CHAPTER 14
Yesterday, she hadn’t left her room.
Hadn’t even left her bed.
She had prepared for his death.
Had known it was coming.
But watching the sun rise on a world without Ethan had nearly killed her regardless. Somehow, the light had made it real. The people out on morning walks. Even the chattering magpies in the side-yard birdfeeder. It was the continuance of things that crushed her already broken heart. The gears of the world turning on while she lived with his absence like a black tumor in her chest, the grief so potent she could barely bring herself to breathe.
Today, she had ventured outside, now sitting listless in the soft grass of her backyard in a patch of sunshine. She’d been staring up at the surrounding mountain walls for hours, watching the light move across them and trying not to think about a single thing.
The sound of approaching footsteps broke her reverie.
She looked back.
Pilcher was coming toward her.
During her time in Wayward Pines, she’d seen the man around town on numerous occasions, but they’d never spoken—she’d been warned about that from the beginning. Not a word exchanged since that rainy night five years ago in Seattle, when he’d shown up on her doorstep with the most outlandish proposition.
Pilcher sat down beside her in the grass.
He took off his glasses, set them on his leg, said, “I’m told you missed your harvest day at the co-op.”
“I haven’t left my house in two days.”
“And what’s that supposed to accomplish?” he asked.
“I don’t know. But I can’t take people looking at me. We can’t talk about him, of course, but I’d see the pity in their eyes. Or worse, they’d ignore me. Act like nothing happened. Like he never existed. I haven’t even told my son that his father’s dead. I don’t know how to begin.”
It would be evening soon.
The sky was free of clouds.
The row of aspen saplings that separated her backyard from her neighbor’s had turned to gold overnight, the coin-shaped leaves twittering in the breeze. She could hear the wooden wind chimes clanging on the back porch beside the door. It was moments like this—the visual perfection underscored with a reality she could never know—that she feared would one day drive her to insanity.
“You’ve done well here,” Pilcher said. “The difficulties with Ethan were the last thing I ever wanted. I hope you believe that.”
She looked at Pilcher, stared straight into his black eyes.
“I don’t know what I believe,” she said.
“Your son’s inside?”
“Yes, why?”
“I want you to go in and get him. I have a car parked out front.”
“Where are you taking us?”
He shook his head.
“Are you going to hurt Benjamin?”
Pilcher struggled onto his feet.
He stared down at her.
“If I wanted to hurt you, Theresa, I would take you and your son in the middle of the night, and no one would ever hear from you again. But you already know this. Now go get him. I’ll meet you out front in two minutes.”