Wintersong

“Let us say grace,” the Goblin King said, once the servers had retreated.

My fingers were already wrapped around the fork and knife in front of me, and I shamefacedly returned them to my lap. My husband was more devout than I. I was curious about his faith, but kept silent as I bowed my head. The Goblin King asked for the Lord’s blessing upon our meal—in Latin.

Where had he learned Latin? My own Latin was rudimentary at best, half-remembered from Sunday school lessons I had given up in favor of hobnobbing with Josef and the goblins in the wood. Heathens, our mother had called us, with no care or concept for God. But Josef and I hadn’t minded; we were Der Erlk?nig’s own, and he did not believe in God. And yet this Goblin King sat before me, learned in Latin and schooled in music. Just who was he?

“Amen,” he said once he had finished the benediction.

“Amen,” I intoned. We commenced eating. I was amused by the shape of my utensils: the fork, fashioned into a thin, slender goblin hand with its many-jointed fingers and pointed claws serving as the prongs; the knife, suggesting a long fang slipping from a smiling mouth. The servers returned, carving up the boar and transferring the meat—steaming, red, undercooked, still dripping a little with blood—onto a large platter.

We ate without speaking, as I picked at the roast and other winter root vegetables. I spied assorted dishes, custards and flans and other delicacies, but they all turned my stomach. Cooked with a goblin flair, they looked strange, unnatural, rotten: the chocolates muddy, the pastries frosted with slime.

“What, does the food not please you either, my queen?”

I looked up from my repast. The Goblin King wore a sour expression, his lips pulled tight. He picked at his own plate, a meager portion barely touched.

“No, mein Herr.” I rephrased my words. “Your offerings do not tempt me.”

“No?” He drove his fork into his roast with increasing force. “And what would it take to please you, my dear?”

He was in a sullen mood, his lower lip pushed into a pout that rivaled K?the’s. He was like a child denied his favorite toy, a spoiled child accustomed to getting his way.

So I said nothing, giving the Goblin King a nonchalant shrug as I took a large sip of wine.

“So particular, my queen,” he remarked. “You will be here for the rest of your life; you might as well enjoy yourself.”

I had no response to that, so I took another sip of wine.

The meal progressed in silence, a silence that stuck in both our throats. Neither of us ate much, but the goblin servers continued to bring out course after course after course. I tried my best to honor each dish, but the Goblin King had given up all pretense of eating. He drank cup after cup after cup of wine, growing more and more irritable when his servers did not refill his goblet quickly enough. It was the most I had ever seen him drink, but he seemed completely sober. Papa would have been laughing—or crying—by now.

I watched the Goblin King fidget from beneath my lashes. I knew he longed to break the stillness that was not still between us. His mood grew fouler with each passing moment. He slid the platters and bowls on the table back and forth, watching the food slop on the surface and onto the floor, forcing the goblins to clean up after him. I could see the words forming on his tongue, but he clamped his lips shut and swallowed them down, determined not to be the one who broke first.

But he did anyway.

“Well, my dear,” he said at last.

He wanted to fill the empty spaces with sound, with meaningless conversation. He was a little like Josef in that way; Josef, who always played because he could not bear the silence. I was content to shape the quiet into the structures I wanted.

So I waited.

“What scintillating topics shall we discuss over supper?” the Goblin King continued. “We have the rest of your life to reacquaint ourselves, after all.” He took another sip of his wine. “How about the wine? A very good vintage, if I do say so myself.”

Again I said nothing. I methodically took bite after small bite of my food, chewing slowly and carefully.

“What about the weather?” he continued. “Ever-unchanging here in the Underground, but winter in the world above, or so I’ve been told. Spring, they say, is slow to come this year.”

I paused with my fork halfway to my mouth. I thought of what the tailor had said, of the earth belonging to the goblins during the days of winter. The food turned to ash on my tongue, crumbling all the way down my throat. I took another sip of wine.

The Goblin King had had enough. “Will you not speak?” he demanded.

I cut myself another piece of roast. “You were doing a fine job by yourself,” I said mildly.

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