeding, not passing, trailing at his pace. Instinctively he glanced away from the road. The buildings were set back from the sidewalk here, not flush as they’d been at Lützowplatz. Any grab would involve leaping the curb, pinning him in with the car. A showy maneuver, drawing attention. If that mattered. The bridge soon, the blackened city palace beyond, the light still steady behind him. His throat felt dry, the saliva drained away. Then the light moved up, alongside.

 

“Alex.”

 

Impossible to pretend he hadn’t heard, impossible to run. He turned to the car, the rolled-down window. Markus.

 

“Come, I’ll give you a lift.”

 

“I don’t want to take you out of your way,” Alex said, leaning toward the window.

 

“Not at all. A pleasure. Get in.” Not quite an order, the voice genial.

 

The car was warm, a heater blasting from under the dashboard.

 

“A cold night for a walk,” Markus said. “I thought it was you. The other man, that was Stein?”

 

“Yes, there was a reception at Aufbau. To meet the staff. A nice occasion.”

 

“And then he came out to walk with you.”

 

“Just for some air. He had to get something, I think. I don’t know what.”

 

“Cigarettes, perhaps. A great smoker.”

 

“Yes.” Not saying anything more, waiting.

 

“A serious conversation. What were you talking about? Do you mind if I ask?”

 

“My books. They’re bringing out new editions. They showed me the jackets earlier.”

 

“You found them attractive?”

 

“Yes, very.”

 

“So you’re pleased with Aufbau? Good. He’s very respected, I think, Stein. For his literary opinions. What else did you talk about?”

 

Pressing. Or testing? What if the walls did have ears?

 

“Books, mostly. A Festschrift they’re putting together. For Stalin’s birthday.”

 

“Ah yes? That will please him, I think. A loyal gesture. You’re contributing?”

 

“Yes, I was pleased to be asked. Being new here.”

 

“So, a change of heart since ’39? No more objections to the nonaggression pact? All is forgiven?”

 

“Anyone can make a mistake. He made it right in the end. That’s all that matters now.”

 

“This is not—do you mind my saying?—the version of history you should offer in the Festschrift.”

 

Alex looked over. As close as Markus could come to making a joke. He was smiling, pleased with himself.

 

“No. Anyway, it’s a long time ago now.” A new thought. “How do you know I objected to the pact? You were, what, fourteen, fifteen?”

 

“It’s in your file.”

 

“I have a file?”

 

“Everybody has a file. Some, more than one.”

 

“Really. And what’s in mine?”

 

“Good things. Don’t worry.”

 

“Just curious. Why would anybody be interested?”

 

“You were invited to be a guest of the SMA. Naturally such invitations are only extended to persons who are—reliable.”

 

“Well, then I must have passed.”

 

“Oh yes. Your statement to the Fascist committee was really admirable.” Said warmly, without his usual innuendo. “And you have made a good impression here.”

 

“Oh,” Alex said, not expecting this.

 

“Yes, it’s very pleasing. Not just to me personally—you know, to see an old friend so well received. But it makes it easier.”

 

“Makes what easier?”

 

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