Long, spindly fingers wrapped themselves around my ankles like brambles in a hedge. Twig. A sickening expression crossed her face, half of hunger and half of pity. No, I thought. No. Not Twig. Not her too.
Goblin and changeling lurched closer, the scent of my blood drawing them to me like moths to the flame. The intensity of my emotions, my mortal life, sustained them. Fed them. Fueled them. I kicked out, trying to shake them off, but they clung tighter than burrs.
“Stop,” I said. “Please, stop!”
But they were gone, their black eyes blank in a haze of hunger. I wrenched Thistle’s fingers off the skirt of my dress, pried myself from Twig’s grip, but they were relentless. Skittering from the shadows came other goblins, the flickering waves of my fear drawing them out of the darkness.
This is it, I thought. This is how I die. Unremembered, unsung, torn apart by ravenous hands.
A blast of anger returned strength to my limbs. Beyond the edges of panic and fear, there was clarity. There was sharpness. This would not be how I died. If I were to die, it would not be in this ignominious way. If I were to die, I would choose how. Was I not the Goblin Queen? My subjects were bound by my desire, by my wishes.
“Enough.”
My word was my command. They froze, bound by my will and the wish I hadn’t needed to speak aloud. Not anymore. I pushed them all away, and they toppled over where they stood. I stepped on their fingers out of spite, hearing the bones snap like twigs underfoot. They flinched with pain, and I relished the agony on their faces. I wanted them to fear me, to be afraid to trespass upon my person.
It wasn’t just the goblins. It was everyone. The Goblin King. Master Antonius. Papa’s condescension. Hans’s bored expression whenever I left him to practice on the klavier. The incredulous looks on the villagers’ faces when they remembered that I, too, had talent. I even wanted to rise above Josef’s shadow on my music. I wanted to bend the entire world—both above and below—to what I needed. For once. Just once.
Just once.
Light my flame, mein Herr, I thought. Light my fire, and watch me burn.
MERCY
“You are not attending, my dear,” the Goblin King said from the klavier.
I looked up from my glass of wine, the stem of which I had been listlessly twirling between my fingers for the past several minutes. An open book sat on my lap, but I had not read a single word in the past hour.
“Hmmm?” I quickly turned the pages. “I am.”
The Goblin King raised a brow. “I’ve stump-fingered my way through three pieces and you’ve not said anything about the notes.”
I coughed to hide the blush creeping up my neck.
Since that first, disastrous evening after dinner, our time together had taken on a comfortable, almost comforting routine. Sometimes we would pass the time by reading aloud to each other. I preferred poetry, but the Goblin King—unsurprisingly—preferred his philosophers. He read Latin, Greek, Italian, French, and German, and spoke a dozen other languages as well. He was astonishingly well learned; he might have been a scholar in the world above.
On other occasions, the Goblin King would play some short pieces on the klavier while I read by the fire. Those were my favorite evenings, when music, not words, filled the silence between us. Tonight my husband played a few Scarlatti sonatinen while I took up a volume of Italian poetry. I did not read Italian, and only understood as much as I needed to know how quickly, how slowly, or how elegantly I ought to play a piece of music. The book was for show; it allowed me to watch the Goblin King from beneath lowered lashes under the pretense of reading.
After that first evening, he never invited me to play my music for him again.
In the beginning, it had been a relief. But as the evenings wore on, the relief turned into guilt, then annoyance, then anger. He was so maddeningly, infuriatingly complacent. He was so assured I would come to him of my own volition, that I would break and lay my music at his feet like a gift, that he could afford to watch me from the klavier with that distant, compassionate look on his face.
But he was wrong. I was already broken, and the music was still trapped inside. It prickled, tickled, and itched in my gut, threatening to claw out of my throat in a scream.
“Is everything all right, Elisabeth?”
No, everything was not all right. It had not been all right since I became Der Erlk?nig’s bride, since he stole my sister away, since he gave me that flute in the marketplace, since before I could remember. It had not been all right since I locked my music away, both in my box and in my heart.
But I could not tell him so. “I’m fine,” I said instead.
His gaze sharpened, the pupils of his eyes dilating to drown the gray and green in black. The Goblin King knew how to interpret my breaths before pauses, the lengths of my measures of rest, my caesuras of speech. He followed my cues as attentively as a musician in an orchestra, waiting for the maestro to take the lead. And he knew whenever I broke tempo.