TWELVE
SHE SAID IT AGAIN, WITH MORE DESPERATION IN HER VOICE. “They rooted her.”
“You mean…” The experiment she’d talked about. The experiment that had been only theoretical, technology meshing with the organic and speeding the evolution. I stared at the scars on Laila’s legs. Scars like that didn’t come without pain and suffering. I knew firsthand about things like that. “Oh my god.”
Laila collapsed.
Dr. Emerson was pale and her hands shook as she removed Laila’s jeans. “Can you carry her to the bed?”
I lifted Laila, trying to ignore the fact I’d never been this close to a girl in her underwear, if Laila could in fact be considered a girl. Although holding her in my arms, she seemed like nothing but girl.
“Is she going to be okay?” I asked as I laid her down.
Dr. Emerson tucked the covers around her. “I’m not sure.”
I glanced at her. “What are you talking about? She’s just weak, we’ll just take her to a hospital, get her some medicine or some rest.…”
“Don’t you understand?” Dr. Emerson wiped tears off her face with one hand. “A hospital can’t help her. She drew her strength from the others. That was part of the next phase of the experiment, after the rooting, to get them out of the Greenhouse, see if their symbiosis was enough to keep their abilities without the constant sun and warmth. None of it would be valid if they had to just sit in the Greenhouse forever. The process had to have practical applications.”
I sat down on the edge of the bed. “The Greenhouse?”
Dr. Emerson set a hand on my arm. “Without the others, she’s lost her strength. She can’t do it on her own. She can’t give herself what she needs.”
From where I sat, I could feel Laila’s warmth. “There must be something we can do.” Laila’s eyelashes fluttered, and I wondered if she was dreaming. What would she dream of? Life in a greenhouse?
Maybe she dreamed of freedom.
Maybe she dreamed of me.
Dr. Emerson’s voice was gentle. “Short of taking her back to TroDyn, no, there’s nothing we can do.”
“Then we have no choice.” I turned. “We take her back.”
She slammed her hand down on the night table. “Absolutely not. I won’t allow it.”
I pointed at her. “I don’t think it’s up to you.”
She laughed. “Are you serious? Who put you in charge?”
“I’m the one who got her out of there. I’m the one who’s taking care of her, and I’m going to keep taking care of her.” I touched Laila’s arm, then took hold and shook it a bit. “Hey. Wake up.”
“She’s had a shock.” Dr. Emerson grabbed my arm, not unkindly. “Let her rest.”
“She’s better off alive than dead.”
“Not always.” Her eyes moved down my scar and back up.
“You’ve got to be kidding me. You think I’d be better off dead than look like this?”
“No, not for a second. But trust me: Her existence was not what you or I would call living.”
“Still.” My hand drifted to Laila’s hair and I let it rest there a bit. She was so beautiful and peaceful. Whatever it meant for her, I couldn’t live with myself if I let her go. I turned back to Dr. Emerson. “Will you tell me how to get her in?”
Her shoulders slumped. “Oh, they’ll open the doors wide when you show up with her. I can only imagine the search they’ve put on.”
I scratched my chin as it dawned on me that someone else would be freaking. Mom would be worried. But then, why hadn’t she called? I pulled my phone out of my pants. I’d forgotten I had turned it off. There were eleven missed calls, all from my mom. I locked myself in the bathroom. She answered on the first ring. “Mason?”
“Yeah.”
Her words were quick and quiet. “Where are you? Are you all right?”
“We’re in Portland.”
“You and Jack? Why aren’t you at the cabin?”
I grimaced. She had no idea about anything that had happened in the less than twenty-four hours since we’d left the Haven. Unless she’d jumped to some conclusions. We did disappear at the same time as one of her charges. “We … had some stuff to do.”
“Oh.” She sounded weary.
“Mom? You okay?”
“I haven’t been drinking, if that’s what you mean.”
“No, it’s not that. You sound tired.”
“I’ve been up all night. There’s trouble at work.”
“Mom … I need to tell you something.” And I told her, everything that had happened up until Powell’s. After that, I just couldn’t go there. “Did you suspect? That Jack and I…”
“I wondered,” she said. “They took the others. After they found out the girl was gone.”
“Back to TroDyn?”
She inhaled sharply, and then said, “Yes.”
“I know what they are. The kids.”
She sighed.
“What’s going on?”
“You need to come home. I’ll tell you everything.”
Everything? “Mom, are you taking money from TroDyn?”
Her answer was quiet. “Yes.”
“Because of me.”
“And I’ve put it all away for you.” She was silent for a moment. “Mason, we can deal with this.”
“The girl, she might be dying. How do we deal with that?”
She was silent. “I’m not sure there’s anything you can do about that.”
“There has to be. Someone at TroDyn will help her.”
She whispered, “I don’t want you there. Promise me.”
“Then tell me where to go, Mom. Tell me where else to go to save her.”
Her answer was immediate. “There is nowhere.”
“Besides TroDyn, you mean.”
“Do not go there.”
“You can’t stop me.” I slapped my phone closed and unlocked the bathroom door.
“How long does she have?” I asked Dr. Emerson.
She laid a hand on Laila’s cheek. “About as long as anyone would have without food or water. Probably less, since she’d been relying on symbiosis rather than direct feeding from the sun.”
“Would sun help?”
She nodded, and then tilted her head toward the window, where the sky was still completely overcast. “Got any?”
“Could we take her to a tanning booth or something?”
“No. The lighting at TroDyn was a true replication of sunlight. Tanning beds have some rays filtered out. It would be like you drinking a glass of milk that had Vitamin D and calcium stripped from it. Nothing you can use. And the sun would be only a temporary fix anyway. Until she’s an adult, she still requires the symbiosis.”
A glimmer of hope planted itself in my gut. “What happens when she’s an adult?”
She scratched her head. “Again, I’m just working off of theory, but the scientists thought that once the kids stopped growing, they might retain their abilities to photosynthesize without needing anyone else. They might be able to live independently. Possibly. Again, it was just theory, not tested.”
“Why didn’t TroDyn just do it all in a sunny climate?”
“They needed to be in complete control, regulate the sunlight perfectly. To turn it on and off as they needed. Even Hawaii has cloudy days. And to be honest, TroDyn has a bottom line just like every other company. They got some tax breaks that wouldn’t happen in Hawaii or California.”
“So how long do we have?”
“Maybe twenty-four hours. All we can do is make sure she’s comfortable.”
To hell with that. I grabbed Laila’s jeans off the couch and pulled back the covers.
Dr. Emerson frowned. “What are you doing?”
“Getting her dressed.”
She asked, “Why?”
“I’m getting her some help.” I picked up Laila’s ankle and started dressing her.
“You can’t!” Dr. Emerson grabbed my arm, and I shoved her off.
“I’m not going to sit here and watch her die when there is someone who can help her.”
Dr. Emerson tried to hold on to my arm again, and I shook her off, hard enough that she landed on her butt. “Sorry. But you’re not stopping me.”
She didn’t even try to get up. “Do you realize what you’re doing?”
I didn’t answer. I knew I was probably making a big mistake. But I felt like I had no choice.
I scooped Laila up in my arms and turned around to face Dr. Emerson. She was standing now, and not making any move to stop me. The Prius keys were on the lamp table by the door, and I picked them up. “I’m borrowing your car.” Not looking back, I walked out, taking the stairs down, managing to get into the Prius without meeting anyone.
Laila lay scrunched across the backseat. Every ounce of my reserve was needed to not just grab her, cradle her, and tell her to hang on until I could fix everything. I’d known her less than a day. What was I thinking?
I called Jack’s cell. He didn’t answer, so I texted. He replied immediately. He was on the way home from the hospital with a cast on his leg, his dislocated shoulder in an official sling. His mother had banned any phone calls. Luckily, Jack was a covert texter.
I texted him an update, ending with telling him I was heading to TroDyn with the girl.
His reply: Have 2 b the hero?
Yup
Gonna end badly
I hit the reply with copy button: Yup
But u dont care
Nope
Hope shes worth it dude
My thumbs were poised over the keys. Then I typed: Me too
Be smart. Cant save everyone. Maybe u cant save her
I can try. Have to!!!!!
I snapped my phone shut and slipped it back into my pocket. Maybe she couldn’t be saved by me. By anyone. But I had to try. I couldn’t live with myself if I didn’t at least try.
I started the car and backed out. Shifting into drive, I was just about to press the pedal when Dr. Emerson appeared in front of the car, blocking my way. When she saw I wasn’t going to move, she walked around to the driver’s side and opened the door. “I’ll drive,” she said.
She saw my hesitation, that I didn’t trust her. She rested a hand on my shoulder. “I don’t agree with this. But I don’t want to see her die either.”
I climbed in the back, my legs stretched out between the bucket seats, and put Laila’s head in my lap as we headed toward Melby Falls.
I couldn’t help but wonder about my mom, her connection to Laila. What was it? There was so much she had known all along and hadn’t told me. She’d known about Laila and the others, what they were. Is that why she couldn’t live with herself? Why she drank herself into a stupor whenever possible? Was she one of the scientists who worked on the project? Was she going to have me, and that’s why she left? She didn’t want me in the project?
My whole life I thought it was me. My scar. Her guilt over not being able to protect me from Packer that day.
Laila’s eyes opened and she locked onto my gaze. “What’s going on?”
I couldn’t bring myself to tell her we were going to TroDyn, so I simply said, “We’re getting you some help.”
The corners of her mouth turned upward and she reached a hand to my face. Her touch was warm, and goose bumps rose on my arms. Her voice was low. “Thank you.” Then her eyes shut, but her hand stayed on my face for another moment before dropping back to her side.
There was no way out until I saw it through. Saw Laila through to whatever end there might be. And the end seemed to be pointing toward TroDyn. Laila rolled over, her arm reaching back, exposing the tattoo on her arm. I lifted it up. “What do you know about this tattoo?”
Dr. Emerson looked in the rearview mirror. “Just an identifier. The Karner Blue butterfly. Do you know about them?”
“Yeah, a little.” I didn’t mention I’d first heard of them only a couple of hours ago.
“You know they’re completely dependent on one plant, the wild lupine?”
I nodded. “They’re losing their habitat.”
She said, “Yes. The tattoo of the Karner Blue is kind of a metaphor. For humans? We depend on food, that’s it. This earth is our lupine. And we’re killing it. One day soon, our habitat will disappear, and our food with it, just like the lupine is disappearing for the Karner Blue.”
“So the tattoos are a reminder?”
She nodded. “That what we were working on, the autotroph project, was in essence making sure we knew how to live without our lupine before it’s all gone.”
“You all have them?”
She shook her head. “No, just the … autotrophs themselves.”
Then why did my dad have a blue butterfly tattoo? Coincidence? A different species—not a Karner Blue? I thought about seeing Laila’s tattoo the first time, right after I’d woken her at the Haven. “Hey.”
Dr. Emerson raised her eyebrows. “Yes?”
“Well, when Laila first spoke to me, at the Haven of Peace, she was scared. She was convinced someone was going to find her.”
A corner of her mouth raised. “She wasn’t wrong.”
“No, I mean a specific person. She said, ‘The Gardener will find me.’”
The corner of Dr. Emerson’s mouth flinched just a little at the name.
“What?” I demanded.
“The Gardener is head of the autotroph project.”
So it hadn’t just been from the book. The Gardener was real. I wanted to know something else. “She was so afraid when she said it. Should Laila be afraid of the Gardener?”
Dr. Emerson looked out the front window, her eyes distant. “We should all be afraid of the Gardener.”