Perhaps it was the fatigue, perhaps it was the stress. But he felt his eyes burning at the word.
He longed to go home.
But not to Montreal.
Here. This was home. He longed to crawl under the duvet at the B and B, to hear the blizzard howl outside and do its worst and to know he was warm, and safe.
God help him, this was home.
Beauvoir stood and smiled at Clara, something that felt at once foreign and familiar. He didn’t smile often. Not with suspects. Not at all.
But he smiled now, a weary, grateful grin.
“I’d like that but there’s something I have to do first.”
Before he left he went into the washroom and splashed cold water onto his face. He looked into the reflection and saw there a man far older than his thirty-eight years. Drawn and tired. And not wanting to do what came next.
He felt an ache deep down.
Bringing the pill bottle out of his pocket he placed it on the counter and stared at it. Then pouring himself a glass of water he shook a pill into his palm. Carefully breaking it in half he swallowed it with a quick swig.
Picking up the other half from the white porcelain rim of the sink he hesitated then quickly tossed it back in the bottle before he could change his mind.
Clara walked him to the front door.
“Can I come by in an hour?” he asked.
“Of course,” she said and added, “bring Ruth.”
How did she know? Perhaps, he thought as he plunged into the storm, he wasn’t as clever as all that. Or perhaps, he thought as the storm fought back, they know me here.
“What do you want?” Ruth demanded, opening the door before he knocked. A swirl of snow came in with him and Ruth whacked his clothing, caked in snow. At least, he thought that was why she was batting away at him, though he had to admit the snow was long gone and still she hit him.
“You know what I want.”
“You’re lucky I have such a generous spirit, dick-head.”
“I’m lucky you’re delusional,” he muttered, following her into the now familiar home.
Ruth made popcorn, as though this was trivial. Entertainment. And poured herself a Scotch, not offering him one. He didn’t need it. He could feel the effects of the pill.
Her computer was already set up on the plastic garden table in her kitchen and they sat side-by-side in wobbly pre-formed plastic chairs.
Ruth pressed a button and up came the site.
Beauvoir looked at her. “Have you watched it?”
“No,” she said, staring at the screen, not at him. “I was waiting for you.”
Beauvoir took a deep ragged breath, exhaled, and hit play.
“Too bad about Champlain,” said émile as they walked down St-Stanislas and across rue St-Jean, waiting for revelers to pass like rush-hour traffic.
It was beginning to snow. Huge, soft flakes drifted down, caught in the street lamps and the headlights of cars. The forecast was for a storm coming their way. A foot or more expected overnight. This was just the vanguard, the first hints of what was to come.
Quebec City was never lovelier than in a storm and the aftermath, when the sun came out and revealed a magical kingdom, softened and muffled by the thick covering. Fresh and clean, a world unsullied, unmarred.
At the old stone home émile got out his key. Through the lace curtains on the door they could see Henri hiding behind a pillar, watching.
Gamache smiled then brought his mind back to the case. The curious case of the woman in Champlain’s coffin.
Who was she, and what happened to Champlain? Where’d he go? Seemed his explorations didn’t end with his death.
Once inside Gamache took Henri for a walk and when he returned émile had set the laptop on the coffee table, put out a bottle of Scotch, lit the fire and was waiting.
The elderly man stood in the center of the room, his arms at his side. He looked formal, almost rigid.
“What is it, émile?”
“I’d like to watch the video with you.”
“Now?”
“Now.”
All through the walk the Chief Inspector had been preparing himself for this. The cold flakes on his face had been refreshing and he’d stopped and tilted his face up, closing his eyes and opening his mouth, to catch them.
“I love doing that,” Morin said. “But the snow has to be just right.”
“You were a connoisseur?” the Chief asked.
“Still am. The flakes have to be the big, fluffy kind. The ones that just drift down. None of the hard, small flakes you get in storms. That’s no fun. They go up your nose and get in your ears. Get everywhere. No it’s the big ones you want.”
Gamache knew what he meant. He’d done it himself, as a child. Had watched Daniel and Annie do it. Children didn’t need to be taught, it seemed instinctive to catch snowflakes with your tongue.
“There’s a technique, of course,” said Morin in a serious voice, as though he’d studied it. “You have to close your eyes, otherwise the snow gets in them, and stick out your tongue.”
There was a pause and the Chief Inspector knew the young agent was sitting, bound to the chair, his head tilted back, his eyes closed, his tongue out. Catching snowflakes.
“Now,” agreed Gamache and after bending down to release Henri, he walked to the sofa and sat before the laptop.
“I found the site.” émile sat and looked over at Armand in profile. The trim beard suited the man, now that émile had gotten used to it. Gamache’s eyes were steady, staring at the screen, then he turned and looked directly at his mentor.
“Merci.”
émile paused, taken by surprise. “What for?”
“For not leaving me.”
émile reached out and touched Gamache on the arm, then clicked the button and the video started to play.