Grant nodded solemnly, and Logan’s arms gathered him in a firm embrace. Suffocated by Logan’s brawny hold, Grant barely heard him say once more, “Be good.”
Feeling his uncle’s hand patting his knee brought Grant back to the present. He looked around through blurry eyes, taking in the cream, blue, and gold of the church. He realized he was crying openly. Joe gently nudged him, handing him his handkerchief, which Grant scooped up gratefully.
Arriving late, a woman in a simple black dress and a not-so-simple wide-brimmed black hat quietly crept down the side aisle, walking on the balls of her feet to prevent her patent-leather heels from clicking on the floor. She slid into an empty pew at the rear of the church and breathed out, relieved that she seemed to go unnoticed. However, Detective Fox smirked when she saw the woman glide gracefully into her seat. She’d been wondering if Sophie Taylor would attend.
Feeling protected by her ridiculously large hat, Sophie took in the somber surroundings. Her eyes swept over the mourners sitting quietly as the cantor sang, and as soon as she determined her father had not followed her here, she allowed her shoulders to drop, releasing the tension she’d been carrying the past two days. She welcomed a brief respite from the conflict with her father, who had exploded upon learning of her relationship with Grant. He had forbidden her to attend Logan’s funeral, and she prayed he would not discover her presence.
Noting the closed coffin near the altar, Sophie felt a sickening heaviness. Such a wasted life. Logan had been only thirty-five years old. As a woman with twenty-nine years already under her belt, Sophie could not imagine having only six more to live. Prison had stalled her goals, and she still had so much she wanted to accomplish …
Her eyes wandered to the left of the altar, and she saw the back of his head about twenty rows in front of her. She held her breath and instinctively slouched down in the pew. That perfectly shaped skull, covered in buzzed black hair, could be none other than Grant. Her father had warned her to stay away from him, and she desperately wanted to follow his advice. But she couldn’t. She just had to see him—she had to know how he was coping with the loss of his brother. It must have devastated him.
Sophie watched as he protectively draped his arm across the shoulders of a boy sitting next to him. To the boy’s right was a blond woman, who anxiously turned to her son. In profile, Sophie recognized her from the ship. Ashley was her name?
The priest gestured to the congregation, and all stood on cue as the priest sang the antiphon, wishing everlasting rest for the recently departed.
Sophie clenched the church program in her hand. She remembered Logan’s edgy deep-blue eyes, darting around her office, avoiding her stare, fighting off tears as he told her stories from his painful childhood. She hoped Logan had finally found some rest.
The crowd returned to sitting or kneeling as several men made their way to the center aisle and toward the coffin. Grant and the boy, who must be his nephew, were among them, as well as a man dressed in a military uniform, who must be Grant’s uncle. Sophie thought she recognized Angelo Barberi in the mix as well.
The six men arranged themselves around the raised coffin—Joe, Grant, and Ben on one side, and Angelo, Carlo, and Tank on the other. Angelo glanced at Tank, the wrong sixth man. It should be Enzo, he thought. Angelo felt the familiar hatred when he aimed his icy stare at the back of his son’s head. Carlo had taken his brother from him, and now he’d stolen his godson too.
The men hoisted the coffin over their shoulders, attempting to accommodate the shorter sixteen year old among them. Feeling the weight of his brother’s body on his shoulder, Grant’s knees almost buckled. It wasn’t only the physical weight burdening him, but also the emotional load—the burden of never feeling good enough for his older brother to want to be with him, and the weight of his brother’s dysfunctional addictions, which Grant had been helpless to fight. Logan may have failed Grant, but Grant believed he had failed him in return. The heavy loss crushed his fragile spirit, and he cried once again.
As the subdued group proceeded down the aisle, Sophie’s eyes never left Grant. He looked devastatingly handsome in his black suit and tie, but what took her breath away were his glistening tears. She longed to touch him, to try to comfort him, but he passed her row without a glance in her direction. She looked at her hands in her lap. Maybe she’d missed her chance with him. Maybe it was too late.
Once the men placed the coffin in the hearse, they dispersed, preparing to drive to the cemetery for the burial.
Grant, Joe, Ben, and Ashley stood in a foursome. Eyeing the corner of the building where his brother had hugged him eighteen years ago, Grant felt pulled to that spot. “Um, Joe? I need a minute.”
“Sure, Grant. Take all the time you need.”
He approached the grassy spot, then leaned his back against the stone and allowed his eyes to flutter shut. Grant was so tired, yet standing here also infused him with some sort of spiritual energy. He felt closer to Logan in this spot.
Ashley watched Grant retreat. “I guess it would be hell to lose your only sibling,” she mused. “Still, I’m kind of surprised how destroyed Grant seems to be, especially after what Lo did to him.”
Joe studied her curiously. “What Lo did to him?”
“You know, forcing him to pull that robbery.”
Ben morphed from bored teenager to piqued young man, and he leaned in to hear their conversation.
“What do you mean?” Joe asked. “Who forced Grant to steal that money?”
“You don’t know?” Ashley’s voice lilted with surprise. “You don’t know about Logan’s threat if Grant didn’t pull that job?”
“I assure you I have no idea what you’re referring to, Ashley.”
She stared at Grant’s uncle. He’d never told him? Why? Glancing at the man slumped against the church wall, Ashley stammered, “Um, maybe I—I shouldn’t tell you. Maybe he should—”
“Tell me, Ashley. Tell me what Logan did.”
His commanding voice startled her. Meeting Joe’s strong stare, Ashley confessed, “Logan told Grant they would kill you if he didn’t help them rob that club.”
Joe blinked several times, gazing at Ashley and then over at Grant.
“You’re lying!” Ben hissed, his eyes narrowing with rage. “My dad would never do that!”
“Ben, I’m sorry,” Ashley placed her hand on his shoulder, but he quickly shrugged it off. “But it’s true. Logan admitted it to me himself.”
“No!” Ben retorted, sounding younger than his age. “You know what? I can’t take this shit anymore!” He pivoted and furiously strode away, heading toward Carlo and Angelo.
Ashley drew in her breath. “Should I go after him?”
“Just let him be for awhile, Ashley. Give him some space.” Joe sighed sadly, still shaking off Ashley’s news. “His father wasn’t all that different. Looks like Ben inherited Logan’s short fuse.”