At first this didn’t seem like much of a big deal. After all, we left our old lives behind when we became colonists. We said good-bye to the people who we weren’t taking with us, and most of us knew it would be a very long time if ever until we saw those people again. But even for all that, the lines weren’t completely severed. A skip drone was supposed to leave the colony on a daily basis, carrying letters and news and information back to the Colonial Union. A skip drone was supposed to arrive on a daily basis, too, with mail, and news and new shows and songs and stories and other ways that we could still feel that we were part of humanity, despite being stuck on a colony, planting corn.
And now, none of that. It was all gone. The no new stories and music and shows were what hit you first—a bad thing if you were hooked on a show or band before you left and were hoping to keep up with it—but then you realized that what it really meant was from now on you wouldn’t know anything about the lives of the people you left behind. You wouldn’t see a beloved baby nephew’s first steps. You wouldn’t know if your grandmother had passed away. You wouldn’t see the recordings your best friend took of her wedding, or read the stories that another friend was writing and desperately trying to sell, or see pictures of the places you used to love, with the people you still love standing in the foreground. All of it was gone, maybe forever.
When that realization hit, it hit people hard—and an even harder hit was the realization that everyone else that any of us ever cared about knew nothing about what happened to us. If the Colonial Union wasn’t going to tell us where we were going in order to fool this Conclave thing, they certainly weren’t going to tell everyone else that they had pulled a fast one with our whereabouts. Everyone we ever knew thought we were lost. Some of them probably thought we had been killed. John and Jane and I didn’t have much to worry about on this score—we were each other’s family, and all the family we had—but everyone else had someone who was even now mourning them. Savitri’s mother and grandmother were still alive; the expression on her face when she realized that they probably thought she was dead made me rush over to give her a hug.
I didn’t even want to think about how the Obin were handling our disappearance. I just hoped the Colonial Union ambassador to the Obin had on clean underwear when the Obin came to call.
The second sacrifice was harder.
“You’re here,” Jane said, as I walked up to her. She reached down to pet Babar, who had come bounding up to her.
“Apparently,” I said. “Is it always like this?”
“Like what?” Jane said.
“Muddy,” I said. “Rainy. Cold. Sucky.”
“We’re arriving at the beginning of spring here,” Jane said. “It’s going to be like this for a little while. I think things will get better.”
“You think so?” I asked.
“I hope so,” Jane said. “But we don’t know. The information we have on the planet is slim. The Colonial Union doesn’t seem to have done a normal survey here. And we won’t be able to put up a satellite to track weather and climate. So we have to hope it gets better. It would be better if we could know. But hoping is what we have. Where’s Gretchen?”
I nodded in the direction I saw her go. “I think she’s looking for her dad,” I said.
“Everything all right between you two?” Jane said. “You’re rarely without each other.”
“It’s fine,” I said. “Everyone’s twitchy these last few days, Mom. So are we, I guess.”
“How about your other friends?” Jane asked.
I shrugged. “I haven’t seen too much of Enzo in the last couple of days,” I said. “I think he’s taking the idea of being stranded out here pretty badly. Even Magdy hasn’t been able to cheer him up. I went to go visit him a couple of times, but he doesn’t want to say much, and it’s not like I’ve been that cheerful myself. He’s sending me poems, still, though. On paper. He has Magdy deliver them. Magdy hates that, by the way.”
Jane smiled. “Enzo’s a nice boy,” she said.
“I know,” I said. “I think I didn’t pick a great time to decide to make him my boyfriend, though.”
“Well, you said it, everyone’s twitchy the last few days,” Jane said. “It’ll get better.”
“I hope so,” I said, and I did. I did moody and depressed with the best of them, but even I have my limits, and I was getting near them. “Where’s Dad? And where’s Hickory and Dickory?” The two of them had gone down in one of the first shuttles with Mom and Dad; between them making themselves scarce on the Magellan and being away for the last few days, I was starting to miss them.
“Hickory and Dickory we have out doing a survey of the surrounding area,” Jane said. “They’re helping us get a lay of the land. It keeps them busy and useful, and keeps them out of the way of most of the colonists at the moment. I don’t think any of them are feeling very friendly toward nonhumans at the moment, and we’d just as soon avoid someone trying to pick a fight with them.”
I nodded at this. Anyone who tried to pick a fight with Hickory or Dickory was going to end up with something broken, at least. Which would not make the two of them popular, even (or maybe especially) if they were in the right. Mom and Dad were smart to get them out of the way for now.
“Your dad is with Manfred Trujillo,” Jane said, mentioning Gretchen’s dad. “They’re laying out the temporary village. They’re laying it out like a Roman Legion encampment.”