“Raven is Blackbird,” I said. “And Cassava may rule the Rim right now, but not for much longer.” I made a move to sit up and he tugged me back down.
“You need to gain your strength, Lark, before you go after them.”
Peta sniffed. “You see, he is the one for you. He knows enough to not try and talk you out of this.”
I turned my head so I could look into Ash’s eyes. “I do not see this ending well.”
He kissed me gently. “I am with you, Lark. From now until whatever the end holds for us.”
The warmth from Peta, Ash and the fire lulled me into a fog. Despite the fact that I’d been locked up for two years, I was exhausted. I fell asleep, truly warm in both body and spirit.
Child, welcome home.
I was on my feet in an instant, rage burning hotter than the fire at my back. “You miserable whore! You knew I was locked away and you left me when I needed you most!” My voice cracked, but not with tears.
Ash and Peta stared up at me, their eyes wide. My whole body shook and the earth shook around us, trembling as though it too were afraid of me. Or maybe it felt my anger and agreed with me. Peta shifted into her leopard form and slunk toward my feet.
“Lark, calm yourself. Please.”
“No. The mother goddess left me in there to rot as much as Cassava and Raven.” I paced in front of the fire. A slow rolling fog misted over the ground, curling up my legs.
I spun and stared into the dark jungle. “You dare show yourself to me now? NOW?”
Distantly, I knew I was out of control. That some little piece of madness had claimed me.
The mother goddess, though, was no fool. In the guise of my mother, she ghosted toward us. “Child, I could not find you any more than Ash or Peta. That is the power of the oubliette. It blocks all from knowing it.”
“You saw them put me in. You had to know.” I strode toward her, not caring that she was the mother goddess, or that she looked like my mother with her straight white blonde hair and blue eyes. Those eyes flashed.
“You are not my only charge, Larkspur. Others have need of me.”
“You said I was your chosen one, and so you’d leave me to fight for my life.” All the questions I’d pondered while hidden from the world bubbled up. “Did you feel me dying?”
Her eyes flicked away, so fast I almost missed it. I shoved her hard enough to send her onto her ass in a most un-goddess like sprawl. She gaped up at me, shock written in every line of her face. “How dare you?”
Behind me, Ash let out a moan. “Don’t do this, Lark. Please.”
Peta stepped beside me, pressing her body tightly to mine. “You felt her dying and you left her to die. Didn’t you?”
I dropped a hand to Peta and tears sprang to my eyes. At least there was one I could count on. Blinking, I stared at the mother goddess. “Do you wish my death then? Is that what this is? Some twisted way to see me dead? Perhaps Cassava is the one you wanted on the throne all along.”
My words didn’t make sense, not even to me. But they were every fear I’d fought for the last two years. Every doubt, every insecurity, every realization and every hope.
The mother goddess folded her legs under her and spread her pale blue gown around her as though she were the center of a flower. “Sit, Larkspur. Sit.”
I wanted to take my spear and run her through, but instead I sat and folded my legs. Peta lay to my right, but the tension in her body told me everything. She didn’t trust the mother goddess either.
Ash stepped up behind me, but didn’t sit. “I will stand with you, Lark. Even against her.”
I swallowed hard past the lump that grew in my throat. “No. This . . . this is between her and me.”
I tapped my fingers on my knee.
Peta let out a soft growl. “Griffin calls her Viv.”
The mother goddess jerked. “That is fine. Call me Viv.” I knew without her saying so that Viv was short for something else. Not that it mattered. Nothing mattered except this moment.
“Well, Viv. What do you want to tell me?”
She closed her eyes and her image shifted to that of a woman I’d met in my testing. Her long brown hair was the color of mineral-rich soil, and her eyes spun with all the colors found in nature. “You have only met one side of me, Lark. There are two sides to nature, and as such, there are two sides to my personality. I cannot dictate when one is in charge.”
I leaned back, pressing my body against Ash’s legs. “Two.”
“Yes. As there is beauty and light in this world, so is there darkness and death. I cannot tell you what the dark side of me is up to. She is completely blocked from me.”
“What does it matter that you have two sides?” Ash asked.
“Because without realizing it, she is playing Blackbird and me against one another. Aren’t you?” The understanding came hard and fast.
She tipped her head and a tear fell.